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Naruto P.O.V

They say when you meet the love of your life it's almost like everything seems to fall into place, but here I was engaged to mine and I couldn't help but feel like everything was wavering, waiting for the right moment to cave in on me.

After talking to my mother yesterday I fell asleep and woke up only to realize it was pass midnight, but Kiba still hadn't returned.

I knew he wasn't at school, but it wasn't like I could scold him for not telling me of his whereabouts, after all, I did the same.

I tossed and turned in bed, assuming that he was with someone else and had forgotten all about me, but why would that bother me? Isn't this what I wanted, for him to be happy with someone who can give him the love he deserved.

The amount of times I've looked through the window or listened for the door to open was like an eternity to me, it even worried Akamaru who curled up in Kiba's bed and listened for moments, lifting his head every time he heard me move. Though I couldn't help but feel like he was more concerned about me rather than Kiba, or was that the sleep deprivation?

"You should call him. This is ridiculous."

"Call Sasuke. Kiba is a grown man who can handle himself, he's probably with his boo anyway, you should be with yours."

"What about when we were out?"

"What about it? He has Naruto here now, but where is he?"

The voice battled, giving me an instant headache from having different opinions. Still the one that told me to be with Sasuke always proved itself right.

Kiba would've had me here with him for the whole day like he always enjoyed, or pretended too. Why would he just up and leave, and where would he go if not to class, and who could he be with?

"Ugh!" I groaned, clutching the side of head and startling Akamaru.

"I'm okay Akamaru, just a headache. Lay back down." I encouraged him.

He began to wag his tail while resting his head and staring at me. What was he worrying about me for, I was fine.

"No you're n-" A voice began but was cut off due to the vibration of my phone.

To my surprise it was a video call, from Sasuke. I was still surprised by him contacting me at this point because of how long I've gone without hearing at least a peep from him. Regardless of that though, it was nice that he was calling, maybe it would help put my mind at ease.

"Hello, goodnight." I cooed as I answered the phone.

"Goodnight, Naruto." He replied with a gentle smile. "How are you?"

"Doing great now that you've called."

"Haha well that makes two of us." He replied while brushing his hair back. I noticed the night sky illuminating in the background and was curious to know where he was.

"Where are you? I see the sky in the background."

"Hm? Oh I'm outside our room. I was having a hard time sleeping and thought I'd just check in on my baby to make sure you were okay."

"Awe really? I didn't even know you could stay up this late." I smiled, my heart fluttering from hearing his words.

"Well that was when I had school, but now that I'm finished you could say that you're the main priority on my mind now."

"So I wasn't one before?" I asked.

"Of course you were, but I needed to make sure I had my life sorted out before making the step to sort out our lives together." He replied in a low voice while staring at me through the phone. "I wanted to follow everything by my plan."

"You had a plan?"

"I always do and from you answering I can tell it's all going accordingly."

"What do you mean by that?" I asked, not really understanding what he was saying.

"I don't know, I'm just babbling. It's just that I thought you might've been too busy to answer my call because seem to be so preoccupied with what's happening over your school."

"Oh!" I replied, realizing that he felt like I would be too busy to answer his call, which I would've been if I hadn't spoken to Kiba earlier. "I'm sorry that I made you think that, but I can assure you it won't happen again."

"Really?"

"Yeah, I'm still about my studies this time around but you won't have to worry about not receiving my undivided attention. Now that we're engaged, I'm all yours." I promised him.

"I like the sound of that." He chuckled lightly. "Naruto, can I show you something?"

"Of course! Anything from you is worth seeing."

"Wonderful."

Sasuke moved the camera and flipped the perspective, at first all I saw was the beautiful view from the balcony of our suite, then I saw his feet and after squinting my eyes a bit and looking closer, I saw his member bobbing in front of me.

"Sasuke!" I blushed, covering my mouth from the pleasant surprise that he had to show me.

"Shh, you like it? I got it just for you." He teased, moving his waist in a circle and causing his length to move even more and get even harder.

