03:48 a.m

to: kenma♡
...

i finally did it

i told them

i told my friends what happened

you know

your story, the case surrounding that faithful day really shook the town

everybody in school was talking about it and i couldn't bear it

so they came over this evening, brought my favorite snacks

we all talked, i smiled for a bit and laughed a bit - for us.

and then

i got an email from school and my screen lit up.

and they saw it.

your picture.

they began asking why i had you on my lockscreen

and how i knew you

and i just broke down

i told them how important you are to me

and how much i love you

why ive been acting like this

and how everything happened.

when i opened my eyes

i saw oikawa crying

he was sniffling and wiping his tears away apologizing to me

why was he apologizing to me?

daichi had his arm on my back, i think it was a reassuring gesture

kenma i

i feel so much better after telling them

is... that a good thing to feel?

tell me it is.

after they consoled me and left the house i was again by myself

i haven't moved from my spot in the corner of the room

i spent all these hours looking at your pictures

and reading the messages we exchanged

i miss those days

when you would respond to me in a matter of seconds

you kept telling me to go away

and yet

you replied so quickly every time

you listened to me

you were there for me

you told me to be strong

you always told me to be strong.

so why can't i be strong right now?

please kenma

tell me youve forgiven me

so i can rest easy

and stop the tears from flowing.

delivered.