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I don't know what came over me so yeah, here's a SURPRISE UPDATE for you all. Maybe you can get update the day after tomorrow:))

The atmosphere is growing thicker as if engulfing me in its burning flames. My weak shivering legs were jammed on the place, the heart beating fast, and it's increasing per second as I sensed he was approaching me, his every move is making me anxious.

I closed my dizzy eyes for some seconds, giving that time to myself, burring all the fear and uncertainty deep down somewhere in the corner of my head, I opened them again with a flinch when a cloth-covered my bareback.

"Shhh...It's just me!! Just me!" I hear him consoling, just behind me. "Now, look at me!" The deep yet soft voice exclaimed to me. The feeling of his eyes boring into my back is creeping me out.

I feel so naked.

So exposed.

I was covered precisely but, the thing from which I was running is disclosed to him. Now only left is his questions and questions. My throat seems to be empty from water, totally dry like Sahara. It was hard to gulp the hardness in my barren throat.

"No." My little hoarse voice seems so strange to me because of how weak it is when I opposed his saying to look at him. The mind was only now wondering what will his answer be.

Just please let me go!

Don't ask anything!

Because I couldn't make myself to tell you the truth.

I couldn't make myself lie and to you, it's impossible.

I am afraid of what will I explain. I have no clarification.

"I am saying this again to you and I will be saying this for my whole life. I.....I care for you, chipmunk! I know how you are. I am with you since we are eleven. What do you think I didn't know you? Huh!? I am well aware of your liking. You can never like this thing at all. "

Care.

Ugh!!

A dangerous word. That's where expectations begin and when it didn't get completed, it only leaves the shattered and broken you.

A destroyed heart that will never want anyone to care for it, ever again.

But nothing will change the fact that you care. I know. Still, that's what I am afraid of. This caring is not for me. You will get lost somewhere, away from me. Or maybe away from this world.

"Please say something!! Who did this to you? I am worried. Tell me!" His voice is continuously hitting me like bullets, giving me a new headache.

I went through my dark times alone Yoongi! I am sorry if I act like I don't need anyone.

Sorry, if I act like I don't need YOU!

I'm sorry.

With my weak legs, I picked a fast pace running away from him and that place. I wanted to be out from here. It suffocates me, I feel like I can't breathe in that house.

Ah! My head! It's spinning!

The shirt which is covering my whole dignity and pride get ripped when my body slammed into the nearest pole, in the corridor. I wheezed loudly as if all the air get cut off from my body. Trying to keep my tears in me I stopped breathing for a second. It gets successful to some extent.

I am thankful that nobody is in the hallway, because when people see crying ones they laugh at how pathetic we are. How weak we are. However, I know I am weak but showing it to everyone around me is not my type.

Foggy-misty gaze of mine settled in front of me, I am still in his building. I have to keep moving because if I stay, he will be here at any minute. These corridors were usually not this long but with my heavy and shaky steps, they appear to be the longest.

I stepped forward, it was like I am running a marathon, it was like I am pushing my every edge just for my life as if someone is chasing me and I am going to die.

But dying feels good now.

It's is certainly the best option for me at this moment.

It is best since I am not going to let him enter my dark world. He can never reach that unstable door which I am closing with all my strength with the key which can ruin both of our lives.

I am not afraid to lose myself, but losing him is something I can't bear. He cares even if I don't want him to! But he is pure. He deserves all the happiness in this world. I am nowhere good for him.

I will swallow him whole like a bitch I am. The fucking bad luck!

My sweating body slammed into the unbreakable glass door, as I breathed hard through my lips. My pounding head rests on the glass, just yearning some rest.

I coughed, almost dry gagged because of no water, now the tears were out, not wanting to stay inside. Everything is making me feel miserable.

I wanna disappear.

The hand got slapped on my mouth to suppress my whimper inside me. I don't want to be loud when I am well aware of how silent the atmosphere is. The whole body of mine jerked due to the heavy painful sobs.

Eyes widen when I heard the familiar voice near me. He was not near but his voice was clear, he was calling for me. This soft voice makes me weak. I don't deserve this please JUST STAY AWAY!

I screamed at my shadow on the glass.

'Don't stop!' My mind growls at me making me flinch. 'He is near! Just go somewhere where he can not find you. The only option now is.....terrace.' The voice suggested, almost smirking at me.

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