"This dress is gonna suit you trust," she tries to convince me again with the 19849489th dress in her hand but all I do is nod my head side to side.

"But it's pink I ain't gonna wear it," the coquetteness of the dress made me gag when I imagine myself wearing it in the party.

"But pink suits you why can't you understand ?!" she rolls her eyes being annoyed of me for being too choosy.

"But I don't like pink why can't you understand ?! Also it's just not so me coded so no," I look for some another dress in that shop roaming around.

"This is so annoying, these dresses are either too revealing or too cute, nothing in between having my standard-" interrupting me from my thought the girl again came up to me with a wide grin on her face.

"How bout this one? Blue suits you a lot, I guess you should try it out," the midnight blue coloured dress caught my attention.

"Kim Blue."

Damn it.

Trying to distract myself I look at the dress again and honestly this is the kind of dress I've been looking for all these times. It's just beautiful in a word.

"Mhm, finally you brought something good, lemme try," getting the dress I made my way towards the changing room.

Later after buying the dress which fitted me perfectly, our day passed with chaos of buying jewellery and other important stuffs for the party.

Shopping with my best friend always is so fun to do, especially because of us being in the ice-cream parlor at the end of the day having our favourite ice-cream.

Heading towards home a heavy sigh slipped out of my lips, all the previous laughter are replaced with a sudden wave of sadness.

This is what happens everyday, making me think all I do is distracting myself from my inner world where I am confused as fuck, where I look for a little peace of mind but can't have a clue about what's wrong with me.

Winter is coming, the comforting chilly wind is slowly turning into a bit harsher, which sends shiver in my spine often.

Holding my jacket close to me I keep walking, trying to recognise my uninvented emotion.

Everything is fine and going as usual, but at the same time nothing is ok at all, the crowd of people and the beauty of nature is nothing but a background which doesn't have a single connection with me.

At the end of the day I'm just all alone, only forcing myself to cope up with the outer world.

It's so hard to do it, I get tired.

Before my footstep slowed down in front of my house, a familiar figure caught my attention.

And we made an eye contact.

I quickly turn around holding the spare key of my house, panicking a little when I heard footstep coming in my way.

"Blue stop please listen-"

Not hearing I hurriedly open the door and close it after heading inside, relieved to know at least he didn't hear the extreme shouts of my parents inside.

Rolling my eyes I went to my room and lock the door so I can't hear their fight as well.

Otherwise it'd be making me overthink tonight again.

Collapsing in my bed I close my eyes, the memory of the accidental eye-contact rushed through my brain.

What did he wanna tell me? Should I have heard?