"I do, I really do like it." I replied, biting my bottom lip as I could feel my own member hardening under me.

"Can't wait for the day when we can be one and you'll be all mine." He smirked. "Then I can finally give you this surprise."

Sasuke was absolutely amazing, he truly knew how to make me feel speechless. Just everything he said was like a choir of relief to my ears as all my problems just melted away, only to resurface when I was with Kiba or thought about him.

"If you stick with Sasuke you won't have to think about anything at all, he'll do all of it for you."

"Kiba loves you!"

There the voices go again, arguing over who I should be with even though it was obvious who I already wanted, wasn't it? Even if I was hesitant, Kiba saying he loves me didn't amount to what Sasuke has done for me, I don't mean to sound ungrateful but actions do speak louder than words.

"Naruto, remember not to zone out like this when in the middle of a conversation." Sasuke cooed, pulling from my deep thoughts once more.

"Haha my bad."

"If our future is what you're thinking about then don't worry, I've got it all covered." He promised.

"See? Sasuke has everything figured out! Just let him do what he wants."

•••

//Time Skip//

It's been four days since Kiba returned that night and he hasn't been the same. I thought it would've been difficult for him to adjust from our usual activities together, but he's actually doing a lot better than I am.

I admit to missing the sex and I do fantasize about us doing it a lot more now that we've stopped, even jerking off to the thoughts of him while I'm taking a shower, but he was so nonchalant about it all.

Almost like he didn't even care.

He even stopped sleeping next to me on my bed like he used too, he'd just sleep on the couch while Akamaru took his bed.

Just because we weren't intimate anymore didn't mean he couldn't cuddle up next to me, did it?

Besides that, he just didn't seem like the Kiba I knew, he stopped greeting me every day and night, he stopped cooking, he stopped working out, he's hardly at the dorm, he started drinking again, coming back way too late and leaving out way too early, he's always studying and he even started wearing underwear and is mostly clothed now if he ever is home.

I don't know what brought up this change in him, but I don't like seeing him like this, especially when what he's been studying has nothing to do with the new course he said he'd be doing now. Few days ago he mentioned talking to him mother about something and it's making me nervous about what that could've been about.

I was sitting in the room one day and he came back, for once when he said he was going to class he actually meant it because he took his backpack with him this time.

"Hey, I'm back." He replied, not even looking at me as he said it. He simply ruffled the fur on Akamaru's head and smiled at him then walked over to his side of the room. I was in the middle of studying so I really shouldn't have said anything to him, but I didn't want to give him a bad vibe.

"Hey." I replied back with a small smile even though he wasn't looking at me to see it.

The silence between us was killing me. I was too used to always talking to him at this point to not have him nearby and not engage in a conversation.

"So how was class?" I found myself saying, eager to get something out of him.

"Good."

"That's all?"

"Yeah, why do ask?" He asked as he stood by the fridge and glanced at me from over his shoulder.

"No reason in particular, I was just curious, you know?"

"I know." He said plainly, pulling another bottle of those stupid beers out and taking a sip before sitting down on the couch and scrolling on his phone.

This behavior of his was so irritating to me. I couldn't understand why he was acting like this nor why he thought that I wouldn't notice it. He was clearly trying to avoid me and I know it has everything to do with us not having sex anymore.

Was that all he ever wanted from me? To have sex and then once it got old or I decided to stop, he'd treat me like a stranger?

"So? Are you excited about the winter party this next week?"

"Hm, what party?"

"The one you guys throw every year. Ino and Sakura invited me to come this time to hangout with you guys until we all travel back home."

"Oh, they told you about that?"

"Yeah, why?"

"Nothing, I'm glad that you're getting friendly with all of them." He replied before standing up and disposing of the empty bottle. "And I'm hoping it stays that way."

Kiba appeared a bit sluggish, he had just got home and it seemed as though he was preparing to leave again, and what did he mean by that, did he expect me not to be friends with his friends, or was it something more.

Ugh! Just thinking about him brought up so many unanswered questions that I couldn't get the answer too.

