You make me want to sing you a song

That'll shade all the saddest parts in our life

Your POV:

Terrible, so Terrible. I feel disgusting. I feel ashamed of myself and my own behavior. I feel disgusting thinking how I kissed him back. I feel disgusting thinking how every time I let him kiss me. I feel disgusting admitting that I'm still so weak for him. I feel disappointed thinking how a part of me wants to forgive him and wants him back. I feel so disappointed in myself.

I rub my face with my hands in frustration. I couldn't stop my tears from falling since the moment he walked out of my door. I can still feel his touch and his soft lips on mine. I grab my hair and start to sob hard. My throat hurts from crying silently.

The moment I kissed him back I realized one thing and I hate to admit it that I still love him.

I loved him so much back then. I loved to take risks for him. I loved to wait for him every day to come back home. I loved to wait for that moment when he'll touch me, kiss me in front of his family even if it was for show or all those were frim. I still loved everything about him and he'd do. Because I loved him madly back then.

And now I realize it, I still do. I still love that bastard so fucking much. My heart hurts seeing him sad, but it still hurts knowing he doesn't show any regrets through his actions.

I let out a small laugh through my sobs. "You are such a bastard taehyung. Even if I hate you the most I can't make myself stop loving you so much."

I wipe my tears and stand up. I walk to the mirror and look at my reflection. I laugh wryly, "you look like a mess." I mock myself. I sneer "pathetic bitch." I curse under my breath as I scold myself.

I roll my eyes and walk to the washroom and freshen up. I eat my dinner and go back to sleep. I'm really tired and I just want to sleep now. My head hurts. 

Next Morning~~

I wake up the next morning a bit late but still managed to show up on time at the office. Today we have to practice walking on the stage and there are left only two days for the show.

I didn't see taehyung the whole day the moment I step inside this building. But I did saw a glimpse of him. I was walking to the hallway and he was entering the elevator and luckily he didn't saw me and I succeed in avoiding him. It felt like he's okay. He seemed okay to me.

Right now I'm at the cafeteria. In this office, one thing that happened well is their pasta. I love to eat baked spicy chicken pasta a lot with more mayonnaise. And I forgot to mention they also make good tteokbokki with so much spice.

I was done with My morning practice and now it's lunchtime. The team went out to eat together but today I need some alone space for myself. Plus I'm carving for those foods.

Taehyung's company has a lot of people to work with. It's like he let the whole Korea work under him. The cafeteria is full I barely got a seat. It's on the window side and has two chairs. I place my purse on the floor near my chair and wait for my order to come.

I play with my phone and reply to all the texts I got from my family. I received few texts and voice messages from my ex-in-laws. They're excited to meet me and my babies.

Speaking of babies I miss them, I want to see them. When I was about to make a call someone tapped on the table catching my attention. I look up only to see a woman.

I recognize her. She's the same woman who ran out from Taehyung's office the other day crying. What's she doing here?

"Yes?" I responded first. "Umm...if you don't mind can I take a seat here? All the other seats are already taken. I'm really sorry to bother you but...uh...I'm..." she seems to look hesitating.

I smile and tell her to the seat. "I'm alone and it's kinda boring to eat alone." She smiles back and takes her to sit comfortably. "I'm really sorry....actually I couldn't stand for a long time I'm tired." I look at her confusingly "for standing for too long?" She nods.

She gets my confused look and smiles looking down at her belly. "I'm actually pregnant. Two months and that's why I'm tired."

My eyes widen. At that moment I was having a lot of thoughts running through my mind. A lot of questions, explanations, expectations. A lot of weird and scary thoughts were running wildly through my mind.

I still managed to smile. "Congratulations. I hope you and your baby stay healthy and happy." She smiles back. "This is my second baby."

"You've another baby?" She nods. "She's 7 and half years old now. She takes over her father." She chuckled. "Wow, that's cool. I've two daughters too." I spilled without thinking.

She looks at me amused. "Really? How old? And are they perhaps tw-" I interrupted her. "Twins. 6 years old." I answered smiling.

She clasped her both hands together. "Oh my!! I think we should set up a meeting for children's. What do you say?" She looks nice and energetic now.

"I don't think we are too familiar with each other to set a meeting for our children." She smiles. "We might be...very soon." I stare at her confused. I was about to say more but got interrupted when both of our orders came.

The woman ordered light food and water. "What is your name?" She asked me.

"Yua. Yua Yamazaki." I take the first bite of my pasta. "What's yours?" I ask. She sips on her water. "It's Im-" but was cut off by a sudden call from her phone. "Oh, I'm sorry it's from my husband."

'Husband? I thought-'

"Yes, honey? Oh, Sara misses mummy? I'll be back in an hour. I still haven't got to talk to him properly. Yes, love you." With that, she hung up the call.

I was sipping on my soft drinks. "So Mrs. Im is quite a in love with her husband?" She chuckled and nods shyly. "What are you for?" She takes a bite of her food. "For some company issues. My husband runs a company like this and we wanted to be partners with this company but for some personal reasons the president won't let us." She said smiling sadly.

"I don't mean to bother you but would you like to share your problems with me. It'll help you. You are pregnant and you shouldn't stress too much. Why didn't your husband come instead of you? That's he's company after all."

She sighs. "The president has problems with me and if my husband came here he'd probably kill him. And that's why I'm struggling so much. Would you please listen to me? Maybe you can help me at least your words can." I nod smiling as I focus on her and eat my pasta.

