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ROSIE KNOCKED ON HER SISTERS BEDROOM DOOR. A mug in her hand as she waited for any sign to enter. When she didn't really get a response, she carefully opened the door and peeked her head inside. She noticed Victoria sat on the bed, simply staring out the window, wrapped up in a blanket. "Hey." She says gently, a smile on her lips. Victoria glances over in her direction, a faint smile returning.

"Hey." Victoria responds quietly. Rosie closes the door behind her, making her way over to the bed.

"Brought you some hot chocolate." She states, holding the mug out. Victoria takes it from her carefully, a small sigh leaving her lips.

"Thanks." She says before placing it on the table beside her.

"Buck told me what happened." Rosie states as she sits down on the bed beside Victoria. "I don't think he meant to hurt you. I just think he doesn't really understand it since he never had to go through anything similar." She tries to tell the woman. Victoria wasn't truly mad at Buck, upset a bit but she got it wasn't something most people went through.

"I dont want to think of the negatives or pray that i dont go crazy i just.... i dont know." Victoria admits as she closes her eyes momentarily. "Maybe it was a blessing in disguise." She mutters and Rosie frowns a bit. She knew she was referencing when she lost her baby.

"Or, maybe you're too stuck in the future to live in the present?" Rosie corrects her and Victoria only looks back at her. "Vic, we don't know if we'll end up like mom. Grammy didnt have it, right? Who knows, it could skip us." She points out. Their grandmother had simply passed from a heart attack, she had no sign of being schizophrenic.

"Maybe."

"You deserve to have the life you want." Rosie admits, wanting her sister to enjoy her life, especially since she'd be leaving soon. "Besides, I think having a little niece would be fun." She adds with a smile and Victoria furrows her eyebrows.

"How do you know it'll be a girl?" Victoria asks curiously.

"Oh, i know." Rosie says with a small laugh and Victoria shakes her head. "I know there's no real tests to confirm if we have it or not but there are factors we can watch out for. And God forbid We do have the gene... at least we could catch it early right?" She explains, trying to find some optimism in it for her sister.

"I just don't know If i want my daughter coming to visit me and me not even remembering key moments of her life." Victoria admits. When she went to visit her mom and she didn't even remember Anthony died.... it wasn't just that she forgot, it was that if she told her, she would have to relive through it once again.

"Well, that would be up to her." Rosie admits and Victoria sighs. "Mom still loves us, i believe that. She just... unfortunately couldnt be my mom." She points out. Victoria did have a few good years with their mom, seeing as she was diagnosed when pregnant with Rosie and Victoria felt almost guilty she got to know their mom and Rosie didn't.

"I hope i at least gave you a good childhood."

"Hey, you did amazing." Rosie admits with a smile, moving her hand to wipe a tear that had fell down Victorias cheek. "So, i know you'll also be amazing to your future kids." She adds and Victoria nods her head slowly. "I know it wasn't easy what you did but you did it to keep us together. And I will forever be grateful for what you sacrificed." She states, holding onto Victorias hand.

But Victoria shakes her head as she presses her lips together tightly, squeezing Rosie's hand as she tilts her head.

"It wasnt a sacrifice."

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COMING OUT OF THE BEDROOM AFTER A WHILE, having smelt something nice, she noticed Eddie was hovering around the counter, scrolling on his phone while Buck was placing something on a plate. Victoria furrows her eyebrows as she walks further into the room, wrapping her arms around herself. "What are you doing?" She asks curiously, getting both of their attention.

Eddie only glances toward Buck, allowing him to answer since he knew she was more asking him. Buck clears his throat as he places the pan down.
"I um.. I wanted to make you something as an apology but I wasn't sure exactly what your comfort food was and Eddie was no help whatsoever--"

"Hey!" Eddie scolds and Buck just gives him a look before turning his head back toward Victoria.

"So, i kinda made numerous things..." Buck admits, rubbing the back of his neck. Victoria allows her eyes to roam over the numerous types of food laying about, steaming with smoke and smelling freshly baked.

"And made a mess as well." Eddie adds and Buck slowly turns his head back to the man.

"I'll clean up."

"Mm." He only hums, simply smirking down at his phone.

"You didn't have to do all this, Buck." Victoria denies, glancing down at her hands momentarily.

"Yes, I did because I know i was a dick And wasnt listening to what you were saying." Buck admits as he looks toward her. Victoria tilts her head as she gazes up at the man. "You have every right to be afraid after what you went through and i am so sorry that i made you feel like you couldnt talk about it with me." He explains to her and smiles gently. She was just glad he was actually trying to understand now. Thats all she wanted. "And if you want to stay mad, that's okay too." He adds at the end and she gasps a bit.

