"YAH YERIN," hearing the familiar voice shaking me while yelling my name I open my eyes, gulping my drools that started to come out of the corner of my lips.

"Have you heard?! It's Kim Leehan's birthday soon and the  whole class is invited in his birthday party!" excitement rushes up in her voice that made me yawn in annoyance.

"Oh," saying it I close my eyes again for sleeping but she shakes me again before I frown.

"Not that reaction again, come on you should be excited because it's your crush's party dude," I yawn again being uninterested.

"I'm not interested in him anymore Soojin," I lean back on my chair still with the same unbothered reaction.

"How can you move on so quick girl like how- ok anyway but you know what," the sudden change of her tone and little shy smile makes me shift my eyes on her with a glimpse of curiosity.

She leans on my ear whispering quietly, "Park Sunghoon is gonna be there."

Hearing the name I can feel my heart skipped a beat and I widen my eyes.

"Ok so,.. I guess you should g-go?!" shuttering a little I try to control myself from breaking down from that traumatising name that still didn't stop haunting me.

Such a disgusting piece of shit.

"I should obviously go and that's why I'm telling you to go, like ain't you gonna support your best friend with her crush cause I seriously can't be alone," I start to feel bad for her for denying her for long but I don't wanna be there as well.

"But-" I start to find for some excuses before she stops me.

"No buts, you're gonna come with me. Also I'm sure you're gonna enjoy, like just loose yourself a little bit now girl because you're getting too boring, ain't you bored already of hiding yourself from the crowd?" her words sent thrills through my spine that gave me a different kind of realisation.

Am I actually getting too boring for her?

"It's not like I hide myself, I just don't like showing off myself being the center of attention," I grit my teeth remembering of that one pick me guy.

Park Sunghoon. So ew.

Disgust fills up my inside as I close my eyes leaning on the chair behind me while slipping out a groan of frustration through my throat.

That one boy had to be my pain in ass that I can't stop thinking about him, his habits and behaviours in any similar situation. And our memories.

Men are so ew in general.

"It's not like you're gonna show off or trying to be an attention seeker girl, partying is just for taking a break from your monotonous life," she again starts to convince me, I open my eyes.

"Let's go to shopping after school then, I don't have any dress for party." dryly replying I slam my head on the desk again to get back to sleep, smiling in between when I can feel her grin and tiny celebration.

I can say no to everyone but not her, just not my best friend.