(You know we've all seen this one coming. it was just a matter of time) no ghost AU

Carrie Pov

I walked into the music classroom early. No one was here so I sat down at my usual spot. I waited impatiently until I saw people start flooding into the classroom from the hall.

I liked to get to class early to see her walk in.

Julie.

Now I know what you're thinking. Most people would immediately think that I don't like Julie. I've know Julie since we were kids. And I do have feelings for her.

But after her mom passed away, she grew distant from me. So I figured it was better to push her away than to try and fix or friendship.

I really do like her. I never realized how much I liked her until I pushed her away and started being rude to her.

The way the brown in her eyes turn golden when the sun hits them just right. Her lips curve up gently when she smiles. Her hair bounces when she walks. Her clothes always match her personality.

And even if I wanted to fix things between us, I couldn't. I was dating Nick. I knew Julie liked him so that meant she was straight. But if I kept Nick to myself, no one would touch Julie.

I was snapped out of my thoughts as Julie walked through the door. Mrs. Harrison stopped her and they were talking. Julie walked out and Flynn sat down alone. 

I forgot. Yesterday was her last chance to stay in the music program. And I probably caused her to fail. How could I be so stupid?

I knew though since Julie had the music program dropped, she would have a free period during this time. I asked to go to the bathroom and set off to find Julie.

I heard the faint sound of a familiar song.

I wanna be your Girlfriend by Girl in Red.

It was coming from an empty classroom.

I've played that song on loop ever since I've recognized my feelings for Julie.

I took a deep breath and walked into the classroom.

I saw Julie doodling in a notebook as she mouthed the words to the song.

"Hey Jules," I said, approaching her.

She looked startled as she looked up to see me. She didn't say anything so I sat down next to her. I built up enough confidence to actually say something.

"I like this song. Do you listen to girl in red too?" I asked.

It was silent for a while before she answered. "Yeah, I also like Summer Depression and 4am," She replied, lowering the volume of the song.

Now was my chance I guess.

"You know I don't hate you right?" I said.

"You don't?"

"No, I've never hated you. It's the opposite really," I said, my heart beat speeding up.

"Why are you so rude to me?" She asked.

"I'm jealous of you," I answered. "You have a perfect life, best friend, stable family, and are carefree. I have a crappy dad and people I pay to like me."

"Oh,"

"Look, I know I haven't exactly been the nicest person the past year. I'm sorry about your mom. You distanced yourself so I thought it would be better to let go because how I felt," I replied, and felt Julie stiffen next to me

"Oh yeah? How do you feel?" She asked me, turning to look at me.

I was thankful there was make up caking my face because I could feel my face heat up.

"In love," I responded finally. Our eyes met. "Julie, I've known you since we were practically babies. And I've loved you but I was afraid. Afraid of my dad and my reputation. I know you probably don't like me from how I've treated you. I didn't want to be your friend, I wanted to be your girlfriend."

Julie looked away from me. I felt guilty. I've also been gone from music class for almost ten minutes. I stood up to walk away, ignoring Julie saying something to me.

The lyrics kept playing over in my head.

I don't want to be your friend, I wanna kiss your lips

I wanna kiss you until I lose my breath

Did I really want her that much that I was risking everyone just for a kiss?

Julie Molina was messing with my head.

I walked into class and Mrs. Harrison looked at me with a dossal look. She probably thought I was smoking in the bathroom something.

After class, I tried to avoid Julie. I avoided Nick. I avoided my dance squad. I managed to avoid my dad when I got home.

After an hour of trying to focus on homework and fail, I decided to visit Julie.

I changed my clothes from looking like a preppy secretary to a sweatshirt and some baggy jeans. I took the chunky make up off my face and sighed. I walked to her house and saw that no cars were in her driveway.

I knocked on her door anyway and after a few minutes of waiting I started walking back down the pathway.

"Wait! Carrie, please wait," I turned around to see Julie in the front doorway.

"Hey J, sorry if this is a bad time," I said walking back up to the door.

"Come in, no one's home," She said. I walked in and followed Julie to her bedroom. I haven't been in her room in over a year but nothing changed.

We sat down on her bed after I took off my shoes.

"I'm sorry if what I said today was overstepping boundaries. I really am sorry for the way I treated you this past year. I should have been there for you." I said, sighing. I stuck my hands in the sweatshirt pocket, moving my hands nervously.

"Carrie, you could never disappoint me. I just thought you hated me. Distancing myself helped me try to hide my feelings," She said looking down at our legs, side by side.

"Feelings?" I asked, my stomach sinking.

"Yeah. Feelings. Of liking girls and being bisexual," Julie said, she closes her eyes tightly as if bracing for a bad reaction.

"Julie, thanks for sharing that with me. At least you know you're not alone. You can trust me," I said, wrapping her in an awkward side hug.

"Yeah, I haven't told anyone except you. Not even Flynn. Today when you confessed your feelings to me, it made me want to trust you." Julie confessed.

"You're the first person I've told as well. My father doesn't support people like us. And my mother, well, we haven't spoke in years." I said.

"I know this probably sounds weird but can I like kiss you?" Julie asked.

The butterflies in my stomach were going crazy. Was I dreaming?

"Um sure? I've never kissed anyone before," I said, leaning towards her.

"But you're dating Nick," Julie said. Then realization hit her. "Holy shoot! I forgot you're dating him. I shouldn't kiss you," Julie said really quickly.

"It's fine. We aren't really a functional couple. I can literally text him right now and he'd be fine with it honestly," I said.

"But I wouldn't want to ruin your rela-" Julie was cut off as I gently pressed my lips to hers.

It was a short lip peck but it felt like forever.

"Julie it's fine, you're fine."

Julie just blushed and smiled at me. I smiled, blush tainting my cheeks.

"You're pretty without makeup." Julie smiled at me. "I can see you blushing at me better when nothing is on it."

THIS GIRL. SHE IS FINE AS HELL. IM PANICKING. AHAAHA, NOT MY GAY ASS.

"You're pretty cute too," I said blushing harder.

"Carrie I don't want to be your friend," Julie said suddenly.

"Wait, what? Why? Did I do something wrong?"I asked, my heart breaking slightly.

"No, I want you to be my girlfriend. Please?" She asked.

"Oh my god, you scared me. Of course I'll be your girlfriend," I said, pressing a kiss to her cheek.

"Hey Carrie, what month is it?" Julie asked.

"October, why?" I said, confused.

"We fell in love in October," She said smirking.

I smiled goofily, " You did not, Julie Molina. How dare you make a Girl in Red reference?" I said jokingly.

"I love you Carrie Wilson," Julie said cuddling into my side.

I turned to face her and she kissed my forehead.

"I love you too Julie Molina."