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[Jeno]

I drag my feet back home, thinking about y/n.

I entered my house and I heard my sister called my name but I didn't care.

I was too shattered to care.

I entered my room.

I locked the door and drop my bag.

I remove my jacket and my eyes landed on the picture frame on my table.

It was a picture of me and y/n.

It was our very first date and I put it in a frame because she told me to.

I never knew that I would stare at it every night, smiling like an idiot.

And now...

Everytime I see her, I feel like crying..

She didn't even tell me she was sick...

She didn't even tell me that she has an illness...

She didn't...

Why was I so stupid?

Why am I so bad?

Why am I......

"So bad at loving someone..."

I grab the picture frame, caressing it.

I see my own tears starting to fall on the glass.

"Y/n...." I pulled the frame closer to my chest.

"I'm so sorry... I'm so so sorry.... I'm so sorry...."

My legs gave in on me.

I couldn't hear anything but my sobs.

I couldn't think of anything but y/n..

I couldn't feel anything but sadness, anger and guilt...

I couldn't...

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[3 weeks ago]

I turn around to the person who called my name.

I immediately put on a smile, seeing y/n run towards me.

She jumps into my arms and I laugh, twirling her around.

"I got the role~," She said with a bright smile.

"Congratulations, princess~" I kiss her forehead and she chuckled.

"How about you? Did you get into the basketball team?" She asked and I nodded.

"We both got what we wanted then." She said and I laughed, nodding again.

I connected our lips, melting into the kiss.

After a second, we broke it.

"It's been one year..." She started and I nodded.

"Our anniversary is near..." I said and she chuckled.

She pecks my lips before letting go of me.

"I need to get to class. Bye, Jeno~" She waves and I smiled, waving bye.

She runs off to her class.

My smile immediately disappeared as my hand went to my lips.

Guilt was filling my body and mind again.

"You have to break up with her." I heard the person next to me say.

"No matter how guilty you feel, it's part of what we talked about." She said and I sighed.

"I'll eventually do it. Now, leave me alone." I said, walking away from her.

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[Renjun]

I knocked on the door and it opened.

I smile softly at the girl who opened it.

"Is Jeno here?" I asked and she nodded.

She let me inside and I thanked her.

"Jeno is acting weird though. He looks too sad." She said and I sighed.

"I will talk to him." I walk to his room and saw him crying on the floor.

He was hugging that picture frame of him and y/n.

"Jeno.," I called him and his sobs calmed down.

He looks at me, tears strained his face.

"What do you... want?" He asked and I bite my lip.

I walk closer to him.

I make him sit down on the bed and went to his cabinet, grabbing clothes.

I gave him some and he looks at me weirdly.

"Change into those. We need to talk." I said, turning around.

I exited the room and closed the door.

I immediately start to think about what will happen to Jeno.

I know this will affect him deeply.

Both mentally and physically.

I know that it will be too hard for him to accept it.

He was the cause of this.

And that stupid bet...

He fucking caused it.

Not only he ends up hurting himself.

He ends up hurting three other people at once.

Jaemin, Jisung and y/n.

The door opened again, revealing Jeno in his changed clothes.

I patted his shoulder and we exited the house.

"Get in." I opened the car door and he went inside.

I get in as well and starts to drive to the hospital without him knowing.

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We get on the elevator and I pressed the floor button.

The door opened and we both get off.

We walk to the room.

I stopped and look at the glass window that separates the two rooms.

Jeno follows and froze on his spot when he saw her.

His legs immediately gave in and he falls to the floor.

"Jisung and Jaemin were here earlier," I said as I notice him covering his mouth.

He looks like he's about to cry again.

"They told me that I can visit her but you can't," I said, grabbing the required clothes.

"But it's your fault so, talk to her," I said, giving it to him.

He stands up, putting it on before entering the ICU.

Tears were forming in his eyes again as he shakes his head.

He holds her hand, kissing it as tears continue to fall.

"She's not..."

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