requested by angellseavey
(this part of the story takes place in 1995. this is before the guys die. Y/N and Luke are neighbors)

Y/N POV

I was sitting in my room working on homework for advanced biology in my room. I looked at my clock. One in the morning. I had a test in the morning and this homework was also a study guide.

I was so tired but I had to finish. This would have been so much easier if my friend, Alex, was here. He was so good with science stuff. But he dropped out of school so I have nobody to ask for help.

Just as I was about to give up all hope on my homework, I heard a knock on my window. I was on the second floor of my house and it was one in the morning. But I obviously knew who it was.

I hopped off my bed and tip toed around to my window. I opened it and looked to see Luke.

"Again? This is the fifth time this week Luke. Come in but be quiet though." I sat back on my bed and Luke quietly followed. "My mom got home late and needs sleep. She has an early shift tomorrow."

"Oh, sorry for bothering you." He said rubbing his neck.

"It's fine. I've been up all day and need to finish this homework by the time school starts." I sighed.

"Maybe take a break." He suggests.

"I can't take a break Luke. You know how my mom is. we don't have enough money to begin with and if I fail High School then I might not be able to get a college scholarship. I want to grow up and do big things with my life." I whisper yelled.

Suddenly, I was pulled to my side and found that Luke had placed my head on his chest. We live like this for a few minutes in silence as his arms wrapped around me. He made me feel safe.

"How about this Y/N, If you do your homework and pass your test, we can go out tomorrow so you can hear Sunset Curve play. But only if you pass, promise?" He hold out his pinky. I held out my pinky and ours intertwined.

"Deal, but only because you make good music." I smiled. God, this boy messed me up so bad.

~time skip to the next afternoon~

I had just finished school and I was walking home. I got my test results back during free period but I didn't want to look at them. I waited until I got home and sat down on my bed. I opened up my backpack, took out the paper, and looked at it.

I didn't fail the test per se. But I didn't exactly have the highest grade either. I was so upset about it. I needed at least a B+ or higher in this class to qualify for a scholarship. I got a C. I was never going to be anyone. I was just going to be Y/N.

I wouldn't mean anything to anyone at all. Luke would be disappointed in me. Y/N, you are a failure.

Tears roll down my cheeks as I slid off my bed and onto the floor. I curled myself into a ball as sobs racked my body. I was shaking so violently and my lungs hurt. I couldn't hear anything but my son's and gasps for air.

What would I do now?

LUKE POV

I was walking over to Y/N's house. I was nervous. I had never exactly asked anyone out on a date and last night I asked her out. Well, it was not like asked her out but I told her to come with me to a gig I was performing at. So was it kind of like a date?

I rang her doorbell. I was jumping on the doorstep now. Energy was flying off of me.

After a couple of minutes of standing by her doorstep, no one came to answer the door. I knocked and looked through the front window of the house. And then I heard it. It was faint at first, but it grew louder. Y/N was crying.

I ran to her bedroom window and climbed up the ladder I left out last night.

Y/N was on her floor. She was shaking and gasping and crying. I wanted to scream seeing her in pain. I sat her up and leaned against the side of the bed with her. She was still crying so I pulled her in tightly.

"It's going to be okay. Shh, I'm here now. Don't worry, I got you," I whispered in her ear over and over again.

Y/N POV

I was in so much pain but I couldn't move. I suddenly felt someone pull me up. I didn't care, I kept crying. Someone pulled me into a hug.

"It's going to be okay. Shh, I'm here now. Don't worry, I got you," The person whispered into my ear.

My breathing evened out in a few minutes. My tears stopped. But it didn't dare open my eyes.

I had a good idea of who the person holding me was. I would be embarrassed if they saw me like this.

"Y/N, do you want to talk about it?" He asked.

I opened my eyes and our eyes met. Luke's eyes were feeling with worry and guilt. I felt like getting up and running away so that he didn't have to see me like this.

"I need you. I need you to hold me. I need you to listen and I need you to tell me it's okay. But please don't be mad." I whispered.

"I could never be mad at you. And you know I'll always listen," He mumbled.

I sighed. " I failed my test. I can't get a scholarship. I can't do things with my life, Luke. My mom, she'll be so disappointed. And I never told you this before but she gets angry sometimes. And she yells a lot. And I cry and scream and my lung ache. I want to be somebody so I don't have to feel pain." I stammered out. " Luke I never told you this but I really like you and I get that you don't like me. Why would you like me? I don't get much love, okay? My dad left me from when I was a kid and my mom overworks every night and is always angry. You and the guys don't come around much anymore. I am all alone. But I need you. Please I just need you." The tears in my eyes rolled down my cheeks yet again.

"Y/N, look at me. I have liked you since you moved in next door to me. You were always head strong and not afraid to speak your mind. I'll always be there for you even if I'm never actually with you physically. You make me want to be a better person. You make me complete." Luke murmured. "I think I need you too. I want you and I need you all at once. But please never think of yourself as nothing. You get more love than most people and I think that's awesome," He said.

I turned my head towards him. Luke's eyes were watery. Our faces were a few inches apart.

My lips grazed his slightly. It was petty considering we both felt like shit right out now. I pulled away, feeling embarrassed.

Luke's hand lifted my chin up and he moved his fingers towards my lips. He moved his face so our lips were barely touching.

I pressed my lips to his and we had a better, more official kiss. His lips moved in sync with mine. It was as if I wasn't even in my room. We were in a forest and the sun was shining brightly. I swear I could hear singing and birds chirping.

He pulled away first and rested our foreheads together. "I'll always need you, Y/N L/N." He whispered.

"And I'll always need you Luke Patterson."

(A/N: 1.3k words and not proof read. Sorry for mistakes 🙃)