"And leave Eddie to deal with you alone? I'm not a monster." Victoria says with a smirk playing on her face. Buck presses his tongue to the inside of his cheek as she laughs a bit.

"I'll let that slide because I deserved that." Buck admits, pointing his finger at her. She just rolls her eyes playfully as she leans against him slightly.

"Now, can we actually eat what you made or are you gonna slap my hand again?" Eddie asks as he leans against the counter. Buck simply narrows his gaze at the man.

"I'll slap you somewhere else in a minute." He retorts and neither of them believed he meant it in the way they were thinking. Victoria couldn't help but share a glance with Eddie, both of them smirking.

"Kinky." Victoria says with a wink and she could see Buck turn all shades of red.

"No, i just meant-- like I, like i didnt-- I hate you both." He groans, tilting his head back and Eddie laughs as he just moved toward the pair.

"If you hating us comes with this food then im okay with that." He admits, taking a bite of the garlic bread before simply leaning beside them. Buck rolls his eyes playfully but grabs a hold of Eddies hand.

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JENNIE SITS BESIDE ROSIE ON THE COUCH IN MAY'S HOUSE. She notices that she was a bit quiet so she only nudged the girl who glances over at her.
"You good?" She asks and Rosie nods her head, placing a smile on her lips.

"Yeah, just family stuff." Rosie responds to her and Jennie furrows her eyebrows.

"Anything you want to talk about?" Jennie questions, concern in her voice and Rosie presses her lips together tightly but shakes her head.

"Not really."

"Well, I'm here if you ever want to." Jennie admits as she places her hand on Rosie's knee, a genuine smile on her face.

"I know." Rosie responds, placing her hand on top of Jennie's for a moment.

"So, what movie are we watching?" May asks as her and Tamara walk into the living room with the popcorn and candy.

"Nothing marvel." Tamara grumbles and May frowns, looking a bit confused.

"Wha-- why?"

"Babe, we always watch marvel when we hang out." Tamara points out with a small groan, sitting down on the couch.

"Because its amazing." May states and Tamara didn't seem to agree.

"I agree with May, We need to mix it up." Jennie adds and Tamara clicks her tongue a bit.

"Then what do you suggest?" She asks, raising an eyebrow.

"What about the maze runner?" May states.

"Ooh, yes." Rosie immediately agrees.

"Come on, weve seen that a thousand times as well." Tamara points out and May scrunches her nose a bit.

"Hunger games?" Jennie questions but Tamara shakes her head firmly.

"No."

"Fine, what about like grown ups?" Rosie stares at Tamara, waiting for the confirmation from the girl who seemed to have to be the one to decide.

"Yeah, thats always a classic to watch." May adds and Tamara thinks for a second but Jennie shrugs.

"Im good with that."

"Fine, if you guys want to gang up on me." Tamara groans and May only laughs, pressing a kiss to her cheek before looking toward their other friends.

"So, you two find anybody yet?" May asks curiously and Jennie holds her hands up in defense.

"I am not looking for love right now." She denies, shaking her head.

"Focusing on her studies." Rosie teases and Jennie nudges her arm, narrowing her gaze a bit.

"Hey, i wanna get into a great school." Jennie states and  Tamara laughs as she crosses her arms.

"You can do that and have a boyfriend, you know." She points out and Jennie just looks down at her hands.

"Boys are overrated." Rosie admits and Jennie snorts as she nods her head in agreement.

"Isnt that true."

"Jennie and i are perfectly fine being single." Rosie says as she glances over at May and Tamara.

"I still don't get why you broke up with Jake." May admits as she leans back against her girlfriend and Rosie simply shrugs her shoulders.

"We just werent the right fit."

"Whatever you say." Tamara sing songs as she presses play on the movie and Jennie just smiles over at her best friend.

"Sometimes you just need someone who truly understands you." Jennie admits and Rosie smiles back at her. Tamara shares a glance with May before they just pay attention to the screen.

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VICTORIA LETS OUT A CONTENT SIGH, laying on her bed as she closed her eyes momentarily. "I told you, my bed is superior." She mumbles as she lets her head hang off of the end while Eddie and Buck were rested against the pillows. It still wasn't big enough for all of them to lay next to each other but she wouldn't give it up for anything.

"Whatever you say." Eddie responds, his arms crossed behind his head. Victoria raises an eyebrow as she sits up, resting back against her eyebrows.