"I'll be back later." He announced.

"You mean you'll be back tomorrow morning." I corrected him.

"Yeah, that."

"Kiba..." I pleaded, not liking this side of him that he was putting up, I know it wasn't who he truly was and that there was something bothering him.

He didn't even look at me.

"Kiba!" I repeated, watching as he sighed and throw his head back in irritation.

"What is it?" He spat.

"Why are you acting like this?"

"Like what?"

"Like that! It's been four days now that you've been acting like someone else, picking up those habits that you used to have and even speaking to me like I'm someone else!"

"I don't know what you mean." He shrugged.

"You do! So stop lying!"

"How are you going to tell me that I'm lying? If I see there isn't anything wrong then that simply means there's nothing wrong, right?" He argued.

"But Kiba, you've changed!"

"People change Naruto."

"Yeah, but within four days, and just out of the blue like that?! That isn't you."

"Well it is, the real question here is are you okay, Naruto?"

I raised my head and locked eyes with him as he stared at me with such a knowing expression, it was like he wanted me to say what he thought, or he already knew what I was going to say. That ability of his to always read me and call me out whenever I was lying, did he lose it?

"I'm fine." I lied, hoping he'd realize and call me out on it. "I've never been happier."

I hoped this would bring back a little bit of the guy I used to know, because who he was now wasn't that guy that was in love with me, he didn't even look at me the way he used too.

It was like he didn't even recognize me.

"Great, I'm glad that you're glad and doing what you want to do." He replied, the same thing he said to me four days ago.

"As I said, I'll be gone again so don't wait up for me and please keep an eye on Akamaru."

"Where will you go?" I asked, feeling like I had lost something.

"I'll be at class." He lied, I knew he was lying.

I watched as he exited the room and left without even taking his backpack with him. For a second I thought I heard the doorknob shaking, but when I got up to check it had stopped and Kiba was nowhere to be seen in the hallway. I always hear a noise coming from outside and when I got to check he was already long gone, almost like he always ran off.

So I went back in and moved to the window to see him once again heading towards the front gate, not where he said he was going.

This was what I wanted wasn't it? For him to find someone who could love him the way that I couldn't and instead what I get is the feeling that I'm losing him and being treated like I'm some stranger.

"This is what Sasuke would want, you can't be friends with the guy you cheated on him with."

"This isn't what Kiba wants, it's-"

My phone began ringing on my nightstand, I glanced over and noticed it was Sasuke again. He's been calling me a lot more frequently now, almost every night before bed and during this time when he'd be picking me up to go sort out some things for our wedding.

Everything was his idea, I just went along with all that he said and told him what I thought he'd like to hear.

So far he's been able to fill the emptiness I'd feel whenever I was stuck in the room by myself all day, but it was only temporarily, because at the end of the day I'd be back here with Kiba, or whoever that guy is that just looks like him.

"Hello, good morning!" I greeted as enthusiastically as I could when answering the phone.

"Oh! It's actually afternoon sweetheart, don't tell me you over slept again?" Sasuke replied.

"Haha no, I was studying and then I got a little distracted."

"Hm? Someone taking all your attention away from me?"

"Huh? Oh haha no, it's actually just this, spelling bee competition on TV. These kids are really heated with their words." I lied, trying to play it off.

"Oh haha nice to see you're taking time out to relax your mind, but I actually called to let you know that I just finished a meeting and it's time for us to go and pick out some more decorations for the wedding, the wedding planner wants us to be as detailed with this as possible and would prefer if we gave her an idea of what we both liked."

"That's easy, whatever you like." I teased, but was actually serious.

"Haha I wish it were that easy babe, but we'd still like for you to decide on some of the things being put into place." He explained. "The quicker we get it done is the quicker I can have you by my side for the rest of my life, you'd like that wouldn't you?"

"Of course, as long as it's what you want then I want it too." I smiled.

"That's my baby." He replied in a calming tone. "So I'll be there in a bit to pick you up. When I get there I'll call you and you know what to do."

