The Actual Reason

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The car was silent, dead silent, the kids were sitting at the back of the SUV this time, their hands folded across their chest looking carefully towards their fathers as if there aren't any excitement seeing and listening to what their fathers actually did.

It was a bright day and a Sunday at the utmost, the kids were excited to spend it somewhere else rather than their house and suggested an amusement park trip.

"Why amusement park?" Seokjin asked while one of his hands stayed on the wheel turning it occasionally and one alongside the gear stick, the hand alongside the gear stick did not hesitate in brushing the hands of Jungkook who unconsciously laid his hands at the side of his seat.

Jungkook looked outside the window not looking at him but Seokjin knew he had a blushing smile etched and carved on his lips seeing how excited his fingers seem at the edge of the leather seat.

The kids can meek and seek little glances up from behind, and they chuckled among themselves seeing their relationship progressing, it was slow but yet it was progressing all along very well and they were grateful for it.

"Yes we need an amusement park," Soobin said while everyone nodded in accord with his words and some hummed, Jungkook looked behind to see the kids with a raised eyebrow "But why Amusement park, you all are big and teenagers now," he said and they all shrugged at him without giving an answer.

"You can drop us off there, and hand over the money to Yeonjun which would be taken care of by Huening and Taehyun ofcourse, and also you two can have some alone time" Seokjin's neck turned red at the attention he was getting from his own kid and Jungkook swayed his head at the fast talks of their kids and handed over an ample amount of money to roam around the amusement park.

"You sure you will get back safely?" They all nodded and went away without looking back "I guess it's just us then?" Seokjin looked at Jungkook when he said those words and shrugged his shoulders with a smile "My house with a cup of coffee?"

Seokjin opened the lock of his house and let Jungkook in first which made him blush and he nodded shyly going inside, Seokjin swayed his head at the cuteness which Jungkook showed to him and went inside himself, "Sit down I will make some coffee" Jungkook nodded and took a seat by the dining table.

"Can I ask you a question if you don't mind?" Seokjin hummed while he filled the bowl with water and started the stove "What question?" Seokjin said turning his face to look at Jungkook "Who was your other partner, you know, like who were you married to?" Jungkook asked and Seokjin turned around leaning himself on the counter just beside the stove.

Seokjin with a smile replied "Taehyung, Taehyung was the one I was married to" Jungkook's eyes widened with shock, he knew the name, no he lived with the person named Taehyung, no more accurately Jungkook was the step-brother of Taehyung, his head hurt, Jungkook squished together his eyelids and kept a hand on top of his head to stop the pain.

His head was reeling, his heart constricting and everything felt like crumbling around, he could remember some bits and pieces of memories he did not want to remember "Hey Jungkook are you fine?" Seokjin came worriedly to him and patted Jungkook's back, Jungkook did not look at Seokjin but he knew Seokjin was dead worried for him.

Jungkook looked at Seokjin with a sad and guilty face "What happened Jungkook? Are you fine?"

"I am sorry Seokjin" Jungkook muttered softly and Seokjin was confused why he was asking Sorry, he was confused why Jungkook was on the verge of crying and losing himself, Seokjin was confused about why Jungkook was looking at him with a guilty expression "What happened? Why are you telling me sorry Jungkook?"

Jungkook burst out a sob at the soft voice which Seokjin used, Seokjin turned off the water on the stove and sat beside Jungkook, and leaned Jungkook's head on his shoulder "I am so sorry Seokjin, I cannot save him, I could not save Taehyung, I remember, I remember everything, everything about how we used to be thick friends in the past, I remember you loving Taehyung, I remember my and his own parents killing him, I remember I was framed in it, I remember everything"

Seokjin was confused but happy yet he felt anger washing over him, he was feeling an overwhelming passion of emotions yet again "Jungkook calm down and tell me, Tell everything slowly, drink some water first"

Seokjin took water from the jug which was kept on top of the table and poured some water inside the glass and made Jungkook drink it "Now tell me" Jungkook sighed a little and kept the glass down lowering his gaze not able to meet it with Seokjin.

"Remember we used to play and have so much fun when we were barely teenagers?" Jungkook said softly only his voice resonating, he peeked his eyes a little to see Seokjin inhaling a sharp breath trying to remain calm, and nodded "I went away from there because my father married a very rich woman, she was beautiful too, she loved me and she had a son, his name was Taehyung"

Seokjin remembers Taehyung speaking about his woman and according to his opinion she was an absolute bitch "My step-mother hated her own son but loved me because she loved the man which would give her access to all the worldly pleasures she was missing because of being a woman, they both used each other for greed and not love, lust and not cuddles" Jungkook sniffed remembering those nightmares.

