warning ⚠️; se'xual content in this chapter.

authors note; Sorry that this chapter is a bit longer but I got carried away and couldn't find a good way to end this chapter, lol. I hope everyone who celebrated had an amazing, peaceful Christmas. 🎄❤️

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HOME ALONE WAS PLAYING in the background, the rustling of the bag of chips in Randi's lap the only other sound in the room. While the brunette stared at the TV, engrossed in the movie, he only paid attention sporadicallyᅳ which was fine, he knew every scene by heart since Randi had watched the two parts at least three times every Christmas.

Instead, he was lost in his thoughts. Part of him was with his club, wondering if everything was okay in Charming and if everyone was fine; but Jax or Clay would have called him already if it wasn't the case. The other part of his mind was on Randi, his gaze constantly resting on her when she let out a hearty laugh.

He missed her, all of this, no doubt, and he had never denied that. There was nothing he didn't miss about spending time with her and constantly thinking about their past, about what they had had, had caused a lot of pent up frustration and bad moods over the last year, which unfortunately sometimes affected his club or the people around him.

The last few months had been miserable and being here now, hearing her laugh and seeing that damn smile she sent him so often, ripped open all the old wounds and at the same time it healed a part of him now that he was finally with her again.

When the movie came to its end, Randi shifted in her seat and immediately had Happy's full attention, even though he didn't move and just lounged on the couch, his arm stretched over the backrest while the brunette stretched a little and then bumped his knee with hers, smiling that damn smile again.

"Another movie? Or wanna have dinner first?", she asked, her tone light and soft. Happy could tell she had the day off and didn't have to stress about being at work on time. "Or we could go to the diner down the street, they're open on Christmas too."

Her enthusiasm brought the slightest smile to his lips. "Food sounds good. But first I have something for you."

Randi's curiosity was piqued. While Happy stood up and walked over to his duffle bag that sat next to a bookshelf in the living room, Randi just tilted her head and curiously followed every movement he made until he sat down next to her again.

"What's that?" She timidly took the small wrapped package as Happy handed it to her, letting her fingertips dance over the wine red wrapping paper. "It looks beautiful."

A smile crossed her features when she saw how uneven and messy the wrapping paper was wrapped around whatever that was inside, which showed that Happy had taken the time to wrap it himself even though he hated doing such things. But every Christmas they had spent together, he had done it anyway because he knew how much she appreciated and loved it when something came from heart.

"I know I shouldn't have gotten you anything, this isn't my place anymore", he rasped, tapping the present in her hand with the tips of his index and middle finger as he looked at her with the smallest of grins. "But I saw this yesterday in the shop next to the dance studio and had to get it for you. Don't worry, I still had my eyes on you the whole time."

"I know you did. No one is as observant as you", she winked, but if there was anyone she felt safe with, it was Happy; his eyes and ears were always everywhere, making sure nothing would happen to anyone under his watch. "And about the present; it's okay, because I got you something too."

She carefully placed Happy's present in her lap, reached back and pulled out a small gift bag that she had hidden between the couch and the Christmas tree yesterday.

"It's nothing big but I was kinda in the same situation you were in", she explained with a lighthearted chuckle while handing him the bag, studying his slightly surprised expression as he took the gift. "I saw it and knew I had to get it for you."

"You shouldn't have, woman", Happy grunted, but a corner of his mouth twitched upwards as he glanced into the bag. "You really know me.."

"Uh, as I should", she replied with a soft snort, grinning. "After all, we've been together a while. As far as I can remember, you don't have that one yet."

Happy looked at her for a while, their eyes locked as a long silence stretched between them. This could be absolutely perfect right now if she were still his. Grunting to himself, his gaze shifting back down, he carefully took her gift out of the bag and examined it with enthusiasm.

"No, I don't have that one yet", he told her as he looked at the tattoo machine from every angle, clearly excited about his new gift. But it was the small engraving of his initials that showed him that Randi had put extra thought into it. "This is the perfect for my collection."

Randi hummed softly, relieved that her gift was apparently a good one. "Yeah? Good, then I'm glad."

Since she knew how expensive certain tattoo machines were and Happy wasn't someone who spent money unnecessarily, she had always used the opportunity at Christmas and birthdays to expand his collectionᅳ it had somehow become a tradition between them to support each other's hobby and she wasn't ready to give that up.

"It'll get a special place, I promise", the SAA grunted, sincere gratitude in his tone as he carefully placed the machine back in its packaging and set it aside before, without thinking twice, placing a hand on Randi's knee. "Open yours."

Randi inhaled a little more sharply when his hand suddenly rested on her knee, his touch warm and comforting. Their eyes met again and neither could claim that there wasn't a spark in the air or a certain tension.

