"You're good", Minho tells me as I sit down. He just showed me how to dance to Back Door and I'm DONE! It's so hard...

"Wow. A compliment from dancing king Lee Know? That's so cool."
Minho laughs and sits down next to me. He gives me his bottle of water and I open it.

"So... Uhm... Lino?" I look at him after drinking and give him back the bottle.
"Yes?"
"I... really want to know why you are scared of people hating you just because you don't know how to dance anymore. Or that people don't love you as much because you do a single mistake. Or that you get excluded by your friends..."

Lee Know stays quiet.

Maybe I shouldn't have said something? Sometimes, it's better to shut up.
But he starts to talk after a while.

"The world is full of hate", he starts, looking at the floor. "People out there love Stray Kids. But little do they know how hard it was for us to debut. Little do they know about all the worries and fear I've been through.... STRAYKIDS has been through!"
I look at his hands, as I notice that he is looking at them. I then grab his hands, but still listen to him.

He finally opens up his heart to someone.

"Little do they know how hard it is to be so known in the world and little do they know how easy it is to get thrown out..."

And finally, he looks at me. His eyes full of tears.

"I don't need to be perfect, but I need to be good enough. I need to be as good as they are and better. Or else they will find someone else."

I wipe his tears away with me fingers and shake my head. "I know how hard it is. And I know what you've been through. I know how you feel now that you've told me. Please never hide your feelings again because it can destroy you."

Minho looks in my eyes. He seems to process my words and then he nods.
"Thank you", he says. "That's the first time I tell people stuff like that."
"And I am happy to be here for you."

---

"Now, that we've finished our MV, we should throw a party."
I look at Jeongin who said that. That's a great idea!

"Yes! Please!", I say.  "I mean.. It's not my success but it would be so cool to do stuff like that with you. I'm just here for a week!" I look at Chan, begging for it with my cutest face.

"Stop looking like a dying bird", Minho says.

I look at him, wanting to tell him that it was mean to say that but as I look in bis adorable face, I just wasn't able to.

Chan has to smile but then, he looks at everyone and notices that literally every single one of us really wants that party.

".... Fine."
"YEAAAAHHH!"
"What do I wear?"
"Should we order sushi or kimchi?"
"I won't let them ruin my face with make-up this time!"
"Yes, you should let those freckles be freckles!"
"Oh my god, those kids..."

--

"I want to wear a hoodie. It's not an official event that strangers are gonna join so I can also look like total crap", I explain to Han whilest sitting on his bed.
I look at him. He's busy trying on an glitter-outfit.

Okay, now I can't wear a hoodie anymore.

"Stop being so extra!", I tell him, but he just shows me his look. ,,What do you think?"
"I think that I'm gonna get blind if you don't move away."
"Am I so shiny~?"
"Yes. Are you always wearing things like that when throwing a party with your friends?", I ask him.
"Mostly, I do partnerlook with Lee Know. Speaking of, I should search for him and let him pick an outfit for both of us!" And two seconds later, he's gone.

Wow. And what do I wear?!

"Ahri." As I hear Seungmin's voice, I turn around to look in the face of a weirdo with a puppy costume.

Oh my god.

"How do I look?"
"You look... very... special. Is that your outfit for tonight?"
"Yes. I will look better than everyone else!"
"Yes, puppy... Yes, you definetely will." I start laughing.