TW⚠️: Suicide, Blood, Drowning. PLEASE DON'T READ IF YOU CAN'T TAKE IT‼️

I woke up startled making Jin who was in the room with me fixing my IV flinch.

"Hey! Don't startle yourself like that!" He scolded finishing up.

"How are you feeling?" He asked placing one of his hands on my shoulder laying me back down and the other on my forehead.

I shrugged closing my eyes feeling my head hit the pillow.

"You don't have to talk right now, I know you're still shocked so take your time." I just nodded making him puff out air. He gave me water to drink.

"Did something happen between you and Tae?" He asked making me choke on the water coughing vigorously.

*Flashback*

"Take a picture it'll last long-"

"Already got it..."

(A/N: IM SORRY BUT THIS GIF IS SO UGHHHH)

*Flashback ends*

I blinked back into reality with Jin rubbing his hand on my back calming me down.

"I'll take that as an 'i'll tell you later but not really' okay?" I just nodded.

He walked out of the room leaving me to my thought but not for long as I was disrupted by Jimin running into the room and hugging me tightly disregarding the IVs and monitors I had been hooked up to.

"OH, I'm so glad you're okay!" He mumbled into my neck making me ticklish

"Where's Tae, is he okay?" I asked barely above a whisper making Jimin look away from me

"Y'know after you left, things went downhill for him. He was in a really bad place..." He looked up from the floor only to see me giving him a 'go on' look.

"He- well there's no exact way to explain this but he and Jungkook were really affected by you leaving."

"I know this is gonna break you but Jungkook has been in little space for a while now and yesterday we made a mistake taking him to the ball but Jungguk fronted and protected him to his best ability...

Jungguk, Junkook, and Kookie have made it known that they don't want to see you. And as for Tae, Tae got the worse reaction..."

*Flashback*

Three months ago (The day after she left)

Taehyung walked into the house hands in his hair mildly freaking out as Jimin ran in after him trying to get his soulmate to calm down. He had come back from a walk with him.

"It's my fault, isn't it. She left on MY watch because she knew I was the weakest amongst all of us. GOD IM SO GULLIBLE!" He screamed the last sentence making Kookie who was on the couch crying flinch.

"Tae please stop shouting you'll scare Kookie and it wasn't your fault," Namjoon said grabbing the youngers' hands talking to him like he would talk to a child freaking out.

Tae just shook his head muttering gibberish under his breath shaking under Namjoon.

He was the only one that knew what was going through his brain. The memories flashing in front of his eyes making it seem what happened hadn't happened.

He got up pushing Namjoon away from him and running towards his room, Jimin following.

Namjoon ran his hands through his hair and turned towards the crying little being cuddled up by Yoongi.

"Stop crying okay?" Namjoon told the boy softly

"Listen to Hyung-ie, don't let it get to you okay?" Yoongi said right after Namjoon was done

"Sh-she said that she never liked Kookie and would never come back..." he mumbled making the two shocked.

He was NOT supposed to know that, he wasn't conscious when Jungkook ran after Hye-Ji, he isn't supposed to know that.

"Kookie baby, were you co-conscious?" Yoongi asked making the crying figure nod his head pouting.

(A/N: Co-Conscious is the state of an alter in your body to be alive while the main is alive too. I tried my best don't come for me)

Yoongi looked at Namjoon making Namjoon nod his head. The elder stood up picking Kookie up and walking up to his room.

(A/N: Once again please skip to where I said read if you can't take it!)

The same night Taehyung had gotten drunk in the bathtub filled with water with a razor beside him.

The boy was getting flashbacks from his night with Hye-Ji and the talk with Jimin...

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Jimin had dragged Taehyung out for a walk because the poor boy had cooped himself up inside his room.

The two boys were walking when Jimin stopped him.

"Are you okay?" He asks

"Do I look okay?" The younger answers making Jimin roll his eyes

"Look, it's not your fault, she took advantage of all of us. Don't let those thoughts come back please..." Jimin trailed off knowing damn well that Tae knew what he was talking about.

"Whatever." 

"What happened between you two. Not on that day, but before that." 

"Nothing happened we were drunk that's all." He muttered

"Holy crap! Tae you promised not to drink anymore!" Jimin scolded him

"It just happened..."

"Does Namjoon know?" 

