This book will contain many triggers that I will put
at the beginning of each chapter if they contain it. It
will contain Eating Disorders, body shaming, suicide; self-harm, blood, sexual assault, childhood abuse, physical abuse, and death

Read at your own risk!!!

This chapter will contain mention of eating disorder and abuse

It was 5th year.

A 15-year-old stood in front of the mirror in contrition. Tears stained her cheeks, scars from the scratching marked her under slim, bony frame. She hated those things about her. She still felt heavy, no matter what she did.
"Arabella, hurry, your gonna make us late," her brother Evelyn shouted, banging loudly on the door.
She winced. "No, I'm not." She muttered, pulling on her white button-up shirt and her robes, quickly tying her green tie, pushing her long dark bronze hair off her shoulders.
"Really? What is staring at yourself going to do?" Her father scoffed. "No need to, keep starving yourself and you'll kill yourself."
"Father that wasn't necessary," Evelyn muttered.
Bella rolled her eyes. "So now you defend me?" She gave a cold glare to Evelyn, but looked back at her father. "Last time I checked staring at someone while they change is not something a dad does." She grabbed her bags and left the room.
   "You don't give me the tone girl, you live under my roof," he snapped grabbing her arm.
    "Let go of me!" She exclaimed.
    He slapped her. "Don't give me that attitude," he spat in her face.
  "Lawrence!" Her mother exclaimed. "Spitting isn't necessary."
   "Yeah, but yelling and hitting are!?" Bella held in tears and was trying to pry his hand off her.
   "He is your father and you will respect him," Eleanor, her mother snapped.
    "He doesn't even respect me!" She exclaimed.
    Her dad hit her to the floor and continued. "You will listen to me!" He shouted. "I don't need to respect a bloody worthless pig like you."
    She sobbed as she wiped her face. "I'm sorry! I'm sorry!"
   "You better be," he stopped. He walked out of the room.
Eleanor came over leaning down putting her hands on her shoulders to help her up as she whispered to her.
"Get away from me!" Bella screamed pushing her away from her. "I hate you!" She hysterically cried.
   "Your bleeding I'm only trying to help," she whispered.
   It was then she felt the blood dripping down her nose. "Yeah? Well, why didn't you stop your husband from causing it?" She snapped and left the room.

When they got to Platform 9 3/4 she didn't bother waiting for Evelyn. She sat in an empty compartment and leaned her head on the window, looking out at the kids rushing around saying goodbye to their parents. She longed for that relationship with her parents. But she knew she'd never get it.
      Tears ran down her cheeks, bruises ached from her face and shoulders. She closed her eyes shivering, she wanted to die, she wished she could. She'd give anything to at the moment.
     The snack trolley came by. "Anything from the trolley dear?" The women asked.
  She looked at the food and chocolates. She did want one. But she couldn't. She shook her head. "No thank you."
   "Mitchell," a dark brown-haired boy sang sitting in her compartment. "I'm sure you remember me."
   "How could I forget you, Sirius Black." Bella sighed, rolling her eyes.
   "Don't give me that attitude," Sirius frowned, his darkish eyes furrowed at the sight. He was a basic hot boy, but Bella was not interested. He looked at her for a minute. "Your face- are you okay Ari?" He looked at her face.
   She flinched and turned away. "Cant you go away for once?" She snapped. "Like leave me alone for once. You've bothered me for 4 years and I don't need it. I don't like you, Sirius, I never have, and never will, your a bloody asshole and id rather die than be with you."
   Sirius blinked, running his hand through his hair, he clicked his tongue and got up. "Then I'll leave you be Mitchell." He left, a bit fuming.
   She felt her stomach lurch. Guilt filled her. She didn't mean to snap, it just came out. She hugged her knees. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry." She whispered quietly talking to Sirius although he wasn't there. "I'm so sorry." She squeezed her eyes shut and hit herself on the head, which she often did as a 'punishment' to herself.
"Hey, you alright Bells?" A girl with blonde hair came up, her green eyes looked concerned for her as she sat down, she was a small girl, with a slightly fit body, and that's what she had always been insecure about. "Don't say nothing cause I know that's not true."
Euphrasia 'Fraze' Morris was in a year below Bella,  a year 4, she had clung to Bella since she got to Hogwarts. She was practically Bella's only friend there, although anxiety told her that Fraze hated her guts and she just felt bad for her.
"No it's nothing, I'm just having a moment," Bella lied and wiped her face. "How's it with mister lover man?" She asked, wanting to change the subject.
That got Fraze's attention. "Bloody hell, it's torture! He's so cold and it's unfair, plus I think he's in a relationship with Isis Riddle, which is unfair because she's beautiful and can pull any man."
Fraze has had a crush on Regulus Black since year one. He was also in the same year as Fraze. They didn't start on good terms, Fraze had been his potions partner and had exploded the potion all over him, not to mention Fraze constantly pestering him.
"Isis?" Bella nodded. "I'm not surprised." She muttered. Bella hated Isis, she was everything Bella wanted to be, the perfect body, face, hair, everything, she was naturally beautiful.
"I just wanted him," Fraze huffed sitting down. "Isis just takes everything from everyone." She muttered.
"She's my cousin you know," Bella whispered, now feeling guilty for talking shit behind her back.
"Right right sorry." Fraze quickly said putting her thick blondish hair back into a neat ponytail. "What if he just doesn't like me at all, like I'm too annoying for him," she whispered.
"Fraze, if he doesn't like you at least as a friend, he's an idiot," Bella told him. "Don't obsess over men, they bloody well suck."
Regulus Black, a scrawny boy, dark curly black hair, with a pointed jaw line, greenish eyes and a thin nose, reluctantly walked in sitting by the window opposite Bella. He didn't look at them and looked out the window.
"Why are you sitting here?" Fraze asked, her cheeks flushed at the sight of him.
"Nowhere else to sit, and I'm not sitting with my bother," he muttered glaring unintentionally at Fraze. He looked at Bella. "What exactly do you have against my brother by the way?" He asked.
Bella shifted in her seat. "I don't necessarily have anything against him...I just don't like him, and he doesn't take a hint."
He gave a small nod and looked back out the window.