"Alright, I'll see you in a bit. I love you."

"Awe, I love you too." He cooed. "That really made my day, it's not often I hear you say that."

"I just thought I'd say it more often."

"Please do. I like hearing it from you."

"I'll keep it in mind."

"Looking forward to it."

"Haha so I'll see you when I get ready."

"I'll be waiting."

"Alright." I hummed as I hung up the phone, feeling a little better after talking to him. He really knew how to make the situation better without even knowing what was truly happening.

So far, Sasuke only knew Kiba as my roommate, while Kiba only knew Sasuke as my boyfriend, or ex boyfriend considering the talks we've had and what we've been doing together.

As I was getting ready, I thought back about everything and was beginning to feel like Kiba never really cared for me. If someone truly cared for you then it wouldn't be so easy for them to treat you like a stranger, that part hurt me the most. The intimacy we had together, the moments we shared and the things he told me.

Were they even real?

Was he just pretending to be like that so I'd be obsessed with him like Kankuro?

Rather ironic he'd call me a fraud when he himself was no saint.

Akamaru came next to me on the bed after I finished putting on my shoes, he nestled his head into my lap with his paws over his, I didn't know what it meant, but it was absolutely adorable. Immediately I figured this must be a trick he learned from Kiba or used whenever he wanted something from him.

"Not getting attention? I guess that makes both of us." I said gently to him while petting his head. Though it didn't seem to be working which I found even weirder. "You okay, Akamaru?"

I tried to figure out what was wrong but the knock at the door caught my attention. I wasn't even thinking straight as I wondered who it could be, while also wondering why Kiba was knocking on the door when he had a key to get in. I foolishly opened the door and once I saw who it was, I wish I could unsee them all together.

"Hey Naruto, long time no see." Kankuro beamed while leaning against the doorframe.

"I was planning on keeping it that way." I replied, not wanting to deal with him today.

"Is that anyway to talk to me? I thought we could've been friends."

"As if anyone can be friends with you!"

"Kiba is friends with me."

"Yeah, sure and I'm ninja in neon orange with a gigantic disco ball in my palm. Kankuro cut the bullshit and just leave already."

I noticed his eyes looking past me and that's when I remembered Akamaru must still be on the bed. I stood in front of his sight to keep him from looking any further and hoped he didn't actually see him but just glanced something that looked like a dog.

"I said leave!" I spat.

"You know, Naruto. I'm kind of sick of you acting all high and mighty just because Kiba has you wrapped around his finger." He retorted. "You think you're the only one and that you two will last forever? Well that's not how it works! We all have our time and we all get our turn and right now you're butting in-"

"I'm butting in? You're the fucking one calling my boyfriend and trying to tear us apart!"

"So he told you about me?"

"Yeah, and quite frankly Kankuro you can take all that shit you have to say to me about Kiba and go have him!"

"Oh really?!"

"Yes, really! You two are nothing but another headache! I can tolerate Kiba but you're just so despicable to the point that I would rip your face off, but that would be stooping to a level you will never rise up from. So if you want Kiba, then just fucking take him already and leave me and my boyfriend alone, okay?!"

"..."

"You won Kiba, you can have him back! He's already keeping things from me and if you're the one he's hiding then it's whatever he fucking wants!" I spat, feeling my chest tighten with every word I spoke, they say that truth can set you free.

So why do I feel this way?

My phone rang and interrupted whatever bullshit Kankuro was going to try and say out of his mouth and I was glad to see that it was none other than the man who I could give my all too.

"If you'll get the fuck out of my way, I have someplace I need to be." I spat, as I gathered my things, push him back and closed the door behind me. I glared at him as he stared at me with an expression I couldn't quite read, but whatever it was I knew Kankuro well enough to know that it meant trouble.

If it was Kiba he planned to use against me, then so be it, I wasn't going to care about what he wanted anymore, only about what Sasuke wanted.

•••

Throughout the rest of the day I assisted in planning the decorations for the wedding, by assisted I mean I mostly allowed Sasuke to make the decision as I was just too in my head to think about such trivial topics.

