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Sitting on the floor of the bathroom stall, curled up back against the wall, tears streaming down my cheeks as I try my best to control my breathing.

Your such a hoe.

I'm not.

You thought I was gone didn't you?

Leave me alone.

I'll always come back.

"Stop!" I scream out loud grabbing my head.

It's your fault your mom wants nothing to do with you.

No it isn't.

Of course it was. You couldn't keep your legs closed even if your life depended on it.

Shut up.

Now your dad is going to be so pissed once he finds out you got expelled.

No.

Hopefully he doesn't kick you out too once his tired of your shit.

I hear a knock on the bathroom stall causing me to get out of my head.

"Please go away." I say which only comes out cracked due to all the crying.

"It's Deja, Please open the door." She says and I sigh standing up to open the stall, walking over to the sink.

Deja starts to rub circles on my back with her palm. I turn to her and she pulls me into a hug causing me to burst out into more tears.

I don't know what it is but just a hug makes me feel so much at once, regardless of who i'm getting the hug from.

"She doesn't even know me why would she even say that." I cry.

"Shhh. Don't let her get to you. That's what she wants." She says pulling away from the hug and putting her hands on my shoulder looking into my eyes. "Hey you can't let what people say get to you. Ever. You know who you are and that's all that matters." She says and I nod. "Here you go. Someone came to come get you. They're in the office." She says handing me my stuff.

I nod wiping my face. "Thank you." I say and she smiles pulling me into a hug once again.

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When I got to the office, I found out it was my dad who came to get me.

Currently sitting in the back seat looking out the window none of us have said a word to each other from the moment I left school till now.

The silence and tension is killing me so I decide to go on Instagram.

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Walking into my room I sighed in relief at the fact that nobody was home.

My dad had to leave cause he had a meeting to attend to and my "bullshit" was the least of his worries right now.

His words not mine.

Taking off my clothes and walking into my en-suite bathroom, I decide to take a shower and get some sleep before my wonderful family get back home.

"Alexa play B.S by Jhene aiko and H.E.R" I say getting into the shower.

"Playing B.S By Jhene aiko and H.E.R."

[There should be a GIF or video here. Update the app now to see it.]

Stepping out of the shower I walk into my walk in closet and grab a black joggers and a shirt deciding I was going for a run after dinner.

I walked to my bed and just as I was about to lay down I heard the devil's voice.

"Hi b*tch!" Ian screeched jumping on me.

"What?" I groaned out loud pushing him off me so I could sit up.

"Oh lighten up you know you missed me." He pinched my cheeks causing me to swat his arms.

"Don't you have a house?"

"Wow." He held his hand to his chest. " It seems like I'm not welcomed here..... I'll just leave." He said being all dramatic and got up walking to the door.

"Lock the door on your way out. Please." I said laying back down.

He turned back around and jumped on me.

"Stop doing that." I groaned.

"sToP dOiNg ThAt." He mocked me. "Anyways guess what?" He beamed.

"What Ian?" I stressed out.

"You remember that DILF I told you about. The one with the demon?" He asked.

"If your talking about the guy you met at Starbucks that has a daughter then yes." I told him putting emphasis on the word daughter.

"I got his number." He sang fanning himself.

"He gave it to you or you stalked him it?" I asked making him scrunch up his face.

"Why does it matter?"

"My bad Ian carry on."

"Anyways let's talk about how you got expelled on your first day of school." He folds his arms looking at me.

"I got into a fight."I shrugged.

"Gemma."

"What! Why does everyone need to know everything? I got into a fight that's it." I rolled my eyes.

"Gemma... you know why. I love you and I don't want a repeat of what you did-" I cut him off.

"Some words were exchanged and I didn't like them. That's all." I shrugged starting to get irritated.

"What words were exchanged Gemma?"

"You could leave if you are about to judge me in my own house."

"I just asked a question nobody is judging you. I know you fought her because she mentioned your mom-" Ian went on.

"Get out." I stood up pointing to the door.

"What?" He said taken aback.

"You heard me."

"Gemma that anger that you harbor for your mom will only get worse and the fact that you keep avoiding the topic-"

"Get the fuck out. I hope you drop dead, I don't need bastards like you telling me what to do about my anger towards my mother, go figure out who your dad is." I said.

"If that's how you feel." He looked at me with bloodshot eyes.

"Out."

He walked all the way to the door and turned around. "Everytime I try to get you to open up about your mom. This is how it goes then you apologize and we go back to being all buddy buddy." He sniffed sadly smiling. "But today you let me know how you actually feel about me and that's fine. Have a nice life Gemma, I hope you let go of all that anger one day." With that he left.

I went back to my bed and burst into tears because I didn't mean to say those words to him, I just hate talking about my mom.

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"Mommy where's daddy?" I asked playing with my doll, watching her bounce on a man's lap. She always loved to wrestle with men.

"What did I say about bothering me when I'm busy? You don't have a father. Now get out of my face." She eyed me in disgust.

"But I'm hungry. I haven't eaten since the other day." I whined making her punch me in my stomach.

"I said don't bother me when I'm busy." She grabbed me, opening up the front door and threw me unto the front porch.

It was late December exactly 2 days after Christmas. There was still alot of snow on the porch. Gemma sat there laid on the hard wood and cried herself to sleep.

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It is now time for dinner. I put on my bear paws and make my way downstairs.

"Look who decided to join us." My dad's girlfriend Lana said causing me to roll my eyes.

Lana and I never got along. She always had a problem with me since I moved in.

I live with my Dad, his girlfriend, My nonna and Eleonora.

"Ignore." My nonna mouths to me and I nod taking a seat in front of Lana while my nonna puts Nora in her highchair next to me.

Food is served and we bow our heads to pray then start eating.

The whole time Lana stares into my soul.

"Is there something wrong?" I ask staring right back at her.

"Nope. Not at all. Just trying to figure out why your dad keeps wasting his time and money on you. I mean there should've been a reason why you got kicked out of your mom's-" My Dad cuts her off.

"Lana that's enough!" My Dad says slamming his hand on the table.

"No let her continue. Since she knows so much about me. Please Lana tell me more about myself." I insist.

"Well apart from the fact you enjoy sleeping with engaged men who happen to be your mom's fiance-"

"Get your stuff and get out." My dad tells her and her mouth drops.

"Babe. what?" She looks at him in disbelief.

" I didn't stutter right?" She nods. "So that means you heard me clearly. Get. Out."

"Mama." Nora reaches out for me from her high chair and I grab her sitting her on my waist, making my way up to my bedroom.

All I can hear is the both of them arguing as i make my way upstairs not having the energy to sit there and watch them argue, plus seeing Lana's face made me lose my appetite anyways.

Typical. He acts like he cares. But never actually kicks her out, all it takes is for her to tell him she's sorry and she'll be right back in his bed in no time.

I put Nora to sleep in her crib and leave out the room gently grabbing my fanny pack.

"Going out for a jog?" My nonna asks once I make it down the stairs.

"Yeah." I nod.

"Ok be safe." She tells me kissing me on my forehead.

"Always."

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Here's chapter 2 hope you loved it! Sorry for any grammar errors or just help me correct it in the comments if you notice any, I will make the changes when I am editing it tonight.

love you all! stay safe!😘🤗