(Part 1)

Title: Shattered PART I
Series: Diaries by (Youtuber) Aphmau

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From what I've gathered in my strange time of being offline I decided to call off the whole depressed reader thing, it's not the real thing. And I don't feel comfortable making stuff up from what I think depression is when there are people who can be easily insulted by my view on how it's taken as, when in reality it's not. I apologize in advance if I offended anyone in anyway, this is no longer a depressed one-shot, it's more dramatic to say the least. Still keeping the parts in though cuz I'm a lazy little shit-

Enjoy!

Word count: 1297
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Your p.o.v

|~Flashback~|

I walked through the woods,"Ugh.. Where did he say-" I said getting hit by a branch "OW!" I said rubbing my head.

Laurance said to meet in the forest. I don't know why. But I know is he is my friend.

I blushed at the word friend, remembering current events.

he may need some-

My thoughts were zapped out by The sight I saw two people kissing.

A girl with Raven black hair, and a boy...

"L-Laurance...? " I said, almost immediately did he let go and looked at me with his eyes widened, "you told me to come here to...?" I croaked "well this is akward....."

Aphmau. I growled, for some reason she hates me now.

"well, I'm sorry to bother your session,I'll be leaving now."

I narrowing my eyes and storming away with my hair swiftly wiping through the air. "Hey- Johnson Wait..!" Laurances voiced slowly faded away. A tear slowly fell through my face.

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I've felt pain ever since that day...

Constant shouts and cries of what I did to deserve this

I stopped leaving my house.. I basically went into panda mode.

Many people knocked on my door asking if I was okay. But I didn't listen, they didn't care. Or understood the heartbreak I was going through.

... I fell for his dirty tricks..

I grew to love him... But he didn't feel the same way

...he always loved Aphmau.

Always. About. Her.

What was so great about Her? she's just like any other girl but almost any guy loves her because she's the Lord here..

I meant nothing to him...

I mean nothing to no one here honestly.. I'm the guard that just showed up out of nowhere.

Everyone probably despises me..

I can't stay here.

Not if I'm not wanted.

I got up from the corner of my room and started grabbing necessaties and thing I need to survive. Once I gathered Everything I could I glanced out the window, seeing the growing village before me.

They'll be fine without me, not that they'd even notice I'm gone.

I walked downstairs and to the door, lifting my hoodie and walking out. My eyes headed straight towards the forest, I almost got away with not being seen when suddenly a voice caught me off guard.

"Holt!" Right away I knew It was Laurance. I probably looked like an intruder. Damn.

I stood still. Hearing footsteps coming toward me, I tried averting my gaze from him so he wouldn't recognize me.

"Who are you? What purpose do you have in Pheonix drop?" I stayed silent, noticing he didn't like that and he did the unthinkable.

He pulled my hoodie down glaring into my eyes. Suddenly his gaze softened along with his grip on my hoodie.

"Johnson..?" I looked away as tears threatened to fall.

"Look, Johnson. We need to talk. A-About the kiss, and Aphmau...." His voice trailed off as I recalled the kiss I doubted he was thinking about.

|~Another Sexy Flashback~|

Me and Laurance sat by the lake, currently drenched in water. Laurance had been laughing his head off for the past few minutes as I sat there with my arms and a frown.

"It's not funny!" I growled hitting him on the shoulder and glaring at him. "You were like a puppy!" Laurance continued to laugh as he laid on his back.

"It's not my fault I can't swim!" I pouted with a small giggle as it was indeed pretty funny.

Gradually, Laurance's laugh went from a small chuckle as he smiled, "you have a really cute laugh.." He said sitting back up next to me.

I couldn't help but blush at his statement glancing away, "T-Thanks... I guess.." I mumble fiddling with my hands.

Laurance placed a hand under my chin making me turn to face him. He was close, making my face heat up even more. I looked at him, his hair not as wet as before, yet still damp, making him look even more attractive than before. His piercing Light blue eyes could capture anyone's heart, caught mine as a matter a fact. I could feel us slowly get closer, till suddenly his lips are on mine and I'm beyond lost for words.

Here, right now, is me being kissed by the guy I loved for Irene knows how long.

Our lips fit perfectly together as if a two puzzles pieces. I melted into the kiss, returning the gesture.

After a while we parted in need of oxygen, my cheeks were probably bright red at the moment as I was infact embarrassed, reasons I don't even know.

Laurance came close to me once again, whispering, "Meet me in the forest, I'll tell you everything I have to say there." And with a smile he stood up and walked away leaving me a blushing mess.

Questions bursted through my mind as they'd soon be answered.

Just not the way I had thought they'd be.

|~Sexy Flashback End :( ~|

I began to tremble remembering the lies he told, everything was just one big lie...

Im. Not. Letting him get to me again..!

I bolted off into the forest hearing Laurance call my name from behind. Tears streamed down my face while I ran.

I'm sorry Laurance... I have to do this..

Once I was far enough I sat in the middle of nowhere in the forest, grabbing my backpack and taking out my sword. Suddenly a picture frame fell out of my backpack, I looked at it, picking it up with my shaky fingers It was my family... Mom... Dad .. Little bro.. Sis...

"I'll find you guys.. I promise." I croaked out, putting the frame back into my backpack and standing up. Tears streaming down my face and to the soft grass, I didn't look back as I started to walk off when I was roughly grabbed and pushed against the nearest tree trunk.

I looked over, an image of my mother appearing as she reached out her hand. She called my name which brought more tears to my eyes. "Momma.. " I muttered as I was about to grab her hand.

She soon disappeared, her warm eyes turning into angry, light blue eyes I knew all to well. I see Laurance with a face of mixed emotions, "Where the hell were you going.."he breathed, starring into my eyes.

I looked away hoping to see something else other than his face.

"ANWSER. me." His voice grew louder unintentionally making me wince slightly. His gaze softened, cupping my cheek and wiping the tears away.

"Why do you care.." I blurted out looking at him, he seemed shocked at the question, when he suddenly smashed his lips against mine with out notice causing my eyes to widen in shock. I was frozen, tempted to kiss him back but I refused.

He let go and looked back at me with hurt in his eyes, "Because I Love you. Johnson... I-I don't want to lose you..!"

I looked at him in tears, shaking my head at his silly play of words

I knew we couldn't be together.

"Laurance you can't-"

"Why not..?" He breathed steadily, looking in my eyes for a hint of love that I felt for him back. I took his hand off my cheek and held it tightly, looking back into his eyes. Repeating the undying truth.

"Because you love Aphmau.."

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Love this version WAYYYY better. As you can tell. ☺️

Prt.2 is soon.

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