But the brunette pushed aside the feeling that was rushing through her whole body and carefully opened her present, a gasp slipping past her lips as she pushed the paper from her lap and took the book in from all sides.

With pure happiness flashing in her brown orbs she looked up at Happy, curiosity flickering in his own eyes. "You found it. How? I looked everywhere. In every store, online, really everywhere!"

Excited like a kid on Christmas morning she opened the hardcover of the book and read the first lines of her favorite author, and the first words already sent a shiver down her spine. There was nothing that could captivate her more than an exciting thriller or a good old, gothic horror story. Sometimes she couldn't put a book down until she finished it; and if it cost her a night of precious sleep, she didn't care.

When this book by her favorite author was out of stock everywhere after she lost it when she moved from her apartment to the house she had rented with Happy, she had been sad about it for daysᅳ it was a book she had read at least every few months, no matter how well she knew it.

And now she had it back, back in her possession. The fact that it was used didn't bother her, it was still in good condition and the previous owner apparently had taken good care of it.

"Like I said, I saw it in the window of the bookstore. Thought I had to get it for you", he said with a shrug before a laugh rumbled through his chest as Randi practically threw herself into his arms. "Guess I found the right gift."

"Thank you, so so much", the brunette murmured, her face buried in the crook of his neck. "This is the best gift ever."

"It's nothing, little girl", Happy croaked, his arms slowly finding their way around Randi's small waist, sliding her deeper into his lap and closer to him.

Fuck it. Without thinking about it, Happy's grip around her tightened and Randi's breathing became shallower as she was pressed flush against him, no piece of paper fitting between them anymore. Her warm breath brushed against his neck, his hands sliding down her back leaving goosebumps all over her body.

She froze for a moment, not daring to look at him because she knew exactly what would happen thenᅳ and she also knew that she wouldn't be able to control herself. But his words dared her to do just that.

"Look at me," he demanded, his voice deeper and much more hoarse than it usually was, making her weak in the knees.

Before he could lean in, Randi slid off his lap and off the couch, but only to hold out her hand to him as she stood in front of him, nervously waiting to see if he would take it.

His scrutinizing gaze examined the brunette from head to toe until he finally put his hand in hers and pushed himself up, wordlessly following her through the apartment until they reached the bedroom, the only room he hadn't seen yet because the door had always been closed.

Just like the rest of the apartment, this room also seemed bare, as if his ex didn't really want to feel at home. Only the fairylights on the huge window and above the bed and the street lamps from outside gave the otherwise dark room a somewhat warm feel.

But that didn't matter right now, his attention was only on the woman walking in front of him anyway, the swing of her hips sensual and seductive. As she came to a stop in front of her bed, turned around and looked at him through half-open eyelids, his pants suddenly became tight around his crotch.

"What do you want?", she breathed against his lips, hers now so close they almost brushed his. Slowly she ran her palms down his chest and as they crept under his gray shirt, a deep grunt escaped his throat, making her smile. "Because I know what I want."

"Fuck woman", Happy growled lowly as her fingernails gently scratched his skin, down his abs until she fumbled with his belt, his by now semi-hard cock twitching. "Are you with someone?"

"No, there's no one else in my life", she promised in a whisper, her soft tone dropping lower before she timidly placed two kisses on the corner of his mouth. "What about you? Anyone I should know about?"

Because the last thing she wanted was to be a homewrecker. As much as she loved Happy and wanted him back, that was a line she wouldn't cross just to get what she wanted.

Happy grinned a crooked grin, shaking his head. Knowing that no one was in her life was all he needed to know to take what he wanted, what he'd been craving for a year. Closing the remaining distance between them, which wasn't much, he slipped a hand to the back of Randi's neck, his grip rough and demanding but with a certain gentleness before slamming his lips onto hers.

His heart raced as one of Randi's soft moans flowed into the kiss, swallowed by him before he let his tongue slip past her lips, brushing against hers a moment later. Julia, or any of the other Croweaters, had never been someone he'd wanted to kiss.

The only thing he wanted was sex, to get off. But with Randi, fuck, that was one of his favorite things to do. Sometimes they had done nothing but make out for hours without sexᅳ and he had fucking missed feeling and tasting those plump, soft lips.

The jingling of his belt buckle stopped once it was open and the kiss became feverish, and soon after, her hand slipped into his pants, gently rubbing the bulge that was now pressing hard against her palm, drawing a throaty groan from him.

Happy pushed himself against her palm, her face now cupped in both his hands with his fingertips resting against the sides of her neck as he pushed her further back until her legs finally hit the bed and he could push her down onto the mattress that was covered by wine red bedding.

"Strip", he ordered, never averting his with lust darkening gaze as he peeled off his clothes in a matter of seconds until he stood splinter-naked in front of her, watching the brunette. "Fast. Wanna see those perfect tits and everything."

