Two days fly by and I still haven't talked to Minho.

Han tried to talk to me but I didn't answer him. Sometimes, Changbin looks after me.
Seungmin tried to cheer me up as he noticed that I didn't feel very well.
Chan always brings me something to eat and forces me to drink enough.
Jeongin tells me stories of his childhood so I don't feel lonely.
Even Hyunjin tries his best to make me feel better and Felix is now sitting next to me on my bed.

"Tell me what happened..", he says while playing with my hair.  "I'm worried. About you and about all the others. Everything seems so..."
Before he can finish his sentence, I interrupt him.  "I'm sorry."
"For what?"
"For making you feel so weird. That's my fault. I should've stayed in Australia."
"No. I am happy that you're here", Felix says and looks at me with his lovely eyes.  "And I want you to stay."
"What...?" I now look at him with confusion written on my face. What does he mean with "stay"?
"I want you to stay", he repeats.  "As long as you want. Because I want you to have at least one good memory here."
"But...", I start.  "I only wanted to stay for a week because you told my that you guys were going to be very busy when next week starts..."
"Yes, but you are more important to me and I know how happy you were about visiting me. I will make sure that someone's with you all the time."

I'm not sure about this idea.
I would love to stay longer with my brother and his friends who I really like but that would mean that I'll have to see Minho all the time.
Wouldn't he feel so akward?

I actually even thought about going home EARLIER than I planned to. Because I couldn't stand looking at Minho.
Not because I hate him or something. It's because of how embarrassed I am of myself. It's because of how much I regret even stepping into this appartement.

He doesn't like me. Not as much as I like him.

"I.... don't know. I'll have to think about it", I mumble, still thinking about his offer.
"Okay. And I will tell mom and dad that you might stay longer so they know."
"Yes... Thank you."
"No problem.." Felix smiles at me and then hugs me. I let him.

I just hope that this doesn't end in a disaster.

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"I won!", Han shouts and throws his UNO cards on the table.
"You're obviously cheating?!", Changbin screams in anger. That's the fifth time that Han has won. And it's the fifth round.
Whilest Hyunjin follows his job of being a drama llama and pretends to cry, Felix screams like a child.  "AHHH, I HATE THIS GAME!"

I just sit on the couch and look at them, holding my smile. They are just adorable.

But as Lee Know enters the room, my happiness is gone and all I feel is complete fear.
I'm scared of him looking at me. Because I don't know what he thinks. The worst thing he could think about me is "oh, she's still here? When will she finally go so I don't have to see her ugly face anymore?"

Jeongin looks at me and notices that I don't feel well. He gives Hyunjin his cards and says "I don't want to play anymore", before standing up and sitting down next to me.

While the others proceed to play the game with Minho, Jeongin talks to me.
"It's okay. I'm here."
I smile at him, trying to look as happy as I can.
"Thank you. But it's fine."
"Oh really?" Jeongin wipes away a tear which comes out of my eye. I didn't notice that I started crying...
"I... I really try to ignore him, Jeongin... But what should I do...? I love him....", I whisper so nobody else hears us.

That's the first time that I tell someone how I feel about Minho. It's the first time that I tell myself that I really do love him.

Jeongin look at me with his eyes a little widen, then he nods. "He needs time to understand what happened.. As long as he does that, you have your baby bread I. N.!" As he says that, he hugs me and I have to smile. He's so cute.

Soon, the others stand up and leave the room because they finished their game and maybe got tired.

I take Jeongins hand and play with it.

"Thank you", I say, not looking at him.
"You don't have to thank me. I know that Lee Know can be an asshole." He laughs.  "But he has a pure heart, trust me. It's not going to take him long to understand how mean he was."
"I really hope so." I sigh.  "I wish he would be able to express his feelings a little more. I'm sure that would help him to manage this situation."
I. N. nods slowly and plays with my hair.  "Yes, but you have to accept him like he is. That's the Lee Know you fell in love with, remember?" He smiles at me and he remembers me of my brother. They are all like brothers to me. Just not Lee Know. He became way more than that.
"Yes. You're right. I'll give him the time he needs. I'll wait for him. And if he doesn't want me... I'll accept it. Because I want him to be happy." I look to the ground, trying to hold back my tears. Just to imagine how much my heart would break if I had to leave him behind hurts so much and we weren't even a couple.
"You're so brave...", Jeongin whispers and pulls me into his arms.

We just spend a long while cuddling and not saying anything.
I love to know that I always have friends who I can count on. Friends who I truly love and want to be by my side forever.

"You'll always be there for me, right?", I mumble after a while.
"Forever." Jeongin kisses my forehead.
"Thank you..."
"You'd do the same for all of us. I know that. So you have to know that we're always going to be there for you." Jeongin smiles at me and his eyes fold the way they always do when he smiles. I love that about him. His smile is the most adorable thing. So it cheers me up a lot. I smile too and lay my head on his shoulder to close my eyes.
"I would do everything for you guys...", I whisper before falling asleep in I. N.'s arms.