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My feet were stepping forward crossing the heavy storm, gradually taking me somewhere, I don't have any clue where.

And it's not like I care.

Covering myself with a black hoodie and track pants, wearing white headphones, soothing music booming in them as I strolled around like a zombie.

Empty eyes on the street, slowly blinking and fluttering whenever dust goes into them.

Walking ahead with no destination is always intriguing. When you feel free to be in your legs, walking with no worries, without giving a thought about the end, without giving a thought about your....future.

Just long street roads...and you.

'Shit.' I cursed when my eyes throb due to those damn dust particles. I rub them slowly, hissing continuously in pain.

First, not a single second of sleep last night. Then that fucking school. Now, this.

I shake my head when the rain started pouring. Wow. Great. It will make my clothes drenched in seconds, but who cares, right?

I didn't stop my feet, nor wanted a shelter to protect me.

I can protect myself. I don't need those damn tin sheets or bricks to do that work for me.

Twilight spreads its arms again for me, taking me in its safeguard. It was like a second ago when yesterday I was walking here, like always.

I tried but failed.

But not today.

It's my daily habit to walk in these streets. This feels home, this feels safe.

Unlike my house.

Cold and isolated.

The temperature of my surroundings dropped in a flash and I feel my body shivering in cold, my teeth chattered as the storm fasten, satisfied with this I heaved a pleased sigh.

It's been an hour but my heart is nowhere tired from walking. But the feet were. This body always betrayed me, in every decision I make.

When I wanted to go for more and more damage when I wanted more pain for being a useless person. This body....deceived me.

I was now trembling. I feel no pain in my body, totally senseless. Everything is numb.

I liked this.

This coldness.

My eyes shine with tears of joy when I feel my legs going unstable, couldn't able to bear my body weight. A new spark glinted in me when my head starts aching.

I can do it.

Yes, I am going to reach that point, again.

A drop of tear landed on my cheeks when I stumbled on the street in the heavy downpour. I collect myself, huffing with anger.

I can't be weak. I need to be strong.

You have to be tough, Sun.

This world is full of monsters, there's no love in here. People like you, for their interests. They will take advantage of you.

Don't let them.

Don't let this rain break you.

You are strong, you are far more strong from this storm. You have to keep going. You have to reach that point where you can't feel anything, at all.

Not even this coldness.

With the new determination in my eyes, I got up and started walking.

Dizziness is binding my sight. But my road is clear.

I have to meet dark.

Death.

The most beautiful escape.

A loud thud can be heard when my body fell on the road. My eyes immediately closed due to exhaustion. A small smile danced on my lips as I feel everything gets shady in front of my eyes.

I will win.

No one can defeat me.

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