"So in terms of the flowering arrangements, here I have roses as the main attraction, is that something you both agreed on?" Mei, the wedding planner asked as I sat around the table with her and Sasuke.

"Yes, by all means I've always wanted roses at my wedding. The more red there is the better." Sasuke agreeed. "What do you say Naruto?"

"I agree as well. It would look really beautiful for such a special day."

"Alright, and for the concept you wanted to go with something modern and professional?"

"That's right." Sasuke replied.

"Yes." I followed.

"The catering should be done by a highly skilled chef and they should be knowledgeable in Japanese and Western type cuisines?"

"Yes, some of my family have migrated and will be joining us on that special day so we'd like for them to feel as welcome at home as possible."

"And for you Mr. Uzumaki?"

"Hm? Oh, well my family will eat anything. So as long as there is food it'll be fine haha."

"Haha sounds like a plan then." Mei agreed, laughing along with me.

It wasn't that I wasn't happy about all this, it's just I hated how things had to be in order for it to be. I know I said I wouldn't think about him anymore, but he's all I can think about now, it just wasn't fair that I was finally living the life that my parents wanted, but I had to be corrupted by Kiba along the way.

Now I can't even really focus on making this wedding as special as Sasuke deserves it to be.

"Alright and my last question, at least for today is about the seating arrangements. Is there anything I need to know about the main family or friends, specifically those you'd want in the front?"

"Yes, at the very front should be three opening seats for my parents and brother, please see to it that they're the best seats available." Sasuke ordered.

"Oh, so I see you're going with the your families on either side respectively?"

"Yes exactly like that." He smiled.

"Great! So I think that concludes today's meeting. I'll contact you both when I finish working out the budget, seating arrangements and contacting the best services that fall under your price range." She announced as she collected her things.

"Thank you, Mei. I really appreciate the effort."

"It's no problem Sasuke. I had fun planning Itachi's wedding so it's honor to be working alongside you and your family again." She smiled fondly. "Also it was a pleasure seeing you again, Mr. Uzumaki."

"Uh, same here. I'm looking forward to the next meeting."

"Oh Mei, don't be so formal. He'll be apart of my family soon so you can address him by his first name." Sasuke encouraged, wrapping his arm around my waist.

"Awe, it's my pleasure and I'm looking forward to it as well, Naruto. I'll see you both soon, okay?"

"Okay!" I replied.

"Alright, safe travels now." Sasuke wished.

As Mei walked away I felt a vibration in my pocket, luckily I placed my phone on vibrate or I would be in for a scolding from Sasuke. I was curious to know who could be texting me at this time though, so I decided to check.

•••

Unknown:

- You were right! I was hiding something from you, when you get back to the dorm we need to talk!

•••

"Everything okay?" Sasuke asked as I tried to hide my phone from him.

"Yes!" I replied.

"Are you sure?"

"Why do you ask, love?" I asked, tilting my head to the side playfully.

"Hm, well it seems that something might have your attention more than I." He replied, leaning closer to me and pulling my phone from my pocket. "Quite frankly I'm actually disappointed, am I not entertaining you?"

"Of course you are!"

"Then why do I get the feeling you're not exactly on board with me right now?"

"What do you mean, Sasuke?"

"A while ago, during our meeting you seemed hesitant on all the questions she asked. As a matter of fact, you've been really absent minded since recently, like you're here with me, but your mind is somewhere else."

"..."

"I mean the moment she left, I turn around and you're already in your phone. That makes me feel belittled, Naruto."

"Isn't this stage in our relationship something you wanted?"

"Of course it is, Sasuke...."

"Then why do I keep getting the feeling that this is only something I want?"

He was right. I wasn't fully here, no matter how hard I tried to pull myself away from anything to do with Kiba, I ended up being wrapped back up in all of it. It wasn't fair to Sasuke, and not to mention that he still didn't know the full story.

