𝔹𝕝𝕠𝕤𝕤𝕠𝕞𝕚𝕟𝕘
The rest of the day went by with us binge watching anime, taking an evening walk and Lily and Zinnia doing their weekend work while I was indolent to even unzip my college bag.
I started to watch anime with the introduction of the word 'tsundere' by Ash and then, I was in love with anime. Zinnia was already a weeb and so, she welcomed me avidly to the anime world.
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It was Monday. I was feeling a bit nervous as the thought of facing Danish washed over me as soon as I opened my eyes from a deep sleep.
We were on our way to college. I was humming to 'I Feel It Coming', tuning from the radio while Zinnia asked, "So, you gonna talk to him?"
I stopped humming and took a quick glance at her before focusing on the road again.
"Nah, I'll pass," I said, pressing my lips into a thin line.
"Come on, are you going to hide from him just because he got a bit annoyed with you asking a question? If so, then how long?" Zinnia asked me.
"I'm not gonna hide. Why would I? It's just that I don't know what to say. You know..." I trailed off.
"You're egoistic. That's it," Lily said from the backseat.
I glanced at her through the rear view mirror.
"Yeah, Lily's right as fuck. You're fucking egoistic." Zinnia agreed with her.
I sighed. They were right, I was egoistic.
"Put your ego aside, El. It's Danish. It's fine," said Lily. "In fact, you can come clean with him today. You can tell why you asked that and also ask him why he got triggered."
I thought of what they said for a moment. Maybe they were right. I could talk to him today and clear the misunderstandings as it was as clear as crystal that we didn't end on good terms that night.
But what if he just ignores me like yesterday?
"Ok. I will talk to him," I said, nodding my head. "But what if he ignores me? Like yesterday?"
"If he ignores you then that's it. Fuck him," Zinnia said. "But you know what bub?" she asked to which I poked my chin out with my eyes still on the road.
I know what she's going to say.
"No one can ignore you."
I know!
"I think he's way more egoistic than you. So you should probably just fuck him," Zinnia said, laughing which made Lily also erupt into laughter while I just rolled my eyes and gave them the bird. "I was just joking, ok? Don't change your mind. You have to talk to him. He's gonna make a really good friend," Zinnia said after a few minutes of falling about.
I let out a small chuckle before asking them, "For that, who took you guys seriously and told you that I changed my mind?"
"Yes!" Lily said, pumping her fist, encouraging me. I flashed her a smile through the mirror.
"Well, look at our little Elka all growing. Before she didn't use to give a fuck about anyone but now. Danish is changing you, isn't he?"
She earned a glare from me to which she chuckled and punched my arm playfully.
I could say that they were on cloud nine with me opening up more and trying to get in touch with people. They were right when they said that I needed to let down my walls if I wanted good relationships. But will that ever happen with the little seed of phobia in my mind growing day by day?
We reached college five minutes later and we were early today as Zinnia had some group project work to do. I walked to my class and saw only a few students and in between them, I saw Amy focused on writing her notes. My eyes looked around to see whether Ash was there as I thought they must have patched up. There wasn't any sign of Ash but my eyes met Clay Mason, who was my friend and secretly crushing on me, which he didn't know that I knew. He took leave for a week to spend time with his family who were in another country. We smiled at each other and then I walked to my seat. Amy raised her head from the book and grinned at me.
"Hi," I said as I sat down next to her.
"Hey, did you complete the notes?" she asked me.
"No." I shook my head casually.
"What? But you're going to get marks for that," she shouted.
"Calm down, Amy. Stop shouting as if this is a big deal," I said as I pulled back.
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to," she said, fiddling with her pen.
I sighed and said, "It's fine."
"So how was your weekend?" she asked me after closing her pen with the cap.
"It was fun. We had BBQ dinner with Andrew and Danish on Friday and then on Saturday we went to the mall, again with Andrew and Danish and on Sunday, me, Lily and Zinnia were at our home, binge watching anime and all. It was pretty cool."
"Oh, that sounds fun," she said, smiling.
Yeah, only I know about the "fun".
"So you and that guy are friends now? I thought you hated him with every fibre of your being," she said, wriggling her eyebrows.
"Now stop with that. And yeah, we are somewhat friends but I had to ruin it with my out of control mouth."
She looked at me which clearly told me that she was expecting something and also needed an explanation. So I spilled everything out about what happened that night and also the day at the mall.
After hearing everything, she kept her hand on her head while the other one crossed her chest. She shook her head lightly and turned her head towards me. I clenched my teeth together and smiled at her.
"Why do you have to ruin everything, Elka?" she asked.
I raised my palm right in front of her face as a sign to stop and said, "I already had enough."
She chuckled and nodded her head.
"Zinnia even smacked my head," I deliberately brought her name up between us to see whether Amy was going to ask about Zinnia and I was sure that she would.
Way to go, Elka!
"Hey," Amy said as soon as she heard Zinnia's name. "I called Zinnia but she didn't answer my calls. Is she ok?"
Elka is a genius. Period.
"Oh, really? I don't know. Maybe something's wrong with her cellphone. She has been complaining about it lately." I lied. "Why did you call?"
"No, just simply." She shook her head.
After a few minutes, I asked her, "Did Ash call you to talk when you were with Zinnia on Friday?"
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It was lunch and we were all sitting together, except Zinnia. She texted me that she was busy working on the project so she wouldn't be coming for lunch. Amy asked me about Zinnia once again which made me happy for some reason but I wasn't going to give myself any hopes.
About five minutes later, Lily joined us. As soon as Lily sat next to me, she said, "Hey, I saw Danish standing in front of the physics lab."
"So?" I asked.
"So get your ass up and go and talk to him. Remember this morning you said you will?" Lily asked me with both her eyebrows up.
Amy nudged my arm hearing Lily making me look at her beaming face.
I sighed. "Fine," I said as I took my bag from the table.
"All the best," Lily and Amy said together.
I turned around and gave them an annoying look and proceeded to walk towards him.
I saw Danish talking to a teacher from afar. My steps slowed down as soon as I saw him, as ego and nervousness were creeping me. I had a hunch that he was going to turn his nose up if I was going to approach him. As he was about to turn his head towards my direction, I hid myself behind the wall impulsively.
As I said, my ego was eating me up.
I hid behind the wall and peeked. Danish was still talking to the teacher and it seemed like he was going to take his leave.
Suddenly I felt a tap on my shoulder which startled me. I turned around to see Clay smiling at me, showing off his straight wire braces.
"What?" I whisper shouted.
His face went dull in a flash.
"Wh-what are you doing?" he asked me faint-heartedly.
I sighed. "Nothing."
"Oh, ok," he said and stood in front of me, smiling again.
"What is it, Clay?" I asked, getting annoyed with him.
"Nothing. I'll get going," he said timidly and turned his heels the other way.
I huffed and then turned around to bang my head on a chest that was so fucking familiar. The muscly chest, the strong cologne and the smirk I was sure about even though I didn't see it, were all familiar.
God! Am I gonna face him like this every single time? Banging my head on his chest?
I raised my head to meet his dark brown eyes along with the smirk I was expecting. He opened his mouth and asked, "You stalking me, shorty?"
Counting down the days till we are one
And clothe his heart in fur
Hee-ho, hee-ho, hee-ho
Clothe his heart in fur...
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