After that whole fiasco, Summer Night Lights here we come. Oo im excited for this! I got home and change. I put on the sweater Ruby gave me, some shorts and my vans. I walked out of my room and saw Ruby and Willy.

"Whats your intentions with Valeria?" I can see Ruby was scared, I mean Willy is taller, buff, scary looking and well he's my big brother. Even though he was covered in tattoos, he's a nice person. I was spying on them.

"On the long run or?"

"Sure, enlighten me Ruben." Ruby gulps. He was sweating. Willy was just relax and enjoying the moment.

"Well, I wanna be with her, get married, not too young you know, not fresh out of Highschool-"

"You like her?"

"Of course I do." Willy puts his hands on Rubys shoulders.

"You better not knock her up." My eyes widen. "Ill come for you, if you do." Ruby was looking for a way out. "Nah im just playing. I like you Ruben. Im glad you make my sister happy. First date?" Willy said as he made himself something to eat.

"Yeah." I smiled to myself. I walked into the kitchen. Ruby was glad to see me. I kissed his cheek.

"Be careful." He nods.

"I promise." We got out of the house. We all went together, Cesar, Monse, Jasmine, Ruby, me and then surprisedly Spooky.

"Here!" I pointed at the skee ball, showing Ruby the cute bears.

"I got you." He smiles. We walked up to the stand.

"Play and win this for your pretty girl." The guy in the stand said. Ruby gives him the tickets. He started to play. Since Ruby hit the certain amount, he won me a frog stuff animal. "And for the lady."

"Thank you!" I hugged it. Ruby held my hand as we walked behind Cesar and them. "Im gonna name it Hoppy."

"I was thinking about Kermit."

"Hoppy Kermit Martinez?" I suggested.

"You're too cute." Ruby reaches for his phone and throws his head back. "I have to go, its Jamal."

"Its okay. Go." I kissed him goodbye.

"Are you sure? I can stay."

"Im sure. Its Jamal, so its pretty big." He kissed my hand and walked away. I caught up the others.

"Wheres Ruby?" Cesar asked.

"Something with Jamal." I shrugged. During the walk, playing games, Spooky wouldnt stop cracking jokes about Jasmine getting thrown up on. It was scary to even see Spooky laugh.

"I swear to god, i think I saw an entire churro on your back." Jasmine mocks him.

"Imma go get us some drinks." She walks away.

"Ill take a corona, but I wont need a lime. I'm gonna grab one out of your hair." Spooky laughs. I rolled my eyes, holding the frog close to me.

"Its really not that funny." Monse tells him. Spooky stops, he looks behind Cesar. We turned around, 19th street, and then Adriana. I wasn't gonna start today, not here. She's not worth it and I promise Willy.

"Ill be back." Cesar and Spooky had a few second conversation until Spooky walks away to the 19th street gang. It was just me, Monse and Cesar. I went on my phone, trying not to get into their conversation. Jasmine runs to us, laughing.

"Slushies?" I grabbed the cup from her.

"Nah girl, forties. I gotem from the paletero."

"Oh. You showed'em your boob?"

"It's probably her third nipple." I guessed, looking inside the cup. It reeks with alcohol.

"Yes right, my third nipple." We looked disappointed in her. "Which isn't even that big of a deal because its inside my belly button." I sipped on the beverage, my face was turning hot. "I got an outie inside my innie." She danced.

"Cesar!" We all turned to see Hammel.

"Eighty-six the forties!" Monse, Jasmine and I started to chug the beer. I started to go ham. As I finished, I yelled.

"OOOO BEAT THAT BITCHES!" The girls looked at me.

"Is she drunk?"

"She a lightweight." I laughed. I was out! I WAS GONE. So gone. The three of us went to the swings, started to talk nonsense. I spin myself, having fun. "Okay. Okay, you convinced me. You should be there for Cesar. But if you're gonna be there, you should get something out of it. And I'm talking about dick!" We all chuckled.

"Im listening!"

"Girl, put his ass on yard duty! And make him mow that lawn!"

"Ahhhh! Make him your bitch!" I slurred.

"Yes!!! You gotta get the hippity dippity, because thats what its all about! And Val! Make Ruby want you! His eyes were hungry for more!"

"You are so right!" I threw my head back.

"And let me tell you both, put out a life insurance policy so you can murder that D!" We all laughed.