This wasn't just about Kiba anymore, it was about him too. He deserved happiness and even though I've already taken advantage of his love and his faithfulness, I wanted to be what he deserved.

"I'm sorry, Sasuke."

"What are you sorry about?"

"Everything."

"Care to explain, Naruto?" He asked, stroking my cheek and lifting my face gently to him.

"I can't." I replied honestly, locking eyes with him as I could feel the tears building up. "It's something I wish I could tell you, but I'm fearful of what you'll do."

"..."

"But I want you to know before that, you mean the world to me Sasuke. I don't deserve your love and yet I want it to so badly, to be the man that can hold your heart like you hold mine, to be your one and only like you view me." I sobbed, holding back the screams that were scratching my throat to escape. "To be the only person in your conscience like you think of me..."

Sasuke eyes scanned the room as he pulled me closer to him and buried my face into his chest. I knew he didn't like the unnecessary attention, but instead of scolding me it meant so much that he embraced me and protected me like this.

It reminded me of someone else, the very next occupant that lived within my subconscious.

"Come on, Naruto." He finally said, helping me stand as he guided me out of the building and back to his car.

Sasuke helped me into his car and entered on the drivers side and looked at me in silence, he pressed his tongue against his cheek as indication that he was upset, but he didn't say anything to me. I just tried my best avoid his glaring as he tried to read something from me, something I couldn't bare to tell him.

"Tell him the truth."

"Don't tell him anything."

"It'll only hurt him more the longer you keep it in."

"It's better this way, tell him now and you'll lose him like you've lost Kiba."

"Mh..." I flinched, earning a slight headache from the idea of losing them both.

"Are you okay?" Sasuke asked.

"Yes, just a slight headache." I replied, before reclining into the car seat.

"You don't just cry like that over a headache Naruto." He stated to my dismay, but it was inevitable that he would question me about it. "What happened in there?"

"I-I can't tell you Sasuke."

"Why can't you tell me? I'm your fiancé."

"I just can't..." I repeated, feeling utterly guilty within myself over the mistakes I've made. I should've never did what I did with Kiba, but I did and it was like I wasn't even as regretful as I should be.

I just couldn't get it through my own head that Kiba and I are no more and that whatever he thought he felt about me was just a feeling. Knowing all of this and him even proving it to me, yet I find it so difficult to let go of him.

Just what kind of grip did he have on people? Maybe I am no better than Kankuro.

"Naruto..." Sasuke trailed, pulling me from my clouded thoughts. "Whatever is on your mind, you can talk to me about it. I don't want you holding anything back from me that has this affect on you. Seeing you smiling and happy and expressing our love for each other is all I've ever wanted for us."

"Baby, I promise to you that whatever it is I doubt get mad at you. There's nothing in this world that'll stop me from being with the man who holds my heart so dearly to him. The only tears I want to see from you are tears of joy when everything in life happens the way that you want it too. You understand me?"

"..."

"Hm, Naruto?" He whispered, leaning over to me and placing a gentle kiss on my tear stained cheek.

"I still can't tell you," I replied holding down the tears that threatened to resurface. ",but I want you to know that I love you and that everything you want is apart of what I want. I too wanted to see you happy Sasuke and I'll do absolutely anything to make that a possibility for you."

I could feel a turn in my stomach as I faced him, my breathing was getting heavy and for some reason I felt hot, even after removing his coat from over me. I leaned to him and gently kissed his lips which he reciprocated and placed his arm on the armrest, that's when I held his hand and guided it to my crotch.

"N-Naruto!" He pulled back, looking at me in shock.

"Please Sasuke, I know that we said we'd wait for the wedding but I need you to understand just how much you mean to me." I pleaded, placing my hand on his thigh and caressing up his leg.

He seemed puzzled, but I wasn't paying attention to that as the burning sensation in my core just intensified. I was no longer thinking about Kiba, just focusing on pleasing Sasuke and myself.

"I-I didn't bring protection Naruto." He breathed, clearly getting aroused by my advances. "B-Besides, it's better we wait and experience our first time in a more memorable fashion."

