: ̗̀➛ carved out a crater in the back of my mind

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you captured my thoughts .ᐟ ˚ ｡⋆ 🦢

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is it time?

should i do it?

i want to relapse

so should i do it?

and should i do it at hard as i can this time?

enough so blood falls at my feet?

and my eyes get blurry with tears?

and so the cracks in the floor grow heavy with blood?

and so my body becomes weak enough to snap?

and so my ugly head falls apart?

and so maybe someone would eventually care,

because people one care when ur pretty or dead.

and i'm not pretty so...

i'm defending the wrong people.

i'm breaking up my friendships accidentally.

people hate me with every part of their heart.

i can't break this constant cycle of addiction.

i can't stop the grueling voices in my mind.

i said i was healing, but i don't feel like i am.

i thought i was doing the right thing, but now i'm crying buckets.

i believe i'm a good person, but why is every voice in my head telling me otherwise?

there's shit in my head.

it's screaming at me.

it won't stop.

but god do i want it to.

how do i stop them?

is killing myself the only way?

...done

❛ your love's so insecure

you're never really sure ❜

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