"Says the man lounging on it like its air." Victoria retorts with a small laugh.

"Mm." He simply hums. Victoria bites her bottom lip as she moves over to him, settling on his legs as she lifts his shirt a bit, pressing kisses along his lower abdomen.

"Dont start something you cant finish." Eddie tells her and she just moves further up, straddling his waist as she hovers her lips over his.

"I always finish it." She states, a smirk on her face before she presses a kiss to his lips. Eddie sighs as his hand comes into her hair, gripping it as the kiss deepens. Victoria moans softly as her hands slide down his chest.

His lips pull from hers, marking along her jaw and neck causing her head to fall back lightly. She went to glance toward Buck, only to see him on his phone. "Buck apparently cant say the same." She adds and Eddie pulls back from her for a moment, looking at the man as well.

"Texting your secret lover?" Eddie teases him with a wink and Buck shakes his head as he glances at the pair.

"Please, you two are plenty enough." Buck admits as he goes back to his phone. Victoria presses her lips together as she crawls over to him, moving his phone away from him and climbing onto his lap.

"You want to focus on that or... something else?" She asks, taking off her shirt and leaving her in her black lacy bra. Buck seemed distracted for a moment as she leant down and littered his exposed skin with kisses. That was until his phone rang.

"She moved our session up because something came up, i gotta take this." Buck tells them as he lifts Victoria off of him, setting her back on the bed before getting up.

"Hes ditching us for his other lady friend." Victoria says with a pout, looking towards Eddie who only chuckles a bit.

"Ill be like five minutes. Im sure you can occupy each other until then." Buck states, giving them a smirk before leaving the room. Victoria sighs as she turns on her side, simply staring over at Eddie.

"What are you thinking about?" Eddie asks her curiously, seeing her analyzing him.

"How you should take your shirt off." She responds, her hands moving to the edge of it. Eddie chuckles as he leans closer to her. Their lips connect once again as her hands linger underneath the fabric.

Eddie uses one hand to pull up his shirt, pulling back for a millisecond to take it off before smashing their lips back together. Victoria sighs as she kisses him back, her fingers raking his toned abs before pulling away and beginning to kiss down his chest. She made her way down to his v-line, taking her sweet time.

It was only when she was getting desperate for his touch again that she kissed her way back up. Eddie smiles as the woman comes back up to his lips. They gaze at each other for a moment before their lips reconnect. Victoria moans as she leans against the man, feeling his hands roam down her for a moment. His fingers grab along the waistband of her pants. He pulls them down slightly, her underwear slightly showing.

She lifts herself lightly, allowing her pants to be pulled off and feeling the rough calluses of eddies fingers around her now bare thighs as he wraps them around him. She sits on his lap as their lips fight against each other. Eddie only moves them back against the bed, pressing her back against it as he hovered over her, the kiss becoming more fierce.

Her fingers yank at his belt, causing him to grunt lowly as she pulls him forward a bit. Victoria fiddles with it as she doesn't pull her lips away from his once. Finally getting it off, she was quick to shove his jeans down his legs. Both now only in their undergarments, the air is thick as the sound of their heated kisses fill the room. The sheets tangled around them, the kiss was full of nothing but lust and passion as they clung onto whatever skin they could get a hold of.

Eddie grinds down against her causing both of them to let out low moans into the kiss as the thin fabric between them rubs together. Her legs wrapped around his waist, pulling him closer as he started kissing across her jaw line. Victoria hums as she slides her hand down his back as he kisses down her neck, sucking beneath her earlobe.

He allows his lips to go lower as he unclasped her bra, throwing it aside. His fingers rake her bare skin as he kissed along her collarbone before moving down to her breast's. He squeezed them slightly, his lips planting heated kisses along them.

She gasps as she closes her eyes, her head falling back. She could feel his tongue along her skin a little bit as he kisses her. Victoria nudges him back so he was laying against the bed now, bringing his head up and smashing their lips together.

Victoria straddles him as she rocks their bodies together, a long moan leaving her  as their tongues tangle with each other. Her fingers tangle in his hair before roaming down his bare chest. Eddie kisses her more passionately as his hand squeezes her lower back while the other fiddles with the band of her underwear.

"God, do you not know how to answer your door?" A voice asks as the door creaks open. Victoria freezes on top of Eddie, his hands tensing around her back. "My bad." Hen chuckles as she notices the situation that she walked in on. She was about to leave when Victoria moved slightly, revealing the man beneath her which wasn't her boyfriend in hens eyes. "Uh..." Hen was shocked as she locked eyes with Eddie for a moment.

