Honestly, I have never been to Japan. But it was always a dream of mine since I have always been a huge fan of anime!

That reminds me of the fact that Lee Know is also a fan of anime. It's really cool to have the same interests and right now, I even imagine us two being a couple and watching Pokèmon with our little one together.
I'm so touched by this imagination but to know that this could be an unrealistic dream forever, hurts.

"I am tired!", Hyunjin shouts after we got the keys for our rooms and look for them.
"Didn't you sleep during the flight?!" Chan looks at him in shock. He slept so much.
"That was a beauty sleep. Duh."

Okay, somehow, Hyunjin is starting to act like an annoying princess these days. What's going on with him?!

"If you don't shut up, I'll make you sleep forever...", I mumble while looking at my phone, hoping for Jeongin to answer my texts. Well, it's 7 in the evening, so he should answer soon before going to bed.
I hear Minho laughing a little and saying something to Hyunjin in korean. The drama queen now seems upset. Well, just don't be selfish next time. Even though I really love it when he acts like that because I know that it's just for fun. He's not really like this.

Maybe, he has noticed that Minho and me don't feel too good so he chose to do something funny while Han is not here to do that?
Because usually, Han is the one who likes to be funny.

"Okay, guys. Felix and Ahri share one room. Hyunjin and Lee Know, you're with me." Chan announces that and gives one of the keys to Felix who nods and takes my hand to go with me into our room.
One last time, I look at Minho who winks to say goodbye to me. I wink back and have to smile. He indeed didn't ignore the fact that I exist. I think, he's beginning to understand his feelings.
At least, that's what I really really hope.

"What's that between you and Lee Know?", my brother asks me as we enter the room. It's big and there is a big bed in the middle. I smile and sit down on it. So comfy!
"Uh... What do you mean?", I ask to not respond.
"I think, you know what I mean. You were literally cuddling in the airplane. Are you a couple?"
"What?!" I look at him with my eyes widen. "No! We didn't even change a word yet!"
"Hm. I see." Felix takes some clothes out and opens the door to the bathroom. But before going in there, he turns around to me and asks me:"Have you done the pregnancy test yet?"
Fuck. What should I answer? I can't tell him now.
"N-not yet... I'm not ready. But I will when we're back home!", I lie and he sighs. "Fine", Yongbok says and closes the door behind him.

I had to lie. I don't want him to worry about anything other than the performance tommorrow. That's the most important thing now.

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"You look great", I tell Lee Know who's having a make-over by one of his make-up-artists. He looks in the mirror just not at himself but at me. His smile appears again. His wonderful, beautiful, perfect smile which I adore more than anything else.
Well, except for my child. Our child. Our child which Minho doesn't know even exists.
"Thank you", he says and after he's finished, he stands up and looks over to Felix and Hyunjin who also just have finished.

"Danceracha in 12 minutes!", a guy who just entered the room announces.

We're at a studio of a TV show where famous people perform. And in just 12 minutes, danceracha is going to perform live to their song "taste" which I really love.
Even I am excited!

"You're going to do great!", I tell Lee Know and smile but he looks at me in hesitation.
"No. I won't."
"What? Why? Why would you say that? I already told you that you're the best dancer I know!", I tell him, not understanding why he's hesitating like that.
"Ahri." Lee Know looks at me with his dark eyes which I fell in love with so hardly. "Since that day I can't stop thinking about you. I tried everything but you won't get out of my head. I... I didn't understand what was going on with me! I didn't know that feeling! It was incredible but I hated it at the same time because it stopped me from dancing properly... And know, the whole world will know that dancing king Lee Kow is nothing but a hopeless romantic."

Hopeless... romantic?

Those were a LOT of information my brain has to process first.
So he's telling me that he's thinking of me the whole time just like I'm thinking of him? That he even sucks at dancing now because he can't focus? That he's "hopeless" in love? Considering the fact, that I thought that of myself even though he loves me too, that's pretty ironic now.

I look deep in his eyes and he doesn't look away.
He's honest with me. And he just confessed his feelings towards me. Should I be happy now? My brain still didn't process. But that didn't stop me from kissing him in the next moment.
He seems surprised first, but still kisses me back and closes his eyes, just like I do. I enjoy the feeling of his lips laying on mine - this time, without the terrible smell of alcohol.

It takes me a while to be able to let go of him and we look at each other a bit before I see him smile again. "I thought you hated me."
"Oh, I did. For like five seconds. And then I still managed to love you for five more weeks." I laugh. "I couldn't hate you."

I was so close to saying "In the end, you're the father of my child", but I made the decision to not tell him now that he has a performance to PERFORM.

"Please do well for me. I believe in you. You're dancing king Lee Know. You can do anything."
Lee Know smiles at me in the cutest way I could've imagined. He kisses me one more time and goes over to Hyunjin and Felix who already waited at the back door. Luckily, they were busy talking so they didn't notice the kiss but someone did.

"Congratulations", Chan says while standing BEHIND ME.
I'm so frightened that I turned around immediately and gave him a slap before instantly regretting it. "I-I'm sorry!"
"Ouch! What was that for?!" Chan looks at me in pain but I don't say anything. "Ugh.. Nevermind... So you're a couple now?"
"What?! I don't know! No! He doesn't even now about our child!"

But I forgot one thing.
Chan didn't know about my child too.

"Your... CHILD?!"
"Oh my god. Not so loud!" I look around but nobody hears us so I look at Chan again. "It's a secret. Only Jeongin knows. Please don't tell anyone."
Chan looks so in shock, I should've taken a picture. "Oh. My. God. I will be an uncle.."
"That's what Jeongin said too."
"He's gonna be adorable!"
"He? You don't know if it is a girl or a boy!"
"It's an uncle feeling."

Oh my god. It can't be both.
I just smile and hear the guy from before saying:"Danceracha can come to the stage!"
I look over to the group and see them leaving the room in excitement. Outside, I hear the melody of taste starting.

It's gonna be so cool.
I run over to the window from which you can see practically EVERYTHING and there are so many people!
Well, many people for a TV-show. If this was a concert, the thousands of people would've never fit in here.

I can see the dark shilhouettes of danceracha coming from behind the stage and then they come nearer and nearer until you see them.

Oh my god, in that light Lee Know looks even hotter.
The crowd starts screaming a bit and danceracha starts dancing to Taste and also sing to it.

They're incredebily talented.

I love Hyunjin's hot lines, the way Felix raps and I adore everything about Lee Know's choreo. He's perfect and he never danced so well than he does now even though I didn't know that it was even possible for him to get better.

"Now, you're dreaming", Chan says as the song ends and I smile a bit.
"Yes. I am."