⚠️ Self harm! ⚠️  Please skip this if you are sensitive to it. I will put ⚠️ Where it starts.

"When should we meet?"

"Now."

"Tae"

"Hmm?"

"It's two fifty eight in the morning."

"I need to see you."

"Fine"

"Can we talk at your place?"

"Okay"

"Is your brother still at the hospital?"

"Mhm"

"Well, I'll leave now. See you soon."

"K. Bye."

Taehyung scrambled out of bed to get changed. He didn't know what to say to Jimin, but he really wanted to see the said boy.

Jimin, on the other hand, was slowly easing his way out of bed in complete confusion.

Why was Tae up the early and why does he want to see me?

Not only was Jimin confused, but he was nervous, too. This wasthe first time the two boys were alone. Besides when Jimin got locked out of the apartment.

He put on some back ripped jeans and swiftly pulled a black hoodie over his head. The words; 'I need to see you' played in his head on a loop. He heard a car door open and assumed it was Taehyung.

He ran to the door to let the taller in. As soon as Tae's eyes landed on the shorter, his eyes lit up with happiness and his arms wrapped themselves around the older boy.

"Tae" Jimin choked. "Tae, you're choking me." He admitted.

"Oh, sorry." He sheepishly apologizes. "So..."

"Can we sit down?" Taehyung offered. "Sure." Jimin led him to a nice comfortable couch where the two boys sat comfortably.

"Jimin. I know you're lying to me."

"..."

Absolute silence. Jimin didn't even know what to say let alone how Tae knew that. Just because you grow up with someone doesn't mean that they can't forget you. Of course, Jimin didn't really forget about Taehyung but that was for different reasons like; love.

"Jimin, I could tell from day 1. I've always been able to tell when you're lying. You haven't gotten better, you know?"

Tae's attempt to lighten the mood by teasing the other seemed to work because Jimin replied,"Okay, maybe I'm not the best at lying." Both boys smile at eachother playfully.

It grew silent again. 

"I'm sorry Tae. I had to do it to protect us."

"Why? Because you're gay?"

A tear fell from Jimin's eyes. Taehyung assumed it was because Jimin had hard times because of his sexuality, but it was actually quite different for Jimin. 

Taehyung now knew that Jimin was gay and Taehyung still loved him. Tae probably thought that Jimin liked Jungkook but he was wrong. It hurt to see that the guy he was in love with was very straight. Maybe even homophobic. Jimin couldn't help but cry. 

Why was reality so harsh on him?

One tear after another. Taehyung started to feel bad. The older boys tears wet his sleeves die to wiping his tears away countless times.

"Shhh. Jimin don't cry. I'm sorry."

Then Taehyung thought of one thing that would get him  to stop crying.

A kiss.

He held Jimin's chin up and stared into his eyes. Jimin's glossy tear filled eyes. His tears travelled down to his chubby cheeks. They were a light shade of pink. His lips were slightly chapped. 'I can fix that.' Taehyung thought.

Jimin's eyes travelled along Tae's face. His eyes, one double lid. So unique and so precious. His nose had a mole on it that Jimin found very attractive. His jawline was sharp giving his face a nice shape. His lips. Kissable.

Taehyung noticed Jimin's eyes going from his own eyes back down to his lips. They met eys for less than a second before Taehyung crashed his lips against the older boy's delicate pink lips.

Jimin's mind couldn't process what was happening. The boy he was in love with was kissing him.

Taehyung was almost shocked at how fast the smaller started kissing him back. There was so much passion while Taehyung was just kissing him. 

Jimin's hot tears wet Taehyung's cheeks as they kissed.

Their lips moved in sync as if they were meant to be together. Taehyung straddled Jimin on his lap without breaking the kiss. Neither of them wanted it to end. Both boys bathing in the others warmth.

A face entered Taehyung's mind. Memories with that person. It was Dahyun. Dahyun has been nothing but loyal and trusting to Taehyung. How could I do this to her?

He broke the kiss panting furiously. Jimin too was panting. This must've been his first kiss. Aside fron Jungkook this was his real first kiss.

Jimin's eyes widened as he realized what he'd done. "Jimin I-"

"Tae, I'm so sorry! You already have Dahyun! I don't know what I was thinking." Jimin muttered the last part.

"No, Jimin I'm sorry. I don't know why I did that. I- I can't do this." And with that, Taehyung got up and let himself out of Jimin's house.

Both boys were confused as to what came over them but Jimin seemed badly hurt. His heart ached knowing he couldn't have Taehyung. Even if Taehyung was single, why would he date someone like him?

Jimin grew depressed. He didn't go to school the next day which earned him a lot of missed calls and texts from Jungkook.

With Yoongi still at the hospital, Jimin was lonely. With no one tgere to stop him, his mind became filled with negative thoughts causing Jimin a lot of pain. Not just mentally but physically as well. 

That was the first day Jimin started cutting.

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Jimin hadn't eaten all day. Ever since the younger had left his home earlier that morning, Jimin's heart felt brused. 

He continued telling himself that he wasn't good enough. He wasn't attractive enough. He was messed up for being gay. He didn't deserve Taehyung.

He ran to the bathroom to see just how ugly he really was. When he looked in the mirror, all he could see was a fat short gay boy who thought he could live happily ever after with his straight bestfriend.

Anger and sadness caused his body to burn. He hated himself. He grabbed a razor and couldn't control himself after digging it into his skin once. The pain and agony causing him to squint his eyes. He watched as his own blood stained his once white shirt.

Again, he softly caressed his milky white skin before inserting the razor blade.

"Aagh!" He screamed in pain. He couldn't stop. He didn't want to. His eyes started tearing up but he blinked them away.

"This is what you deserve." He told himself before digging the blade in his skin deeper than before. The pain shocked him. Seeing all the blood around him, he passed out.

Right on the bathroom floor where he knew no one would find him.