"I don't want to wait and show you how much I love you, Sasuke. I want you to know that now, and if I can't show you that way then I have other ways." I teased, pulling his zipper and reclining his chair as I took off my shoes and squatted in my chair.

"Naruto?"

"Just allow me to do this for you, Sasuke." I hushed him as I finally pulled his member from the confines of his pants.

•••

-SMUT FOR THIS IS NEXT CHAPTER-

•••

After our session in the car Sasuke happily drove me home, it wasn't hard to see that he had enjoyed what we did, but of course my mind wasn't agreeing with me today because I didn't get to enjoy it.

It wasn't like my first time and for that I felt guilty throughout the whole thing because that when I thought of Kiba the most. It was like the further I went and more excited to get myself all I could see was Kiba scolding me.

Maybe I was just tired, but for a second I believed that I was more guilty about doing that with Sasuke, than I was when I was doing it with Kiba, while still being in a relationship with Sasuke.

But who the fuck thinks about another guy while giving head to their fiancé!?

"So, we're here..." Sasuke trailed, once again pulling me from my thoughts and showing me the smile that he's had on his face since our little session ended.

"You seem happy." I teased, still feeling bad about it.

"How could I not? I got to experience our first ever blowjob. I'm not usually into that stuff, but I must say you brought out that side of me this evening."

"Good, I'm happy for you." I replied in all honesty.

"I know I might've not been the best down there and I'm sorry I couldn't have brought you to your climax but there's always next time."

"Haha, it's fine, and yeah there's always next time." I smiled, finding him talking about sex to be something oddly adorable.

"Yeah, I do have you for the rest of my life after all."

"That's a fact." I agreed, chuckling alongside him before the atmosphere got quiet.

It was normal to have awkward moments after doing something like that for the first time with your boyfriend, but it wasn't my first time and the guy I did it with was the reason I couldn't have experienced it with my boyfriend, and even managed to ruin it for me when it was.

I know it was done mutual, but I can't help but feel like all Kiba's talk about loving me just filled my head up with nonsense to the point that I can't let any of it go, even now. No matter how much I convince myself that he lied and that it was just words, he's always on my mind.

"I should get going now." I stated, breaking the silence between us.

"Alright, I guess I'll see you next week then? I still have some business meetings to attend and now that we've organized the majority of our wedding plans I'll be swamped with them. I'm just disappointed that the time we spent together we didn't initiate anything like what we did tonight before."

"Haha you say that like you don't have me for the rest of your life." I smiled.

"You have me wrapped around your finger at this point, Naruto." He teased.

"Let's not talk about things wrapping around anything so soon, Mr. Uchiha."

"You're right, I just might not let you go back to school tonight if we did." He winked.

"Hm, goodnight Sasuke." I waved, blowing him a kiss before turning around and walking up to the gate.

"Goodnight Naruto, I'll call you when I can." He promised before driving off after I entered the compound.

Things have been going great for me and Sasuke but it just feels like I'm the one with the problem. If this continues I don't know what it'll mean for our relationship, he means so much to me but every time we try to get close, Kiba always gets in my way.

Now here he is texting me about that he's been lying like I haven't figured it out already. I really shouldn't even bother making an attempt to even hear whatever new lie he has to say to my face.

As I was about to make my way to my dorm, I noticed that the compass had a lot of students wondering around. I looked over and figured it must've been because some classes ended at this time. So I continued with my journey and that when I heard a familiar loud laugh.

I turned my head and looked in the direction of the noise, but halted immediately upon seeing that not only was I right about who it was laughing, but also of who they were talking too.

In the distance was Kankuro with his arm holding on to Kiba's who just stood there as if that wasn't someone he claimed to hate, someone who he claimed to say ruin his life and someone who he claimed that he wasn't going to associate with anymore.

But there he was chatting it up with while I was out messing around with my fiancé. For some strange reason I could feel my heart sinking at the sight of it.

