Guys,
I honestly don't even know anymore
I feel like such a disappointment
I honestly don't know why

I feel like I'm not the person everyone wants me to be, like the old me

The old me was Amber, the nice girl, who didn't give a fuck about the way others view her, straight (well I was a closeted bi), neurotypical (well kinda), long blonde haired kinda preppy girl...

But I'm not her anymore, she died ages ago..

Now I'm Amber:  the "weird" girl, needs approval from everybody, bisexual/lesbian, autistic, music nerd, short red haired grunge girl....

I'm honestly having a crisis about all of this....

I really want to pull out of school, and try again somewhere else.....

But my parents won't let me at all..,