Mrs. Im takes a long breath and starts to tell me her story. "It was 10 years ago. I was 21 years old and I had a boyfriend. We both are from very rich families. But that doesn't mean every father wants their daughter to marry someone who still lives a life without earning money and just does everything with their father's money. My father was one of them. He never liked my boyfriend in the first place. He and my brother. My brother even tried to fake a lot of incidents related to him...like my boyfriend takes drugs, sleeps with a new woman every night, and even hits the woman in his house. But he failed because I knew him very well. He was an innocent man who has a lot of potential in him. He wanted to be in the Navy because he loved the ocean very much. My boyfriend was the sweetest person I've ever seen. He always took care of his family and me. He always thought about people's positive side and even lived like that. I never saw him getting angry or try to say anyone any hurtful things. He can never hurt anyone. I knew that and I always believed in him. But my father and brother couldn't bear to see him with me. They just never appeared to like him a little."

She sighs and looks down at her belly. My pasta was almost finished and I was kinda into her story. "You must have loved him a lot." She smiles again but a tear drops from her eyes. I pass tissue and said, "what's wrong? Isn't he's your husband now?" She wipes her tears and laughs.

"I wish he was. But he isn't. Now the cruel reality hits. From here." I nod and sip on my drink. I don't want to seem uninterested because I'm definitely not. But food comes first you know.

"After a year my father suddenly called me to a five-star hotel. My brother was there too...I don't have a mother. She died 2 years ago before all this happened." I was shocked to hear this but I feel her pain. "I understand." She nods.

"That night I was planning on staying at my boyfriend's place which was his own new mansion he bought after taking over his father's company. There were a butler and nanny who was really nice to me. But my brother ruined it all that night." Suddenly I felt a chill down my spine hearing her words about the mansion and all. Why am I feeling nervous?

"I went to the hotel and my brother said that he held a party in a room and wants me there. But before I go upstairs a waiter came and forced me a wine. My boyfriend and I used to like red wine so I accepted it and drunk the whole glass in one go. But once I step inside the room I felt dizzy and hot. I couldn't bear it and surprisingly that night it wasn't that hot. The room was dark so I thought I came to the wrong room but suddenly I lost my balance and fall on the ground and after that, I don't remember what happened."

I put down my chopsticks and said, "hold on woman?" She looks at me. "You drunk the wine and started to feel dizzy and hot?" She nods. "What the hell? Your family is a fraud. They tricked you." I said without thinking but it's totally ridiculous. She smiles and continued.

"I know that. Because the next day I woke up I saw an unknown man lying beside me. I do remember what happened that night a little but I was saying my boyfriend's name all the time so I couldn't proceed with how that unknown person came to that room. My body was covered with marks and bruises all over my body. I couldn't reach proceed with anything. What did I do? What happened? How am I supposed to face my boyfriend? I didn't know anything. So I just run away from that room and went back to my house. There I saw my brother and father waiting for me happily. They made me puck at that moment. And that's when I decided to run away from them but my luck wasn't that good. They threatened me with taking over my boyfriend's life if I don't do as they said and go to him then they'll kill him. And honestly, it wasn't that hard because they were connected with the biggest Mafia in Russia. So I did as they said. But I hide everything from my boyfriend. After a month I discovered I was pregnant with that man's child. And my family took advantage of it and told this to the man."

She was out of breath. I give her the glass of water and she gulped. "Is that man now your husband?" She nods. "Does he know about it all too?" I ask being very concerned.

"He was tricked too. He didn't want to marry an unknown girl and force the marriage on her. But because he got me pregnant he had to marry me. Besides, he was tricked too that night and actually didn't wanted show up as an irresponsible man so he agreed. After all that I went to my boyfriend when my bally started to show up. But he still didn't know anything. I told him to wait for me for few months I'll be back. I originally planned on giving birth to the child and divorce the man. But before that could happen after 2 months of my marriage he showed up with my brother all of a sudden."

"He saw my bally and me living in a different house with different people and all made him lose his mind. My worst decision was to make that promise, I should have told him everything earlier. Seeing my brother smile I immediately understood he was planning on ruining my boyfriend and our relationship anyway. My boyfriend left my life in just a few minutes in front of my eyes. After that, I tried many times to contact him but he won't let that happen. I broke him into pieces in a blink. After 1 month I heard he also got married to some other girl and she's really pretty and a good person. I was happy about it but somewhere in my heart, I was hurt deeply. I couldn't bear all this in on go, this marriage, my family tricking me, my boyfriend looking at me with that shattered and pained eyes then never wanting to see me and suddenly him getting married and all."

She sobbed. "But I never knew my husband was a good person...I can't describe in words how much of a good a person he is. He never complained or said anything when my boyfriend came. All he always did was protect me and our baby. I'm glad he was there for me. I'm glad that I married him."

Her hands were resting on the table so I put my hands on hers. She was crying like a mess. "You're the strongest woman I've ever seen." She smiles and nods.

"What happened to that boyfriend of yours? And do you know his wife's name?" She barely nods.

"I know that her name was something like...what was it? Ah, it was Y/n." My grip on her hands tightened. I wince a little but she didn't saw it.

'Maybe I'm thinking too much. Let's hear the rest.'

I calm myself down and said, "what about them?"

"I heard that their marriage didn't last long and they got a divorce. I think he still misses me."

I wince again. My heart is beating so fast. I started to sweat. Why am I feeling uneasy all of a sudden?

"What...what was the name of your boyfriend? And what connections do they have with the president?" My voice was shaky.

She smiles again. "Because the president was the boyfriend of mine 10 years ago. The president of this company is Kim Taehyung."

My heart drops on my stomach and my heart stopped beating. "I..I didn't clearly hear your name. What was it?" She wipes her remaining tears and smiles again. Her smile is pretty just like her.

"It's Heejin. Mrs. Im Heejin. Wife of Im Suho." And I don't know where I lost.

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To Be Continued