( befletcher_ )

bro im gonna cry. two days before a year ago today, a girl begins to read my book costars about rudy pankow which is now unpublished. two days later, a year ago today, a few hours before 6:22 pm i replied to a girl named felicity's message on her message board telling her she was free to pm me if needed. 

later that evening, at 6:22 pm, she pm's me. 

little did we know we'd be planning a wedding five months later.

she rants to me and i attempt to comfort her. at this point, neither of our names were displayed on our profile so we share each other with our names. we then find out we live in the same time zone. i still remember jumping up and down because i was so happy about it. the next day, felicity pm's me saying Also Ik this may sound odd and you don't have to do it but can I have your number ( yes bro fr had autocaps ) i give her my number and it doesnt work so i try texting hers. 

at first i was a bit weird and awkward about the situation because this was my first online friend. we begin texting and we show each other what we look like ( not that it matters but she's a real beauty ) we basically just start with random ice breakers and stuff like that. 

time skip a whole year. i look back at our first interaction and suddenly i see the girl who knows everything about my life. she knows about every and any guy i've dated / talked to / liked. she knows what my parents and brother looks like. she knows about all of my friends. she hates my ex best friend because so do fucking i. but most of all, she knows me. she knows most about me. she knows stuff about me that i have yet to discover. 

felicity has honestly become part of my daily schedule. even my irl friends know about her. 

i look back at our first interaction and not only do i see the girl who knows everything about me, but i see the girl that has been the only one to stick around long enough. the girl who stands by my side, arm locked to mine, even if she's 18 hours and 14 minutes away. the girl who stays up with me at night on call for 7 hours. the girl who stayed up with me on face time waiting for my account to hit 1k followers. the girl who fell asleep on face time while we watched cookie swirl c. the girl who i spent a majority of my summer with, and haven't even met yet. 

felicity has honestly helped me with so much stuff. she gives me the best advice when im crying over paul, or when im upset at my ex best friend bc shes a lonely bitch who gave me a bad image , or even just made me smile because she listened to my song slay boys by ruth slay

this girl has honestly rocked my world upside down. she knows what and who makes me happy, what and who makes me sad, and i know the same about her. she knows about my stuffed giraffe i sleep with, and i know about her pain with doing track and her best friend charlie who i will be friends with idc. 

this girl has the most... different... pictures and videos of me, as well as my stories of my wild childhood. 

she practically is me.

i couldn't tell you when i began to consider felicity as a friend instead of an online friend, but i'll tell you it was soon. she's no longer my "internet best friend" she's just my best friend who i send daily pictures to. she's my best friend who i plan to meet once i'm old enough, or the next time i travel to her state.

through group accounts, group chats, weird friends who text your crush by getting their number from a screen shot, many lost chap sticks, many parodies involving the word slay, a marriage, this girl has become my life.

im honestly so glad i met felicity because my life would be so different without her. 

happy one year of being friends, i love you velocity <3

" for you i'd bleed myself dry "