Victoria was sheepish as she pulled the sheets tightly around her, clearing her throat a bit. "Hen, what are you doing here?" Victoria asks as she sits up slightly and Hen just placed a hand on her hip.

"Better question is what are you doing with Eddie?" Hen asks her, her eyes narrowing before she holds her hand out. "Don't answer that, its clear what you were up to." She mumbles, her nose scrunching up a bit.

"It's not what you think."  Eddie denies. It truly wasn't but it wasn't like she would believe them.

"Really?" Hen asks with a scoff. "So, im just hallucinating the nakedness?" She questions, tilting her head and Eddie hesitantly glances down.

"Well, no..."

"Do you know how hurt Buck will be when he finds out that his girlfriend And best friend are sleeping together behind his back?" Hen asks them, crossing her arms against her chest as anger spreads over her face.

"Um, he kinda knows." Victoria answers awkwardly as she continues to hold the sheets to her chest. Hen furrows her eyebrows as she glances between them.

"What?"

"This is... its like we.." Victoria stutters out an explanation but footsteps approaching catch everyone's attention.

"I told you, five minutes and--" Buck stops himself, his shirt in his hand as he was met with Hen. His eyes go wide, his jaw slack as he could only stare at her. "Hen." He was surprised to see her, not having heard her come in.

Hen only moves her eyes down his bare chest before her gaze shifts back over to Victoria and Eddie. "What is happening?" She asks, confusion flooding her as she blinks a few times.

"We're together." Eddie answers her with a sigh, finally just giving it to her straight.

"I dont understand."

"Well, it also seems you dont know how to knock." Victoria mumbles as she runs a hand through her hair.

"I was knocking, for five minutes." Hen snaps back at her, clenching her jaw.

"Maybe i wasnt home, did that not occur to you?" She retorts, raising her eyebrows.

"Well, find my friends says you were here and i could hear the music."

"And you didnt think that it Could've been me and Buck?" She points out with a scoff, gesturing to the man who was awkwardly putting his shirt back on.

"You weren't answering your phone or the door so I used my key." Hen says, crossing her arms against her chest and Victoria bites her tongue.

"Thats for emergencies."

"And this couldve been one."

"You just said you heard music."

"Sorry if i barged in without notice, my bad. Its not like the last time this happened i found you on the bathroom floor or anything." Hen snaps back at her and it goes silent, so much you could hear a pin drop. "Sorry for caring." She mutters, shaking her head before turning and heading out the door.

"Hen." Victoria tries to call out to the woman, her heart plummeting in her chest. She sighs as she gets up quickly, grabbing her pants and Eddies shirt and throwing them on. "Hen, wait." She rushes after the woman, leaving Buck and Eddie alone in the bedroom.

"You didnt hear the door?" Eddie whisper shouts to the man who holds his hands up in defense.

"I was on the patio." Buck answers and Eddie rolls his eyes before laying back on the bed, covering his face with his hands.

"Hen." Victoria says as she catches up with her just before she got to the front door. "Im sorry, i didnt-- i just wish you wouldve knocked on the bedroom door that's all." She apologizes with a frown. She didn't mean for Hen to think like that and definitely didn't want her to ever worry.

"I know you're doing better, Vic. But relapses happen, I mean it happened to Bobby and I just... I worry about you." Hen states. It wasn't like she wanted to invade her privacy or anything like that. She just feared she would walk into the same situation. "I didnt mean to walk in or discover something you clearly wanted to keep to yourself." She explains and Victoria shrugs her shoulders lightly.

"We were gonna tell people, we were just waiting for the whole group to be together."

"So you, Buck and eddie are together?" Hen asks, narrowing her gaze as she truly tried to get the facts together now.

"Yeah..." she trails off a bit.

"I guess Chim owes me twenty bucks." Hen admits with a small laugh and Victoria groans as she tilts her head back but she couldn't hide the smile that formed.

"I fucking knew it." She grumbles and hen only smiles back at her.

"I mean, i got suspicious when you and Eddie were more touchy than usual and I would see Eddie and Buck having hushed conversations but i didnt know i was right. Part of me did think you and Eddie were... you know."

"Well, it probably was easier To see that than the reality." Victoria was honestly glad It was just her and Eddie Hen caught. If it was all three of them, she may have died from embarrassment.

"I'm happy for you." Hen admits with a sincere smile on her face as she reaches out and grabs victorias hand. But the girl couldn't help but still feel horrible.

"I'm sorry, Hen." She apologizes. Victoria forgot when kind of a burden she left on the woman, having been the person to find her.