"You're right!"

"You're such a genius!" I started to swing back and forth. Cesar comes running towards. Me and Jasmine went behind him and started to hump the air. As Cesar turned around, we acted natural. He then left. We started to dance as lunch money came on. Monse and I recorded Jasmine, showing her dance moves. "Trippy!" I laughed.

"What the hell is that?" Spooky said as he came to us.

"Its the lunch money challenge yo!"

"Work it girl!"

"Yes queen!" I clapped my hands.

"Wheres Cesar?" He asked us.

"Uh he went to go help Ray."

"Alright. Well im bouncin."

"Bye!!" We all sang, waving him off. We continued to dance. Spooky looked at us, sighing.

"How are you guys getting home?"

"Someone'll drive us." Jasmine grabbed us to a hug. "Especially when I gave a wardrobe malfunction of the third nipple kind." We all laughed.

"A third nipple kind!" We repeated. Spooky just started at us.

"Imma take yall home."

"Oooo! I call shot gun!" I yelled, running to his car. As he drove, the drunk Val started to calm down. We made it to his house. Jasmine and Monse were sleeping in the back.

"You sure you dont want me to drop you off?"

"No. I dont need your help." I told him.

"You've had too much to drink."

"Who are you, Willy?" I said as I got out of his car and slammed his door. One thing I shouldnt have done. He got out of the car.

"Hey take it easy!" He pointed at the door. "Go home. You're drunk!"

"You're not my parents! Dont tell me what to do!" I yelled at him. "You want me to go home because so I dont say things that I have to say. Let me tell you, Spooky, im not going home until i say em!" I stood up straight, barely. "Do you ever think about Willy? Ruining his life and mine? With all this Santo bullshit? Just because you, the jefe-"

"Shut it." He growled.

"Im Spooky, let me beat up my best friend because he wanted his sister out of the gang, let him take her place. Look at me and big muscles. I got this stupid tear drop because crying is for pussies." He started to laugh at me.

"Ya?"

"You know what tough guy? Im not done." I pointed at his chest. "Because of you, my life has been to shit. I needed your help to get Willy out of jail, but you gave me one option, that option was to join the Santos. Do you know what that does to a kid?" He stood there. "I never wanted this life. All of this, You wanting Cesar to kill Latrelle, olivia died, my boyfriend who is still in pain, you had a big old plan to take down the prophets, making us get kidnapped, then me finding out that my dad is alive! And if I dont give Cuchillos my father, she will hurt everyone I love, and make me join the Santos, once again! If you didn't ask Cesar, my life would be better." My phone rang. It was a text from Willy.

Willy: careful, celia is around here

I rolled my eyes. How wonderful!

"I heard, Willy told me shes back." He pointed at my phone. "Pretty shitty."

"Yeah." I sighed. "After all these years, she wanted money, not her family she abandoned. She just comes as she pleases, not caring that she's ruining our lives, yet again. I don't understand why."

"I know why." I looked at him. "Its for her, not for you. Its what she does. She doesn't care about anybody but herself. She leaves you and comes back, expecting you to let her back in." I started to tear up. "If you did let her in, she wasn't going be a parent, she was gonna destroy you and Willy, because that's what she does. She doesn't know the pain that you and Willy went through. Screw her. If I were you, I wouldn't give her the attention."

"You so right. She doesn't know the pain when I found out she hated me from the start." Spooky eyes fell. He felt bad. "The way she hated my father, the pain she gave me when she and everyone I love, leaves. I hate her and I want her dead." Spooky and I stared at each other. I started to sob. "Why doesn't she want me man?" I sobbed into his chest. "I tried to love her but I cant. I cant forgive her. Why couldn't she just stayed?" He patted my back. "Why can't I have my family together? Why cant my father be a man and just come home?" I pulled from his hug and I looked at him. I kissed his cheek. It was one of those, 'thank you' cheek kisses. He was surprised. It took a second for me to process what I had just said. I turned around and started to throw up. Spooky walked away from me. "Oscar." I said as he turned around. "I needed to say that to someone who knew my pain." He gave me a light nod. I wobble down the street, going home. I came to see Willy, sleeping on the couch. I got a blanket and tucked him in. I went to my room and just let all out. I trashed my room, papers, photos, makeup, books, were all over the floor. I took a step back, looking at what ive done. Why cant we just be normal?