"I remember Taehyung being so depressed that there was one psychiatrist which used to come every weekend to talk with him alongside a boy, I recognized oh too well, and that was you Seokjin" Seokjin was teary he knew someone was seeing him, he felt it in his heart that Jungkook was there and he was true

"Taehyung said how he liked the boy who tagged his father along but the boy was reserved and did not talk much, I might have known why you had been like that but I cannot pinpoint how you felt.

When Taehyung started speaking about you, I left my feelings, or so I thought I tried to do but I could not, it felt like I cannot have someone like you ever in my life so I started becoming a rebel, got tattoos, drank, got caught, got put into jail and met Jimin hyung from there, I was rebellious and Taehyung tried to do his best but he couldn't because I never listened to him"

Seokjin remembers too how a little smile and how little talks of Taehyung could heal him up too, he squeezed Jungkook's hand to continue "Then my parents assigned a practicing lawyer named Namjoon beside me"

"Namjoon?" He remembers his best friend, his childhood friend whom he might have beaten once because he said jokingly he likes Jungkook "You were married to Namjoon?"

Jungkook looked down and nodded "I liked him but at the corner of my brain I knew I liked no I loved you more, but anyways I liked him because he always supported me no matter what, then one day I heard my parents discussing to kill Taehyung, and I guess I remember Taehyung giving birth to Taehyun recently and I was scared, shit scared.

Taehyung was loved by his rich grandmother and was given a big enterprise, didn't you know?" Seokjin nodded, actually not knowing that Taehyung had any inheritance. 

"They wanted to kill him and take the lease to their name, I tried telling him but I had no way to contact him, they tried involving me in a plan but I did not agree to them, so they hit my head and drugged me until I was unconscious, that was one of the major reasons why I had lost my memory a bit, I was put into the car and the next thing I remember waking up was Taehyung smiling at the car which I was sitting in, I had given birth to Huening recently too and was dead tired but when I saw the scene I broke down.

I was framed, I was hailed in the court but Namjoon saved, Taehyung should have had a proper justice, I am so sorry" Jungkook cried and broke down yet again, he cannot look up to meet Seokjin's eyes "Then I am sorry too Jungkook" he muttered softly and Jungkook looked up with a shocked expression "Why?" he rasped a question.

"Namjoon came to me, saying he had cancer, I said I could help him but instead of my great efforts he did not accept my help and instead went on somewhere else, he said me one thing Jungkook, he was the one who was driving the car that night, the night my husband was ruthlessly taken over by the car" Jungkook gasped tears falling uncontrollably, Seokjin let loose his own tears as they both cried.

"Did Taehyung continue to draw Seokjin?" Seokjin nodded at the question asked by Jungkook "Can you show it to me?" Seokjin nodded yet again without speaking any words, they both went upstairs and the room which was locked he opened the open and turned on the lights blinding their eyes for a little.

"Wow, it seems his paintings improvised when he came here," Jungkook said gasping at the mesmerizing drawings and looked around the room but there was a white envelope that lay beside a particular drawing "What is this?" Jungkook thought out loud and Seokjin looked at the painting and not where Jungkook was staring "Our family portrait, this was the last portrait he drew" Jungkook swayed his head in a no and took the envelope from behind the painting.

"What is this?" Seokjin said raising an eyebrow at the envelope which had him addressed "Open and see it for yourself" Jungkook said and opening the envelope he saw a letter "Read it Seokjin" Jungkook said squeezing Seokjin's shoulder encouragingly "I am scared" Seokjin muttered softly "Read it, he might have left something" Seokjin nodded and sniffed opening the letter.

Dear Seokjin, My love.

I may not be alive when you read it or you might not even read it because I prefer it hidden, I am sorry if you are hurting Seokjin, let me get straight to the point.

I love my kids and you, especially you my love but I had the last stage of leukemia, I did not want you all to see me in the worst scenario of mine, and I knew about the plans my parents were forging against me, I was furious but I was helpless, this envelope will also contain the inheritance of my grandmother signed under your name, give to the children for their college.

I asked Namjoon for help, to help me die peacefully, I knew he was Jungkook's husband but still, he was the only lawful person who helped with the process, I will smile at you when I stand in front of the car which would probably kill me but please smile at me too when I take my last breath.

Dont be mad at Jungkook, he was not even a plan of this shit, dont be mad at Namjoon I forced him to kill me, please please go and love Jungkook, I know you have a special heart for that bunny little brother of mine.

Please take care of my little sweetpeas Seokjin, my Moon.

-Your taehyung

Seokjin fell down on his knees with Jungkook beside him consoling him but Seokjin cannot stop his cries, he was heartbroken, he was sad, he was shredded and he needed space but the presence of Jungkook beside him made him feel comfortable too, he did not say anything only one thing ran through his mind, 'So this was the actual reason why Taehyung loved me so much'

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A/n:- Phew and fuck, it was so long to write!