Hey hey...i guess that's the last one huh?
I actually wanted to write more but...well haha my body gives a fuck about what i want.

But let's not talk about this, right?

I wanted to say thank you again.
Thank you for every single second you were with me.
It doesen't matter if we ever met, because you two were and will always be my best friends and my own special family. Nobody could replace the place in my heart that you fill.

My heart is sadly to tiny for all the love and affection you gave me. I couldn't take it all in.
I know you want the best for me and care for me really much, but you both know that I care as much as you care for me, for you. So please don't be sad yeah? I don't know how often I said this already but I just want to make sure you really get what I wanna tell you.

I'm actually so afraid of sending these letters, but I thought you deserve a explanation. I couldn't just leave without you knowing, even if I was about to cut all these letters and throw them away.
I'm sorry I didn't hold my promise.
I'm a bad friend right?

I wish someone could tell me this sentence once. Maybe I would know what and to who I did something bad in my life, before I fly away like a free butterfly.
My life is short, yes - but yours is still in front of you, I want you to follow your dreams and make them come true and later, someday you can tell me what happened to you all these years.

I will watch over you sure, but I still want to hear your beautiful voices again. I wanna laugh and have fun with you. I want to argue, just something together, I don't care what it is. Just something that makes me feel like I'm home.

But the time for something like this is over too.

I wanted to have fun and live a long life but I guess that would never happen. I can't fullfil my dreams, it's over.

I want you to be careful and never bring yourself in danger.
I don't want you to end up like me in this hospital bed. It's actually depressing 'living' in a white room, without anything in it and I can't walk alone, so going out ain't a option.
I think I already died, I don't feel like and I don't look like I'm still alive. I look like an zombie actually, so done, sleepy and tired, but that's my destiny I guess.

I lost a lot of weight and everything that's keeping me alive are these machines and a lot of doctors. I don't know how much time I still have left but I know it's not that much anymore. I'm sick, I can't handle my body anymore and I feel so out of any emotion and power.

I can't hug you but I really want to so please feel hugged from me, okay?

It's true I feel emotionless but everytime I think of you two I can't help but smile and bloom up, all of a sudden I laugh to myself or cry.
Do you perhaps know why?

It's because I think of our time together, our memories, literally every single second I talked to you is special to me.

I'm so lucky to have you, but here I am hurting you. I'm sorry, I broke another promise....

Anyways, Jaemin, Jeno I have to go, yeah?
Don't cry please, you know your happiness is my happiness and I want you to have a wonderful memory of me, alright?

I want you to know that I'll always be there for you and it doesen't matter if I'm away or living under the same sky as you do.

I'm always there to cheer you up and to hug you, I'm there if you have question just visit me and talk to me, I'm more than sure I'll answer.

Guys, I love you, don't miss me to much haha. Just don't forget me and I'm still living.
Thank you for being my family.

I have to say good bye, the tiny boy that tries to make the best out of his life.

Your Injun...

i guess now I'm a real angel huh?

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Sounds.

Sounds of sniffles, sobs and two broken hearts.

Why?
They lost their best friend. Someone they love, someone that means damn much to them, so? wouldn't you cry too?

Think about it.

Jaemin tries to stop his tears as he goes over the letter again and again.
He lays a hand on his chest and holds it tight, digging his fingernails in it.

It hurts, it hurts so much loosing a person.
And the worst he couldn't change anything about it.

And Jeno?

Well he couldn't stop crying, he wasn't even trying to stop. These letters, all this. He wasn't able to understand it.

It's all just a lie right?
I mean why all of a sudden or did he ever tell him about anything like this?

He can't take it, It's just to much.

His breath hitched as he heart Jaemin coughing endlessly.
He quickly took the phone not caring about his tears streaming down his cheeks, his friend is way more important.

"Hey Jaemin, come d-down please...you h-have to breath and d..drink something"

Jaemin on the other hand hears Jenod voice and keeps coughing while trying to come down. He keeps telling himself to calm down an the coughs stop.

He searches for a water bottle and finds one next to hid bed, he takes it and drinks it, the last sentence of the letter not leaving her head. She lays the bottle away and takes her phone in her hand.

"You okay Nana?"

"I guess more or less, w-what about you?"

"Okay I guess, yeah...okay"

"So...is it over?"

"What exactly...."

"This nightmare?"

"Honestly I wished it was.. one"

Both went silent again, having a hard time to make no sound. They tried their best to be calm for each other.

What now?
What should they do?

Going through his hair Jeno folds the letter together and lays it on the other five letters he just read. He takes them in his hand and is about to lay them back into the box as he finds something.

A CD?

He takes the object in his hand and looks around searching for something he could put this CD in.
While doing that he takes his phone and asks Jaemin if he can find one in his box too. After some time he says yes and they both find their Computer and put it in it.
A video started instantly and they were both taken back when they saw a biy with brown hair sitting in front of the Camera.

"Hey guys" and a smile.

~TBC~

Yoomin~