Sirius walked through the train halls, fuming in anger. He had only ever tried to be nice to Bella, Bella was rude, he didnt understand why. He sat back with his friends and sulked.
   "Why you sulking?" Peter Pettigrew glanced at him. Peter was a stubby young boy, glittering blue eyes and dirty brownish hair, thinned lips, small nose with wide nostrils.
"Mitchell, I've done nothing but be generous and nice to her and she is just- just, blah!" Sirius huffed, he brushed his hair off his cheek. "I don't understand, who wouldn't want to go out with me?" He frowned.
"Someone's full of themselves," Remus Lupin snickered, looking up from his book. His eyes were like a dream, deep brown, chocolate brown, his hair was fluffy and shaggy, he had a gentle kind smile, downturned nose.
    "Your just realizing that?" Rylee Lupin scoffed. She had a more upturned nose than Remus, but the same chocolate eyes. Her mouth was much smaller than Remus' her hair was lighter. It was barely enough to tell they were twins.
   Unlike Nikki and James Potter, who looked almost exactly the same. They both had the same blue eyes, same straight turned nose, same smile and the only known difference was James had horrible vision and wore glasses and Nikki was deaf and had been since she was 3 years old.
    Sirius glared. "She had bruises on her face, all I asked was if she was okay," he whispered. "I wish she would tell me."
   "She never liked you, you think she would tell you what was going on in her life," Peter looked up.
   Sirius got up and left. "Jee thanks for your help, real friends you are." He muttered on the way out. He walked down the small walk way to see Isis, hanging on the door frame talking with her friend Rose, the girl she always hung out with. She had her hair pulled into a braid that hung on her shoulder, she smiled as she spoke with Rose. "Hello ladies," Sirius beamed, a grin spread across his face.
Isis glanced at Sirius, making a weird face and gave a small wave, "Oh hey Sirius."
Rose snorted at Sirius, not bothering to say hello. She didn't even know why she was snorting. "You need a hair cut."
"Nice to see you too Rosie," Sirius retorted.
Rose stopped laughing and glared. "Don't call me that."
"Or else what?"
"I'll bloody kill you that's what," Rose retorted coldly:
"That seems a bit melodramatic," Sirius frowned.
"We are almost of rid of the Malfoy's," a tall dark haired boy plopped down on the empty seat in their compartment. He smiled happily; which made wrinkles under his piercing blue eyes.
   "You do realize that yeah Malfoy did graduate already yes, but I are in the same year as his sister?" Rose rolled her eyes.
    "She hasn't even bothered you guys," Isis frowned brushing a loose hair off her forehead. "She could be nice."
    "Malfoy's are the same," the boy scoffed.
     "Christopher your being dramatic," Rose told him.
    "Don't call me that." He snapped.
     Rose sighed and rolled her eyes, "Whatever you say Kit, I never understand how Kit is short for Christopher."
   "I think you should be worried about Snape," Sirius told them, plainly.
  "There's a army of them," Kit shuddered.
  "There's actually only 4, Severus, Aurora, Atticus and Kai," Isis corrected. "Severus and Rory are twins and Atticus is the youngest. Kai is the oldest. Atti is really sweet though."
    "Whatever Severus is an arse," Sirius muttered.
    "You think everyone is an arse," Isis rolled her eyes. "You think my own brother is an arse."
   "Which brother?" Sirius snickered, "You have 3 of them."
   "You said you hate them all," Rose piped up with a snicker.
   "Oh right right," Sirius smiled which only made Isis roll her eyes.
   "Get out Sirius, we are having girl talk," Rose shooed.
  "You should like your in first ye-"
   "Go!" Rose exclaimed "You too Kit."
    Sirius pouted, wanting to protest and turned around right into a curly haired boy, he glared in frustration as Sirius could only give a slight blush. The curly haired boy looked at Sirius and mumbled under his breath. "I'm so sorry Oscar," he squeaked out.
  Oscar raised an eyebrow and shook his head, "Don't worry about it," he shook his head as he straightened his green tie. He shared the same nose scrunch with Isis. That was Oscar Riddle, one of Isis' brothers. Isis' twin to be exact. He wasn't as bubbly and happy like Isis was. He was a serious guy, who didn't have a sense of humor. But nothing was worse compared to his and Isis' older brother Lewis.

As they arrived at Hogwarts, students ran eagerly inside, 1st years rushed to the great hall to be sorted into their houses. However Isis had different plans.

  Isis sat in the almost empty hallway, on a bench, reading her favorite book. She hummed softy as she flipped through the pages.
    "How many times are you going to read that?" Regulus snickered, sitting beside her, glancing over her shoulder, he looked at Isis with admiration. "Haven't you over-read it?"
   "Never!" She gasped. "Romeo and Juliet, just so happens to be the best book in the whole world, it's perfect." She frowned at him, as if she were offended, (she probably was) A smile crept on her face.
Regulus rolled his eyes and kissed her. "Whatever Isis," he ran his hand through his curls and sighed.
"I love your wavy hair," Isis ruffled his hair happily.
"And I like your... straight hair," he commented back. er. "Now what's the big hype on this book?" He took her hand.
She smiled. "Only the best Love Story ever."

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