TW⚠️: Suicide, mentions of depression. Please do not read if you can't take it❗️

One week ago...

She left. She betrayed us and left.

Jungkook was hurt. He crumbled to the ground racking with sobs as his Hyungs came towards him.

They didn't realize how bad her leaving would affect him.

They made it back home with Jungkook in Taehyungs arms asleep snuggling into his chest.

"I'll take him upstairs to rest a bit." He said making his way up.

"He's gonna wake up in little space isn't he?" A voice said tears trailing down the person's face.

"Yeah and there's nothing we can do about it..." Namjoon trailed off then the voice from before spoke again wiping his tears away.

"We have to get him out, please. The last time he was in little space he was so hurt. We didn't see Jungguk and Jungkook for a whole 3 months."

"Jimin, I told you there is nothing we can do. Give him space and time, he's hurt." Namjoon replied running his hands down his face and into his hair.

Jimin stood up and walked away they all sighed.

"They're hurt. Taehyung won't show it in front of us but he's also hurt. His eyes tell." Jin said coming out of the kitchen with a bottle of water in hand.

(A/N: They are still at the safe house.)

The three decided to call it a night and get to bed.

Five days ago...

1:15 am

Jin was making his nightly rounds to check on the boys. This was something he had been doing ever since one of the maknae tried to commit suicide due to the heavy depression. He made sure to make round twice and not sleep at night which made bags form under his eyes.

It had been three days since she left and although the Hyungs acted as nothing had happened they were also hurt forced to remember the memories of her running around while Jimin chased her to give him back his stuff, or when Taehyung would go midnight swimming with her or when her and Jungkook would go to their secret spot which none of them knew where it was.

He stopped by Taehyungs room and opened the door only to see an empty bed. Panic started to rise until he looked around the room and saw him out on the balcony looking out to the vast trees.

He looked behind him then entered taking a seat beside Taehyung.

"The sky is so calm today." The younger said as Jin sat beside him. He continued

"There are about 1 billion trillion stars in our universe because each galaxy has about 100 billion stars." He spoke dazed looking at the night sky.

"And how did you know that?" Jin asked glancing at the boy

"She told me a day before she left." He spoke, his voice trailing off

"What do you think she's doing? Does she miss us, do you think she still thinks about us?" He asked

"I can't lie to you but I know she does miss us but doesn't want to admit it to herself," Jin answered softly

"Were we too hard on her?"

"No"

"We only hit her once and that was because she deserved it but after that everything went back to normal so why did she have to hurt him, hurt us - no hurt me like that?" Tears threatened to fall down his cheeks

Jin grabbed the boy holding him closer to his chest as he cried.

"The worse thing is that I'm not mad at her..." He cried harder

"Taehyung..." The boy cried silently, a skill he had learned.

"Do you like her?" He asked making the boy stiff

"You do, don't you." Jin sighed knowing this would not end well.

The boy halted his tears looking into Jin's eyes and for the first time since he had known the younger, he saw fear. He saw vulnerability. He saw someone slipping away.

That's when he looked behind Tae and saw an empty bottle of beer and a bloody knife. He looked back at Tae and he crumbled in the elder's arms

"Tae stay awake for me okay? don't close your eyes, keep breathing." He picked him up, ran down the hall to the medical room, and placed him on the bed calling for the Hyungs to come quickly.

The males came in with Jimin closely behind and just before he could enter Yoongi blocked him.

"You can't be in here." He said

"Why? What's wrong, is it Tae? I swear Yoongi if it's Tae-" He looked over the elder's shoulder seeing Jin trying to revive the male as Namjoon tried to stop the heavy bleeding.

This was what went on behind closed doors. In a span of two days, he had done another attempt, his second attempt...

WOW. This chapter got me feeling some type of way, my hands are shaking so much right now writing this was NOT easy but don't worry about me I'll be good hopefully. It took me five hours to write this chapter no cap because I had to mentally prepare myself. If you deal with this stuff please don't be afraid to reach out to me or anyone, there's this quote I absolutely love it goes like this; 'it takes confidence to talk but it also takes confidence to sit and calm down.' So whenever you're ready even if you don't want to tell someone close to you, I'm right here!

Quote of the day: "I think you should keep going and see what happens."

-Unknown

Anywho, hope y'all had a great day and an amazing night. wear a mask, stay healthy, stay hydrated, respect Covid guidelines, and remember YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!

Meme of the day.

Chow my loves!

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