"Impatient much, huh?" Randi asked with a teasing smirk, biting her lip as Happy stood naked before her, almost drooling at the sight. His tattoos, his muscles, his thick cock that he was currently pumping in his hand while slowly stepping towards her. "You have no idea how much I missed that sight."

"Could say the same", the SAA croaked, his jaw clenched as Randi began to strip, revealing more and more of her body. "So fuckin' pretty, woman."

"Come here." Now it was Randi who squirmed impatiently on the bed and slowly spread her legs after her panties had slipped to the floor, revealing her glistening pussy. "I just wanna feel you, please Hap."

Sliding back a little to give Happy more room, she propped herself up on her elbows only to be pressed back into the mattress by Happy's weight the next moment, the man she loved perfectly placed between her legs as if the space had been made just for him.

A gasp fell from her lips as his thick cock pressed against her thigh, anticipation ripping through her at the feeling, and his hand wandered from her stomach up to her breasts. Their Lips crashed together again, tongues fighting for dominance and Randi arched her back as Happy rolled and pinched one of her hard nipples between his fingers, occasionally pulling it. By now she was probably dripping, her needy cunt already pulsing as well as her clit as she began to move her pelvis against his, whimpering and asking for more without really using words, too engrossed in the kiss to want to break itᅳ and he gave her what she needed.

"Condom?", was all he rasped against her shiny, from the kiss swollen lips before he claimed them again, this time the kiss was much more demanding as he was practically devouring her.

"We don't need one", she gasped out between kisses, pulling his body closer to hers, her breath fast and hot. "I'm still on the pill, don't worry."

Happy nodded with a grunt and bit down on her bottom lip, ready to fuck the only woman he ever loved into oblivion. Wasting no more time, he pushed one hand into the mattress next to her head, leading his cock through her slit with the other, soaking his length in her juices before burying himself inside her, all the way in because he knew she could take it.

The SAA watched as pure ecstasy crossed her features as the first soft moan slipped from her lips. Not too extravagant, not too loud, not forced like Julia always didᅳ it was natural, honest and sincere lust reveling in it. He didn't necessarily need loud sex, it was enough to see Randi writhing beneath him, unable to form words as they found a rhythm and rocking their bodies together.

His breathing became shallower, a grunt falling from his lips with each thrust. His lips close to her neck, he began to place open-mouthed kisses on it, occasionally running the tip of his tongue over her skin, causing her soft moan turn into a throaty hum full of pleasure.

Her hands drove him crazy, her delicate fingers wandering first over his sides and then his back, her nails leaving deep welts, followed by the warm feeling of blood oozing out of the scratches and running down his back.

"Happy", the brunette gasped, searching for his eyes. Claiming his lips after his head hovered over hers again, she sighed contentedly, rotating her hips slightly so Happy could slide deeper into her. "Harder, please. Need..all of..you."

A low, satisfied growl rumbled through Happy's chest, her words an incentive to pick up his pace. His thick cock already engulfed in her warmth and twitching inside her, he grabbed her hips, roughly and decisively, and began slamming into her.

Behind each thrust was more power, more strength and determination to bring her closer to her climax. "Like that? Is that hard enough for you, little girl?"

"Yᅳ yes, that's perfect. Don't stop..", Randi mewled beneath him, melting at his words that he croaked against her ear in that low, gravelly voice of his. But it was the merciless thrusts that caused her legs, one of them wrapped tightly around his waist, to start trembling with excitement. "Fuck, I missed you, missed..this.."

"I can tell", Happy chuckled lowly, the sound coming from deep in his chest, followed by a deep groan as Randi began to suck on his neck, leaving a hickey there. "Fuckin' missed this too, baby."

Pounding into her for a while longer, he felt her walls tightening around him, pulsing around him. Her moans, which were like music to his ears, was now getting louder. As she buried her face in the crook of his neck, Happy grabbed a fistful of her hair to pull her head back, giving her hair a sharp tug.

"God..", the brunette moaned, writhing beneath him as a knot slowly formed in her abdomen, the pressure becoming significantly stronger. As she tried to reach his lips with hers, a sweet pain shot across her scalp as Happy pulled her head back once again, making her moan. "Please.."

"Don't ever try to muffle those moans again, you hear me?" Happy growled the words close to her lips, clearly teasing her as he ghosted them over hers, his grip preventing her from getting what she wanted. "I wanna hear you, every dirty sound you make."

"Understood, I promise", she murmured needily, moaning loudly as his next, much harder thrust fucked her deeper into the mattress. "Fuck, I'm close.."

