sunday 2:00PM
well nothing new really. i only searched for him outside and catched him homeworking. afterwards i just got my things and we did it together.

it was evening and the sun had long since set. juyeon sat on his bed and thought about jaehyun's behavior again. should he ask? should he go to jaehyun and talk to him about it?
before he could worry any more, however, jaehyun stepped into the room and sighed. "I feel kind of stupid today-" mumbled the older one and lay down on juyeon's bed. juyeon turned his head to his lying friend. "What's going on?" he asked worriedly.
"there is something that bothers me.", jaehyun mumbled and sat up.

"It is something that I could destroy with a gesture. however, I feel drawn to making this gesture again and again, because it hurts in my heart if I don't-" jaehyun sighed and turned his head to juyeon. only now did he notice how close they actually were. jaehyun's eyes met those of the younger and for a while he lost himself in them. juyeon was a little hypnotized himself. normally he would have been uncomfortable if someone pierced him with his eyes like that, but with jaehyun it was pleasant. without really knowing what he was doing, jaehyun's hand slid to juyeon's cheek and he again admired the fine contours of the face of his opposite. juyeon didn't seem to really notice what jaehyun was doing. he was far too distracted by jaehyun's gaze.

then jaehyun suddenly came to his senses again, but not as others had done, he backed away. he enjoyed the moment being so close to juyeon.
if he would do something now that juyeon would make it clear that jaehyun really loved him, he could destroy the friendship or maybe juyeon would love him back. at some point he would have to say it-
if he did nothing, he would live with the pain in his chest for the rest of his life.

"ah- suck it!", jaehyun thought and closed the gap between him and juyeon when he connetcted her lips.

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welp i did it 😃
comments plz, bcs i feel like i've won a award bcs its so awkward 💅