"Okay keep your fucking balance. You know how to steer right?"

Jungkook nodded with a nervous expression. Some people in the park watched the two men practice on the skateboard and Jungkook felt their stares pierce into him like lasers.

"Just... leaning..."

"Yeah, but keep your fucking-"

"Balance I get it," Jungkook interrupted, wetting his lips before setting off against the ground. He felt his heartbeat increase right after he started moving and a surge of confidence immediatly flowed through him. He kept going, setting off quicker, faster, until his speed was so great he didn't even know how to stop.

"Oh fuck!" The man cursed as he felt his balance wither.

"Jungkook you idio-!"

Jay's words disappeared from Jungkook's hearing and the wind blew past his ears as he saw the ground near.

The student winced, pressing his eyes shut as he groaned at the pain on his knee.

"Damn it!" Jay yelled as he jogged over to Jungkook, kneeling down next to the wounded man with a deep frown of worry as if the student had suffered a critical gunshot and he was about to die.

"Why did you go so fast you're not a pro! You're always tryna run before you can walk. Did you hurt yourself? Where does it hurt the most? Fuck you're bleeding! Is it broken? Are you crying?"

Jay cupped Jungkook's face and looked dreadful.

"Jay," Jungkook chuckled. "I'm fine."

Jay huffed. "I'm fine my ass! You're bleeding through your jeans, look at your knee."

A red bloodstain soaked the student's jeans and kept growing bigger.

Jungkook scrunched his nose. "Oh..."

Jay stood up and grabbed Jungkook's arm to pull him with him. "We need to take a look at that."

Jungkook stood up though he struggled quite a bit. "Pssh you're just trying to get my pants off."

Jay rolled his eyes, but Jungkook didn't miss the amused smirk the filter tried to hide.

"Well you can't blame me..." the man said as he allowed Jungkook to lean on him. "It's been a while since we last..."

Jay bit his lips, and Jungkook watched the filter gulp as if his mouth had watered.

"Did you just get turned on from seeing me bleed?" Jungkook asked quietly as a a smirk creeped onto his face.

"What? Ofcourse not!" Jay laughed nervously. "Shut up."

~~~

Jungkook whimpered as Jay pressed a cold and wet paper towel against the bleeding wound on his knee.

The men were in a nearby public bathroom, sitting on the floor as they tended to the student's injury.

"Don't start drooling now," Jungkook warned jokingly at the intense focus on Jay's face.

Jay darted his eyes up at Jungkook and a mischievious sheen flickered in his gaze. "Well... seeing you reconstruct that guy's face..."

Jungkook provokingly neared Jay. "You get excited about weird things, do you know that?"

"Hmm," Jay hummed, before closing the distance between him and Jungkook after getting drawn in as if he'd entered a trance.

The filter captured Jungkook's lips and forced the student's tounge to dance with his own.

"I missed you," he breathed as he cupped the Jungkook's face, bringing the young man even closer to deepen the kiss.

Jungkook moaned softly, though a sticky thought wouldn't leave his mind.

"We..." Jungkook said inbeteeen Jay's kisses. "Are sitting...on the ground... in a toiletstall..."

Jay kept tending to Jungkook's lips as if he physically couldn't pull away, but after a moment of passionate kissing he found the strength within him. "Yeah..." he whispered, the disappointment clear from his expression. "You're right..."

He averted Jungkook's eyes and nervously backed off. "Old habits?..." he chuckled sheepishly, looking rather ashamed of himself.

Jungkook didn't like the sudden sadness on Jay's face.

"Die hard," he finished with a smirk, before grabbing Jay's chin to pull him back into a kiss.

~~~

"Hm~ fuck," Jay whined, tensing up as he pressed his eyes firmly shut. "Jung-kook," he choked out as if he couldn't breath.

Jungkook stopped immediatly, taking his mouth from Jay's member with widened eyes. "Want me to stop? Are you okay?"

The student hadn't forgotten how Lil J. had told him before that he didn't feel comfertable being vulnerable around people. This was still Lil J, Jungkook hadn't forgotten, and he would never want to make the man feel unnerved.

Beads of sweat rolled down Jay's face and he gripped onto the tiled ground with whitened fingertips.

"No I-I c-can I... I can do it... I... fuck," Jay looked up at the ceiling and tried to take a deep breath. "It's just- with the integration and shit... and- I don't- I'm not sure what I'm feeling right now..."

Jungkook saw how tense Jay was, his muscles were flexed and trembled, and his breathing pattern was everything but consistent.

"We could make it special too," Jungkook proposed looking up through his lashes. "We could go to my room, I'd dim the lights, put on some musi-"

"Stop you're making it weird. I'm not fucking Jim alright, I don't do gay shit like that."

Jungkook held his tounge only because Jay was having a rough time. But a minute ago the student was sucking on the man's dick and if that wasn't gay...

Jay exhaled a shaky breath. "Do it again..." he whispered, screwing his eyes shut as if he needed to get pricked with a needle by a doctor.

"Are you sure?" Jungkook asked sceptically, perking up a brow at the filter.

Jay nodded, bracing himself like he was about to face a storm.

"Okay then."

Jungkook filled his mouth with Jay's member again, and tried to watch the filter at the same time to make sure he wasn't passing out.

