04:33 p.m

to: kenma♡
came back to school after a week of being at home due to collapsing constantly

more people asked me if im okay than i thought

but you only had me to ask you whether you're okay

my friends tried to cheer me up today

but i couldn't smile

how could i smile knowing that you felt the same

and had no one to wonder whether you're fine

it was a slow day

i ended up eating a bit which i guess is a good thing

lately i had to tighten my belt around my waist

i wonder whether im losing weight at a healthy rate

im just

im in pain

in denial

unable to forgive myself

so kenma

please

forgive me

so i can stop hurting

delivered.