"Obviously not. If he did I would be dead by now, right? Besides, she made me do it." Taehyung answered sarcastically, Jimin shoving him to the side

"God, you always were gullible. Even back in school." He smiled ruffling his hair 

Gullible...

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The words rang in his head as he looked at his left hand holding vodka then the wrist then over to his right hand which had the razor in it.

The bathtub was filled with water meaning that Tae's slight movements could make the water spill on the ground.

The boy let the vodka slip from his hands shattering into pieces on the floor. what the boy didn't know was that Kim Seokjin was awake and heard the glass shatter. He immediately stood up from where he was going towards the noise.

Tae raised his hand carefully placing the razor on his wrist drawing a deep straight line making blood rush out.

The feeling all too familiar for him to believe.

He slowly made it from point a to point b watching as the blood rushed out.

He drew another deeper than before to the point where the blood looked too thick to be real blood. 

He drew and drew and drew and drew watching the blood slip from his wrist to the floor making a miniature pond below. The boy was too engrossed in cutting that he didn't realize the reckless knocking on the bathroom door and the screams of his name from the other side.

When he was done and felt the feeling of euphoria he let the water in the tub engulf him. Ketting himself drown.

he wanted to drown it all.

The kisses, the screams, and most importantly the touches.

The touches that haunt his skin. 

He wanted it to all go away, so he inhaled and started to choke.

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The door was broken down from the outside with Hoseok rushing in pulling an unconscious Taehyung from out of the bathtub. The water inside had turned a bright red...

*Flashback ends*

"Let's just say this is not the first time someone is leaving him after he's gotten used to the person. I like to call it PTSD at its worse." Jimin says lowly

"I feel horrible." 

"You should." He sasses making me roll my eyes.

"Can I see them?"

"Nope with a capital 'n'. Besides, even if I said yes Namjoon wouldn't let it. Y'know Kookie was co-conscious when you were talking to Jungkook." He mused

"I-I didn't know..."

"Well obviously!"

"I feel sick."

"Too bad."

"Hey! You're supposed to make me feel better."

"Sorry, no can do!"

"Jimin stop." They heard a voice from the door which was Jennie.

Jimin rolled his eyes pouting

"Well it's her fault and I just wanted her to know that." He told making Jennie smack the back of his head.

"Don't stress her out," she turned to me "How are you feeling?" She asked wavering her eyes to a particular place on my body while I slyly glared at her.

"I'm fine," I said slowly making her understand and Jimin watched us confused.

"Okay~, y'all are really weird..." He stood up leaving Jennie with me.

I hit her and scolded her for almost blowing her cover as she stuck her tongue at me.

Meanwhile...

Kookie was in his room with Yoongi playing with his toy cars when they heard a knock on the door.

Yoongi being the oldest went towards it only to be dragged out by Jimin.

"Something is up with Hye-Ji and I want to find out." The smaller says looking past Yoongi to the male that was playing with toys in his room...

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Hye-Ji was wide awake staring at the ceiling by the time of 2 am. Jimin sat beside her in the one-seater going through documents.

The boys have made Jimin designated caretaker for Hye-Ji until he got better.

Something wasn't seating right with Hye-Ji though. She felt sick, almost as if she would die.

She forced herself to believe that it was PTSD symptoms from killing a person. She found it hard to shut her eyes because all she could see was the event over and over again.

She felt like she was going to throw up.

Catching the attention of Jimin, she quickly stood up running towards the bathroom and taking out all she had eaten for the day(which was not a lot), and tried her best to take out more but obviously couldn't.

By the time she was done, she leaned into Jimin and saw Jennie (who Jimin had called) giving her worried glances.

"This isn't the first time Ji..." Jennie trailed off while Hye-Ji looked at her with teary eyes and a red face.

"What do you mean by not the first time?" Jimin asked confused. 

The two females shared a look before Jennie started to talk.

"Jimin there's something you need to know but you have to promise not to tell anyone..." Jimin looked up at her rubbing his hand on Hye-Ji's back calming her down

"That day..."

HEYYO!

I'm so sorry for ending on a cliffhanger, I don't think I'm gonna update anytime soon because we have wedding preps going on. This is the longest chapter I've written because I needed to fuel y'all.

Quote of the day: "Be the change you want to see in the world."

-Unknown

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Chow my loves!

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