It's afternoon already and Jaemin is still sitting on his bed in front of her the box full of letters, he stopped crying but the dry tears are still visible on his cheeks and his eyes are still red and puffy.
His phone lays next to him and is still on speaker too.

Yes he is still on the phone with Jeno, I mean jeno could never leave him alone right now?
He's to emotional to be left alone at this moment. But he doesen't want his family to worry about him to much, so he told them it's just like always and closed the door behind him.
Nobody dared to walk in the room after, even if they know it's much more serious then the other times.
Jaemin isn't someone who cries easily and over everything. Just when he's really hurt, dissapointed in himself or sad that someone he trusted left him.

He still didn't touch one of these letters and neither did Jeno. They just kept looking at them, feeling cold and empty all of a sudden. They don't know what's written in them, but knowing that Renjun didn't come online today and not telling them about writing these letters for them, gave them a really bad feeling.
They both felt like they're living their dream from the night.

It's a bit different, they didn't get any letters. They were together with Renjun in one room having a sleepover.
Their parents agreed on a sleepover since they had summer holidays.
They all layed in Jaymin's room laughing and having fun, everything was fine. Till something happened that everyone shocked and just thinking about it would make everybody sick.

Feeling a shiver run down his spine Jaemin pulls his legs closer to his chest and tries to cuddle more into the blanket around him.

In the dream they didn't get a answer on why everything happened. But now they have these letters.
Maybe...maybe every question they have will get an answer in these letters.
But they can't and won't know, till they open and read them.

Renjun always talked in a really gentle and soft way when he was serious or trying to cheer someone up. He always talked about things like friendship, trust, family and honestly as if they're everything he needs in his life.
And now?
Why did he write these letters and why didn't he just tell them on a call?
They couldn't and wouldn't be mad at him and it doesen't matter what his problem is, they promised they'll be there for each other when- and forever.

Can't he trust them with all his heart or is it about something else?

Sighing Jaemin closes his eyes slowly and listens to the sound of the rain outside dropping against the window and on the ground. It's so satisfying and it remembers him of Renjun, he loves the rain more then everything. He always talkes about the rain as if it's something you just get to see, smell, feel, touch, once in a year. He is so amazed by the rain and it means so much to him.

A small smile made it's way on Jaemins lips as he openes his eyes again and lookes at the letters.

"Hey Jeno you know what?" a quiet 'hmm' could be heared through the speaker.
"Renjun once told me something about letters.
He said letters are a message, a really important message mostly with a lot of feelings and if you hurt the letter the feeling and meaning will change" he takes a deep breath feeling his eyes tear up again.
" And..and he said, whoever get's it has to keep it save.
Maybe it's a good, maybe a sad, maybe even a messages that makes you mad. Nobody knows, just when you open and read it you know what's written in it.
But if you read it don't damage it or you hurt the person who wrote it..."
Jaemin bites her lip after talking trying not to let out any sound.
"T-hat's what he said and..and now he  wrote these letters to us and left I guess...
W-what do you think is written ...in them Nono?"

You could here a sound and then a sigh coming out of Jenos mouth.
"Well...you just said, he said you have to read it to find out right?...so let's do it then."

"We should?"

"I think that would be the best don't you think? Also he didn't make up all this time and work for us to throw it away..."

"Right..you're right Jeno, l-let's read them then"

A ruffel could be heared out of the phone and then a opening of a box.
"What's written on your first one?"

"Letter one.."

~TBC~

Yoomin~