His sudden confession echoes through the empty garden as I don't seem to believe my ears.

"What?!" my jaw drops on the floor as he finally stops his hooded stare, tilting his neck he grins genuinely.

"Like in front of people we can pretend to date? And maybe will break up after somedays, so the situation can be handled easily rather than making up random excuses," he grins widely making me roll my eyes.

"That's stupid Sunghoon, it's not a novel nor movie that we can be fake dating in real life as well, you gotcha grow up," I groan as his grins falls off his lips.

"But Yerin why can't you understand the fake date actually can work out, we of course ain't gonna fall in love or something like that because it's not a novel as you said?" he tries to convince me but it feels extremely wrong.

All I wanna do is getting far from this Park Sunghoon guy, away from every kind of attention and everything.

"And why can't you understand that I don't want this? I just want everything to clear up and move on to our own ways as it supposed to be," I spill out my thought with heavy breaths, the sudden overwhelming attention builds up it's walls around me, making me more insecured and exposed.

He looks at me in disbelief with my words, "What do you mean by move on to our own way?"

I take a deep breath before looking at his fearful eyes which is screaming to know the truth, at the same time wanting to hide from it.

"I just want my life as how it was before, but you just made it more miserable. You presence is the thing that's becoming problematic for me so just leave me alone," I spill the words that I wanna believe but still can't seem to believe completely.

Did Park Sunghoon actually make my life more problematic?

He just stands up, the soft chilly wind of late autumn made his silky hairs fly, his eyes glistening more as time's flying by.

I can't look at him anymore as I feel slight pain in my throat when I understood that I'm about to burst into tears.

I look back and starts walking when I find him holding my hands with pleading stare.

"Do you actually mean it Yerin? Do you really hate me that much? Did I actually never made you feel any little bit good?" his hairs falling on the front of his eyes is making me unable to look at his eyes. But I can feel the plead in his voice, that cracks at last in the sentence which expose him as raw and vulnerable.

"I hate you Park Sunghoon, and I know you do too, so please leave me alone," he keeps looking at me with parted lips that can't form words.

"Was it not really obvious enough to you Blue? Why can't you understand- I just.. Ah," he stops as he steps back, words stuck in his throat when he groans in frustration.

"You what Sunghoon?" I ask him, trying to catch up his unspoken words.

"Nothing, I hate you more than anyone else, I guess I was quite successful to make your life vulnerable. I'm happier than ever now, don't ever wanna see your face anymore, Kim Blue," saying that, he left.

He left me and never look back at me again.

[ This is the messiest chapter I've ever written- so ew.

I love y'all btw ☝️]