"Hey, I'm just glad I found you in bed and not the alternative." Hen tells her as she tilts her head a bit. Victoria nods as she bites the inside of her cheek.

"I promise ill answer the door if i hear it." Victoria assures her, not wanting her to ever have to worry like that again.

"And your phone. I called like six times." She teases and Victoria couldn't help but flush bright red.

"My bad." Hen simply laughs as she shakes her head.

"Just know I'm gonna be asking you a ton of questions." Hen points out, raising an eyebrow and Victoria rolls her eyes playfully.

"Oh, i figured."

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WATCHING AS THE OTHERS PACKED THE TRUCK, Victoria made her way over to Bobby who was stood with a clipboard in his hand. He seemed focused and didn't seem to notice her walking over to him. "Can i talk to you for a moment?" She asks him curiously, stopping beside him. Bobby glances toward her, on a time crunch as he looked toward his watch.

"We don't have much time before you guys head off to texas." Bobby tells her, needing to make sure everything was secure before they left. Victoria chews her bottom lip as she nervously fiddles with her fingers.

"Its about that, actually." Victoria admits and Bobby stills for a moment. He furrows his eyebrows but nods his head.

"Uh, okay." He responds, leading them to his office and closing the door. Bobby leans against his desk as she only takes a seat in one of the chairs. "What's up?" Bobby questions, wondering why she needed to speak to him so urgently.

"I really appreciate you helping me get a job back at the 118, even if it's not what I truly wanted. And for looking out for me and giving me a second chance." Victoria starts, a bit hesitant as she could barely look at Bobby. "But, i dont know if i can continue to do this." She denies and Bobby seemed confused, glancing around and shifting a bit.

"To do what?"

"Be a paramedic." Victoria tells him, finally meeting his gaze and she could tell he was shocked. "I love helping people and i love working with every single person Here i just.... I'm just reminded of the job that I will never be able to do again." She explains to him as she tries to fight back the tears that are forcefully making their way into her eyes.

"We don't know that. The doctor could--"

"Miraculously give me an all clear? You and i both know that doesnt seem to be happening." She says with a small scoff. Victoria wanted to hold out hope but it had been half a year already, she didn't see it actually happening anymore.

"You can think about this, it doesnt have to be a rash decision." Bobby denies. He didn't understand where this was coming from since she seemed pretty happy being back at the 118.

"I have been thinking about it." Victoria admits. She had been thinking about it ever since she took the job. "I cant do it anymore." She denies, her voice cracking as she stares at the man who takes a shaky breath.

"Just, sit on it, okay? Go to texas, help out there and maybe your decision will be different when you come back." Bobby informs her and her eyes drop to her hands momentarily.

"Bobby-"

"Just think more on it. Please." His tone had some sort of emotion in it that she couldn't exactly pin point. But she knew he wasnt going to let her leave this suddenly. So, letting out a sigh, she nods her head slightly.

"Okay." Victoria responds before standing up and making her way toward the door. Bobby brings his hand up to his face, rubbing it lightly as she made her way onto the apparatus floor.

Grabbing her bag from the bench, she heads over to the firetruck, trying to fight the negativity off of her face as she climbs inside. "Thank god. Please tell Hen not to give us the third degree." Buck groans as he sees the girl sit in front of him.

"We have a long drive ahead of us and ill be damned if i dont get all the information out of you lot." Hen retorts, crossing her arms against her chest.

"Cant we just have a nice, relaxing ride?"
Eddie pleads, resting his head back as he truly didn't want to spend the whole time answering her questions.

"Not when you made me witness what i did." Hen tells him and he only narrows his eyes toward her.

"No one made you walk in without knocking." He denies, annoyance in his tone and Hen clenches her jaw.

Buck on the other hand only looks toward Victoria, sensing the girls silence.
"You okay?" Buck asks curiously, nudging her knee with his own. Victoria meets his concerned eyes.

"Yeah." She says with a smile on her face. Buck moves his hand over to hers, giving it a squeeze before his eyes were moving back to Hen and Eddie who were still arguing. Victoria's smile falters as she looks toward the window, watching as they pulled out of the firehouse.

She wished she could be a paramedic and truly be happy with that. Not need anything else more in her life because truthfully, her life was pretty damn awesome right now. But she couldnt. She couldn't fight off the pain that still lingered from her accident.

The pain that was keeping her from doing the one thing she spent her whole life trying to achieve.

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Authors note; eeeeeeeeeh an official introduction to tk and Carlos next chapter!!! I've been waiting for this for so long.