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I woke up—or, more accurately, gave up on pretending to sleep—at 4:30 am, long before the sun made an appearance. Another night wasted, and my eyebags were definitely paying for it.

It's a good thing though because now, I'd be the first one to shower.

Also, by the way, it may be that time of the month. It's great having a period in such an inconvenient place. Fun, fun, fun!

One time, I literally had to walk in a weird way back to my bunk to get a napkin and extra underwear when I felt blood on it.

It was so fun, walking back and forth in blood!

Don't even get me started with the mood swings, all of them infuriated me even more than ever.

Someone once threw a jar of something at a guy beside me in the Gardens but when he caught it, he stumbled backward and spilled the liquid all over me. I automatically grabbed the jar from him and smashed it on the ground and stomped away.

It wasn't my proudest moment but it was definitely a fun one.

No one was hurt so no one sued me.

'Sued' as if we live in the real world.

This ain't shit guys! Wake up.

I was about to close the door when I got out of the Med-hut when I heard footsteps behind me.

Standing there by the door with my arms steady on my sides, my face scrunched up as I watched Minho marching towards me with something clutched in his arms. He held his chin up, grinning as he went closer to me.

He looked stupid without his usual cocky demeanor.

"You're up early." He called out.

"Yeah, I can see that." Lie, I never slept. "And, well, I gotta go take–"

"A shower? Yeah, you definitely need it." He scoffed, covering his nose with his hand dramatically. "Here you go." He handed me a green towel. My towel.

I raised an eyebrow at him before taking it. "Don't act like you smell greater than me with all that man sweat you got there. It always lingers in my nose."

"Oh, so you can smell me all the time, huh?" He crossed his arms, smirking.

What the fuck is his business today?

"You're being weird, you know that? It's literally the break of dawn, give me a break." I groaned, rolling my eyes. I started walking towards the shower area.

He followed beside me, "Aw, you hurt me, Bean. I'm just being myself." He placed a hand to his heart, clutching it with a frown on his face.

What is up with boys here, like seriously?

"Yeah, I know. Being annoying and dramatic, might I add." I mumbled, loud enough for him to hear before walking faster to get past him, hearing his snort for the last time before reaching the showers.

Something seems fishy and that ain't me. So it's definitely him.

Why was he being annoyingly thoughtful and caring instead of annoyingly cocky and arrogant?

Was I in a different dimension but everything about the Glade was still the same? I mean no doubt those asshole jerks who do nothing but bully everyone are still the same old people that have nothing fun going on with their lives. But the others felt different.

And what if that hole I went into– ew, no. Now that I think about it, that sounds dirty.

What if that tunnel I went through was a portal to a different dimension of this maze and Glade? Okay, Thomas's idiotic theorizing is getting to me. But I'm not gonna lie, it's fun acting crazy, the Thomas way.

It was far from how I was when I first got here.

Once I got into the shower, I caught a glimpse of a red stain.

Fuck my life.

I hoped it was just a false alarm. Oh, and I didn't even bring any napkins and extra underwear.

What a lucky day indeed.

Just then, as I unfolded my towel, something fell on the floor. It was a napkin, along with underwear, some shampoo, and a new bar of soap.

Okay, woah. Maybe I wasn't too unlucky after all.

Did Minho put this here? Nah, he wouldn't give these kinds of favors, especially to me. He's too
prideful for that.

What if he did though? I mean he's acting strange lately. And what the fuck?! If he did, then he saw my underwear?

Nope. No, it was probably just with my towel all this time and it's gonna be my first time using it.

Yes, also my underwear has always been with my towel all the time.

I took my time taking a shower, washing everything thoroughly cuz' who knows when I can do this again? The shampoo smelled amazing. It had this calming scent of lavender with a hint of citrus in it. The soap felt nice on my skin, which had a clean and refreshing smell that felt so smooth on my skin.

Unfortunately, the calming scent of lavender and the light feel of the water hitting my skin didn't last. Good things never last.

I couldn't help but feel the urge to scratch myself again and make the water in the hottest setting as I glanced at my scar, reminding me of the shit I went through.

The bad things I've done will always come back to haunt me. Because that's what they always do.

I'm convinced that the people who put us here had some kind of control over us, well on me at least. I don't know about the others, but it definitely feels like my life here has been planned and calculated, including my actions and feelings.

But I do hope I'm wrong about our feelings being also controlled. It's the realest thing we all have right now and I don't want it to ruin everything. And of course, I really need to work on these feelings and emotional crap if I actually want to 'do things differently'.

A loud knock on the wall pulled me out of my thoughts, followed by his annoying voice, "Stop hogging the shower, Beanie."

"I can do whatever I damn want to, pervert," I muttered, hoping he didn't hear the last word I said since the shower curtains were the only thing that was separating us.

He heard it and laughed, "Yeah right, that's not me, never will be. More like the person that wards off horny teenagers."

"What?!"

"You're welcome."

I quickly got dressed and pushed the curtain away. Stepping out, I saw him walking away which I quickly followed. Once I got closer, I smacked him on the back of his head and quickly headed to my bunk to wait for breakfast.

A/N: helloooo, just a short note for my new readers !! thank you for deciding to read my fic, i really appreciate it so much. yall motivate me to continue despite my busy academic lifeee T-T. 

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