02:11 a.m

to: kenma♡
its night like these that i cant help but wish to be dead

because its night like these that remind me

of the last night you were alive

gosh i cant even say it

you're not dead

you're just resting

eternally resting

i remember gazing at this sky from the top of a frozen lake

you told me to be careful and i was

but i told you to survive

and you didn't

i must be the cause of all this

if only i had stopped texting you when you asked me

maybe then you would be staring at the sky with me

and i would be happy knowing that even if we never met you're alive and well

i wish i had done things differently

i wish i had known

so i cannot help but cry for you

cry for the life that is fading away

...faded away

the only way i remember you is by looking at your picture on my lockscreen

every time i close my eyes

your image starts fading and i end up staring at my screen for hours

just so i dont forget how you look like

kenma is this what you want?

it is right?

im

i have begun to doubt it

...

...

[kenma♡ missed your call.]

every time i look at my wrists

i can't help but wonder

in how much pain you were

to slice open your own skin and watch the blood roll

if i was there to patch the wounds up, would you have survived?

would you have even hurt yourself?

why did you hurt yourself?

i have so many questions that need answering

and yet

i can't recall your voice...

i don't remember it kenma

[kenma♡ missed your call]

please

just one more time

let me hear you breathe

one more time.

delivered.