Hello everyone after this chapter Sokovian Siblings will sadly be going on Hiatus. I know it's sad but I promise I'll keep writing some filler chapters but until the next Spider-Man movie comes out I have no idea where this plot is going so I'm gonna wait until the next movie comes out to continue the full story. There will be filler chapters like I said but they mean nothing to the real plot but it does at the same time. I hope you guys continue reading even if they're just fillers.

Anyway on with the story.
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Peter's POV

Honestly no one knows how the future will take its course we just have to live it day by day, week by week, month by month, year by year. But the disappointing part is that once you exhale the biggest secret you've ever held the world turns against you at the speed of light.

Is that fair? I don't think so. But little by little you feel like you're going insane at the immense amount of pain, fear, guilt, and regret that secret comes with. I don't know how I've been able to cope with this for so long because I feel as though my life is slowly slipping out of my grasp.

I want people to know the truth. That I'm not the monster Beck illustrated me to be. I'm just a kid who wants his life back but no matter what I say people bend my words to their wills, no matter what course of action I take people still say I'm a murder.

It's like he's still the puppet master pulling my strings even now in death he's manipulating people to make them see that he's the great superhero while I'm the menace.

This is why I hate society because they're so quick to judge without knowing the real story and don't get me started on how the system operates because that's a train wreck in itself.

I'm just a nuisance, a stupid nuisance who should be forgotten maybe the world would be better without me.

I guess people who think they know me will hate me with pure hatred and disgust it's hard to be Spider-Man when there's a world filled with people who hate me when I only want to help.

But no one cares that I'm only trying to help they just want me gone would it be better if I was? I mean if I was gone everyone would be happy right? Pretty much the whole world hates me so I know they wouldn't care they'd rejoice.

But my family would be crushed, especially my sister we already lost Pietro but if she lost me too she'd be heartbroken. Mj would be a mess, Ned wouldn't be my guy in the chair, and Morgan wouldn't have her big brother.

But I honestly can't keep living here maybe living on my own in Sokovia would be better. That way I wouldn't be putting everyone I love in harm's way. My country may think I'm a traitor for becoming an American citizen, would they even recognize the real me?

Would they banish me? Maybe punish me for all they think I've done? Am I seriously thinking about leaving my family behind and retreating back to my home?

I think I am but I don't think I can do it. I don't want to leave MJ or my sisters or my best friend. But how can I live in a place where I'm unwanted? It's hard enough without my parents and Pietro guiding me.

I so desperately wish they were here. Maybe they could've shielded me away from all of this. Maybe if Mama and Papa came out to play with us in the garden instead of being in the house that day the missile wouldn't have killed them.

And if Pietro found a way to dodge those bullets maybe he'd be here with me right now. I can't take this anymore.

That's when I felt tears are streaming down my face. At this point I'm sobbing, there's too much stress and I can't breathe I feel like someone is cutting off my oxygen.

I felt a pair of arms on my shoulders and from what I could make out the shape of their face it was Ned he was talking but I couldn't hear a single word. Everything faded in and out people's words were barely audible.

"Breathe.... Pete... list." Someone who I think was Ned said.

I can't I'm trying to but I can't. What am I supposed to do?! I don't know what to do! "Wand.... help!" He yelled.

I could feel myself shaking violently but everyone else was fuzzy it's like my vision was worse because of my tears. But somehow and soon enough my breathing became normal but the tears wouldn't stop.

And I felt warm arms wrap around me it must be Ned, Wanda, and Mj once I had time to process all that just happened they spoke.

"Mysh what happened are you okay?" Wanda asked.

I shook my head no, "Panic attack." I said barely audible.

"It's okay love we're here it's okay now." said Mj.

"You're still shaking Peter, do you need anything?" Ned asked.

I shook my head again I don't think I can talk. My mouth is dry and I just don't want to. "Can you get him a glass of water Mj?" Wanda asked.

I can't leave them. I just can't. And I won't even though I want to and I know it's selfish but if they were in my position they'd know how I feel.

Do they understand? Will they ever understand? I don't know but there's no one I can talk to much less relate to. And it makes me feel so utterly.... trapped.

And I wish I wasn't. But I'll always be trapped in this cave of webs and lies no one can save me either way I'm going to be a failure to be a hero why the hell did Mr. Stark choose me of all people?

I'm a kid who should have no business playing dress up and pretending to be a hero. Yeah I saved people but those people aren't grateful instead they just want to see the worst be done to me.

Hydra should've killed me when they had the chance maybe then everyone would be happy and not dealing with a problem.

What do I do? Pietro? Mama? Papa? Anyone....? Well into the unknown I go.
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The End of Chapter 50