a/n; self harm

Kim Taeyeon couldn't care less.

Blood oozing out of her arm and the buzz swarming her ears. She couldn't care less. She never did. The device next to her buzzing and ringing, the light blinding her eyes, she lets out a breath and closes her eyes.

The door was closed and lock. Water flowing out of the tub and splashing onto the floor. She opens her eyes and crawls her way to the tub while shivering lightly as her knees and feet make contact with the cold, hard floor filled with water but she couldn't care less.

She places her arms softly at the edge of the tub and exhales. She once again closes her eyes and ignores her surroundings. She opens her eyes slightly as the device she had left on the floor buzzed and rang. She turns on her side so she could take a good look at the device but soon turned back.

Byun Baekhyun was currently calling the girl.

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With hunched shoulders and dripping hair, Taeyeon makes her towards the comfort of her dining room. She makes her towards her fridge and grabs an ice cream. She ignores the blood that has already made their way to her palms.

She grabs a small towel and wipes the blood not caring if it lands on her hardwood floor. She opens the wrapper of the cream and throws it away. She makes her way toward her couch and stares at her wrists.

Sure enough, they were drenched in blood.

//

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Taeyeon finally opens the device that has been left on her bathroom floor. The bathroom floor was still drenched in water but it was mostly cleared when the latter arrived. Taeyeon sighs as she types in her passcode while making her toward the living room.

She plops on her couch and looks at the bottom right of her phone. Sure enough, there were tons of messages waiting for her to open. One message although caught her attention.

hyunnie: noona, open the door

hyunnie: please open the door

hyunnie: I need your help

hyunnie: please

Taeyeon has never bolted out of her door as fast as she did.

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Taeyeon knew she should have brought a jacket to at least cover he scars but at that moment nothing mattered except getting to baekhyun in time. Taeyeon searched near the cafe they always visit before going to university and after university.

The latter wasn't there.

Taeyeon searched at the playground when she had found baekhyun when he failed one of his tests. He was terrified of his parent's reaction but surprisingly they were okay with it if baekhyun moves out of their lives. Some kind of parents they were.

But the latter still wasn't there.

Taeyeon thinks and thinks while ignoring whatever was coiling up on her stomach and the buzzing comes back. She looks around and people stared at her in confusion or in worry. She didn't want their pity.

Taeyeon knows she hasn't eaten all day and as she walks forward she sways slightly, her vision blurry and the buzzing increases. She chuckles as she spots a group of people asking her if she okay. She spots her tracks and darkness engulfs her.

She collapses and doesn't hear the panicked screams from people.

Especially Byun Baekhyun's.