A loud moan that startled Jay rolled off his tounge and he immediatly bit his lips with a shocked look on his face.

Jungkook continued, having learned a bit from Jay himself and working his tounge wisely.

"This is so fucking weir-" Jay's lips parted, curtting off his words as a low, breathy moan took him by suprise again.

Jungkook felt so proud he had to do his best not to smile. The honor he felt in being the first to ever see Jay like this. It was like being with a virgin. Holy shit Jay was a virgin.

"Jungkook I'm f-fucking scared," Jay breathed as his hand found the student's, holding it tightly as his trembling grew more intense.

Jungkook beamed. The filter had willingly given him his hand. Jungkook carresed it, trying everything in his power to make Jay more calm.

The filter's moans grew louder, his body weaker, Jungkook saw the boy slowly letting go, the endorphins finally taking over from his nerves. He wished he could've told the man not to be afraid since there was nothing to fear. But he needed to finish the job.

Jay's eyes were still shut and he frowned softly as if he was having a nice wet dream.

Jungkook finally tasted some pre-cum and saw it stream down Jay's legth. There you go, he thought proudly, the filter was getting closer.

"Jungkook," Jay moaned sweetly, suddenly squeezing the student's hand a tiny bit more. "Uh~ fuck Jungkook I-"

Jay's lips were stuck open as he squirted into Jungkook's mouth, his moans stuttering as his climax overwhelmed him.

"Shit," he whispered sharply, pushing Jungkook away from him the second after he came.

Jungkook wiped his face clean. "Jay..."

Jay brought his legs to his chest and started trembling again.

"Jay it's not good to cut off your orgasm like that." Jungkook neared the terrified man and took his face between his hands. "You need to slowly let it leave your body and treasure it for a while."

Jay had tears building in his eyes and he reminded Jungkook of Jim. Maybe Jay was indeed right. Maybe deep down Jimin really did hate that he was attracted to men.

"I feel like shit," Jay said with a moping face, only to soon be soothed by Jungkook's lips against his own.

"It'll be better next time I promise," the student whispered after pulling away, taking Jay into a warm hug that lasted for a while. He combed a hand through the filter's grey hair and smiled. "I'm proud of you. You overcame a fear!"

Jay looked like he'd caught a bad stomache ache. "Yay~" he sang sarcastically, looking at Jungkook with a straight face and dead eyes.

Jungkook chuckled sympathetically. "Alright. How about we get you home then? Maybe you just need a good rest."

Jay nodded, "yeah... definetly."

~~~

"I did do well right?" Jungkook asked as he and Jay strolled back to the café.

Jay hummed absentmindedly. He looked drowsy, but Jungkook was sure it would pass.

"I want to tell you something," Jungkok said after a moment, "and you might think it's stupid or weird but I don't care."

The student intertwined his fingers with Jay's and took a deep breath as they walked along the gravel path through the park.

"When I was a kid... I used to bully this other kid because he was strange. He wasn't good at sports, only played with the girls, allowed them to do his nails. Everyone made fun of him so I joined. But I guess I did it because I was scared. Because homestly I liked that kid. He was kind, gentle, cute... and I began to have feelings for him. And once I realised this, I got so incredibly mad at myself. I felt digusting. Being gay was wrong I always thought. My parents never said this, but it was just what I felt like everyone thought. I pushed the feelings away, dated girls instead, and then the guy moved to a different state and I never saw him again. I cried a lot the day I found out. Because I never even got to tell him... that I was sorry. A week later I told my parents I was gay, a week after that nearly the entire school knew. But I didn't feel weird or like an outcast. I felt liberated and free. I could check out boys, I could date them. And though some people were a little mean, most of my friends didn't care. They accepted me. Nothing had changed other than the fact that I was no longer lying to myself and beating myself up over something as simple as a preference. And if only I had known that sooner... I wouldn't have caused so much pain for someone who didn't deserve it."

Jungkook sighed deeply, tensing up as he waited for Jay's response to his story.

"So..." Jay started after letting it all get through to him. "What you're saying is... if that guy showed up now you'd leave us for him huh asshole?"

Jungkook gave Jay a death glare and jokingly punched his shoulder though he was actually quite annoyed.

"Jaaaaay."

"Alright okay no I get what you're trying to say," Jay said after rubbing his aching shoulder. "But... it's a little different for me Jungkook. I can't explain it because I'm not Min and words suck. But, knowing that... those pigs hurt Jimin a lot when he was young.... it stays in the back of my mind. And I know it's stupid, because I don't even remember going through the trauma. I don't even really know what happened. But..."

Jay seemed rather annoyed with himself. "I just need to accept it right. I just need to be okay with it. But I have so much hate for the men that hurt Jimin... that wanting to be with a man... just seems wrong."

Jungkook felt like he'd been stabbed through the heart, but it wasn't Jay's fault. None of it was his fault. And that made it hurt even more.

Jay pursed his lips, and slowly, he looked up at Jungkook. "But you..." he said quietly. "You're different. You're so different... it's fucking weird."

Jungkook stretched his lips into a hesitent smile. "For a second there I though you were complimenting me."

Jay let out a soft huff and after the wind dried the tears from his eyes he leaned his head on the student's shoulder. "You're good Jungkook..." he whispered softly.

"You're good."