She dug her black nails deep into his shoulder, even drawing bloodᅳ but that had never bothered Happy. Randi's soft sounds echoed through the room as Happy's grip on her hair loosened, but now grabbed her chin, his fingers digging into the skin of her cheeks as he crashed his lips on down onto hers. She couldn't speak, couldn't moan, just barely able to return the sloppy kiss as his thrusts sent her over the edge, her climax hitting her like a wave.

The back of her head was pressed down into the pillow by Happy's hand, her eyelids fluttering as she bathed in the pure pleasure of her orgasm, moaning and whimpering as Happy continued to slam into her, catching his own climax.

Which didn't take long. Just a moment later, after she'd pulled his head close and pushed her tongue back into his mouth, both of them swallowing each other's moans and grunts, his cock twitched inside her, the veins on it pulsing as thick ropes of cum painted her walls.

"Merry Christmas, Hap", she chuckled softly, caressing his cheek after placing her palm against it.

Happy's mouth twitched into a smirk, the tip of his nose rubbing against hers. "Merry Christmas, little girl."

Happy's forehead now resting against Randi's, he broke the kissed her once more before catching his breath, his body covered in a thin layer of sweat. But that didn't stop him from studying the woman beneath him, her soft features, the small smile and the way she looked at him through half-open eyelids, completely satisfied.

A deep sigh caught in his throat as he closed his eyes for a moment, just relishing in the moment. He knew that this was probably the last time with her and he fuckin' hated itᅳ but he wasn't going to ruin the moment with more drama, it was too precious for that.

Stealing one last kiss from her lips, he pulled out of her and rolled beside her, tucking his arm under his head.

He stretched the other over the pillow, looking down at Randi, the woman softly clearing her throat while looking up at him with uncertainty flashing in her beautiful eyes. "Come here."

"You sure?", she asked softly, her body already propped up on her elbow, giving him a nice view of her perfect tits. "We, uh, don't have to make a big deal out of it."

"Just come here, woman", Happy repeated with a grunt, this time simply pulling her into his side before wrapping his arm around her slim but curvy frame. "Just wanna enjoy this before it's over", he muttered.

"Yeah, me too", the brunette admitted, her voice barely a whisper as she laid her head on his chest, right above the tattoo he got back when he gave her his crow. Almost carefully, her fingernail glided over her name, bringing tears to her eyes. "I didn't think you'd still have it."

Happy shrugged his shoulders, staring at the fairy lights on the windows. "I'll never want to erase that part of my past, so why would I want to get rid of it?"

"Iᅳ" Randi hesitated, her eyebrows furrowed in thought before resting her chin on his chest, making him look at her by placing a hand against his cheek, his stubble tickling her palm. "Would you ever be willing to give me another chance? You know, this here doesn't have to end."

"You know it has to, Miranda", Happy stated frustratedly, his gaze still fixed on the window, unable to look her straight in the eyes. "You're staying here, I'm going back to Charming. The only solution would be a long distance relationship and we both know that's gonna end in a shit show."

Randi nodded weakly. "I know, I don't want that either. You said you would've come with me if the club didn't necessarily need you. What about now?"

"We're in a fuckin' war right now, do you really think I can just leave now?" Happy sat up with a huff, bending his knees to rest his arms on them, finally looking at her. "Why don't you come back to Charming, huh?"

"I know. I just thoughtᅳ" she shook her head, running a hand through her messy hair before wrapping the blanket around her body. "You know I'm happy here, that I have my job here."

"Are you?" Happy stubbornly asked. "Look around, Miranda. It's fuckin' sad here. This isn't a home."

Randi's lips formed into a thin line, his words stingingᅳ but he was right. "I never wanted this to be a homeᅳ I was only home with you. And I would do anything to go back in time, but now I'm here and I can't change it."

"Bullshit", the SAA snorted, swallowing hard when he saw the tears in her eyes. "You don't want to, that's the fuckin' problem."

Silence stretched between the two and hung over them like a thick storm cloud. Sighing, Happy rubbed his face, taking the first step by pinching Randi's chin between his fingers and forcing her to look at him. He wiped away the few tears that dripped from her chin with his thumb, grunting.

"I didn't come here to make you feel like shit, so I'm sorry about that,little girl", he croaked sincerely, an apology coming from him a rarity. "But I'm not sorry for being honest, you know me."

A soft sniffle filled the room, breaking Happy's heart. She was the only person that could hurt him by simply being sad. "Randiᅳ"

"No, you're right. It's my own fault", she said, voice thick with emotion, followed by a humorless laugh before her features turned serious. "But if you're ever gonna change your mind, I'll wait for youᅳ anytime, I'll be here."

"Just come here", Happy grumbled as he leaned back against the soft headboard, pulling Randi with him. "This isn't a topic for Christmas, little girl."

"No, it really isn't." Closing her eyes, the brunette snuggled back into Happy's side, hoping that someday this would happen every night again.

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