I truly believe now that I was never different to Kankuro and I never truly mattered to Kiba. All that had happened was just to his own convince and I was just a pawn that he had played.

He took my loyalty away from my own boyfriend while he continued to fraternize with his so called ex boyfriend. Probably even laughing at how stupid I was as they laid in bed and had sex with each other over and over again.

I felt the tears forming in my eyes and quite frankly, I had enough of it now. If he has a problem then he can go and discuss that with the guy he truly has in heart cause it clearly isn't me. I ran off to my building while wiping my tears that blurred my vision.

While running up the stairs I tripped and scrapped my shin, but the pain wasn't as great as the one in my chest from being played like a fool. I ran into our dorm and startled a sleeping Akamaru, but I couldn't acknowledge him either as he might've just been a lie as well. So I ran into the bathroom and stayed there crying my eyes out for what felt like hours, I couldn't even check my phone because I had left it outside.

Sometime later after I had stopped crying and crouched down by the bathroom door, I heard someone entering the room and closing the door.

"Hey buddy, is Naruto here?" I heard Kiba asked as Akamaru whimpered to him, then I heard his paws scratching against the bathroom door.

What a snitch.

"Oi Naruto! You in there?" Kiba knocked, just the sound of his voice brought back the tears to my eyes.

"..."

"Hello?" He continued knocking, twisting the knob and trying to force himself inside. "Naruto!"

"I'm in here!"

"Yeah but you weren't answering me."

"And what about it? If you can go out and come back late then I can sit in here a-and be quiet, ya know?!"

"Are you crying?"

"No, I'm shitting!" I lied, expecting him to laugh or insult me back, but he just fell silent.

"..."

"What is it Kiba?" I asked as I felt him leaning back against the door, most likely he was sitting down on the other side.

"You got my text, right?"

"Wouldn't you know that?"

"I would, but I guess you still haven't saved my number so I didn't know if you read it."

"Hm, well I did."

"Good..." He replied in a plain tone. I could feel his heartbeat against the door. It was beating so fast and I don't know why it made me cry even more.

Carefully I got up from my sitting position and pressed my hand against the door where his heart was, the more I felt it was the more that I couldn't believe that this was the heartbeat of the man that claimed he loved me. I used to listen to it with a smile on my face, but now all it did was draw tears from my eyes.

I pressed my ear against the door and listened to his heartbeating, it didn't slow down, not even for a second. I wondered what was going on through his mind or what exactly he was doing out there.

"Well, I'm listening you claimed you've been hiding things, what are they?" I asked, biting back the tears that prepared to make new trails down my face.

"I uh... I haven't been honest with you." He muttered as he shifted a bit from the door but remained sitting against it. "I'm sure you've probably noticed a change in my behavior and also noticed that I've picked up some of my old habits."

"..."

"Well, I'm going through some stuff right now and it's taking a toll on my mental and emotional state. I haven't been myself and I'm beginning to feel like I don't even know who I am, just what others think of me as and I'm honestly ready to get some help for it."

"I've talked with my mom and she linked me up with a therapist to have them help me get through this and I know that you may not want to see me right now, but Naruto it would mean a lot to me if you came with me."

"..."

"It's asking a lot, I know, but I'm uncertain of what they'll say, but I just want to get better for me, not anyone else, just for me. I want this to be a choice that I make that'll benefit me and help me recognize who I truly am. So what do you say, will you come with me?"

"..."

"Naruto?"

I didn't want to go, and as much I hated him at the moment. He pulled a string and just like that I was back around his finger. This was something he wanted to do and he wanted me there with him, how could I possibly turn that down?

"Whatever you want, I'll do."

"Thank you, Kit."

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Sorry this took so long to update, this story is diving into a territory that I have to do research about and I wanna be as accurate as possible and also bring across a certain message.

Also I'm debating on a certain thing but I'm thinking of whether it'll have enough plot for me to even attempt to do it. I won't say what it is or confirm or deny anything until I've made the decision, but that decision is determined by the ending of this book so 🥴

Me writing myself into a ditch... ❤️