feb 15:

jso he came in late at science so there wasnt much in the morning but there was still a lot for the rest of the day.

 so ofc we sat by each other at lunch and we talked a lot there 

and then in Spanish we were doing duolingo again but he had to charge his computer but he still kept walking over to me and would talk every now 

 and then at pe we were playing this game and so he laid down on the ground and so me n bella kept putting our feet on his butt. 

and then when we went to homeroom we were talking

 and when we were leaving I was holding onto his backpack as we left 

and then like 45 minutes later he CALLED ME like bro never calls anyone

 and then ended up texting me bc I didnt answer 

and then me, him, magnolia, and joey went to this movie thing 

and me n jackson saw each other and smiled and waved at each other and his mom said hi to me (but she says my name wrong and i never correct her bc i feel bad but jackson ended up telling her how it was pronounced)

and then we sat by each other (he actually sat by me so)

and we kept putting our trash in each others sodas because i took his tab off and put it in his drink so we just ended up putting our trash in each others sodas and like we would still drink the drink perfectly fine

and we kept talking to each other, like just us 

and then he was talking about his hair and how he got a haircut 

and this one time we were talking abt peppa pig and I was like "I have to sleep with peppa pig on because I'm afraid of the dark" and he laughed which made me laugh 

and then like our legs kept brushing together and it was just dkakxneis

 and we also played cornhole together

 and everything was so ladhshhs

AND at lunch he brought up the rizz thing from last night 

and at pe him n ava were talking abt smth and someone said "jackson fr rizzed ava up" and ava said "nah he wasted that on kiera last night" and from what ava said jackson smiled so hard

 AND AT the movie thing he was playing with these bead necklace and he put it in his mouth and so I took it out and was like "ew that's gross" 

AND EVERYTHING WAS JUST SO ZNDKAMSHD BECAUSE WE SAT BY EACH OTHER AND HE KEPT TAKING MY CANDY AND WHEN HIS MOM CALLED ME KIARA HE CORRECTED IT AND HES JUST SO FHSJSJDJ I WANNA DIE

omg in spanish he like changed my duolingo to say "kiera is a poopy" and like we kept messing with it it was so funny

feb 16:

so jackson tells me that hes not gonna be at school until Wednesday (literally kms) 

and so i ask why and he says "because I'm killing myself" and then he was like "im kiiiiiding" 

and then we were talking about his hair and so he asked me for my brush and then used it and so i felt his hair (very soft btw) 

and then he was talking abt my hair and then FR STARTED BRUSHING MY HAIR wjhbxcN 

and then we could work with each other in math so when I went to ava, jackson came and sat with us and the whole time we would js mess around and liek we'd have these moments where wed just lightly laugh to each other 

and then I was saying how Jackson messed up my hair and he laughed and was like "I did not mess up ur hair" 

and then in science ppl could work with each other and so I turned in my seat to work with joey and chris and so jackson came over and stole Joey's seat (which was right across from mine) and so me n him were working together 

and so I said smth and jackson was like "I didnt ask" and so I'm liek "what did I ever do to u. you like hate me. like anything i say, u hate" and hes like "I just said I didnt ask"and kinda laughed but like u could tell her was joking, he doesnt hate me yet

 and so yeah and then at lunch me n bella kept side eyeing aiden and since aiden was on the other side of jackson, jackson kept thinking we were side eyeing him and so me n bella were laughing and I put my hand on his shoulder and was like "it's not abt u"

 and also in science i like messed with his hand. and so yeah. 

and after lunch he put water on his hand and then pretended to sneeze on me, twice. 

and also in religion he took my claw clip and was playing with it and he did it again in Spanish too but in religion he kept putting it in his hair and he let me do it for him once. 

also he said the "I have to poop" thing again. and yeah. 

and then in spanish we were doing duolingo again and he moved over a seat so he was sitting in front of me

 and then we were talking abt his first kiss bc he hasnt had one yet and BELLA FR SAID "ik who jacksons first kiss will be" AND THEN NUDGED ME IN THE SHOULDER and so yeah 

and then I got up and left to get my jacket and so he swapped computers and started doing my duolingo. and yeah.

and at homeroom he was messing with this chair so I put my hand there to stop it and he accidentally put his hand over mine navfjdhdn but it was only for a small second.

 and then I drew a penis on the dust or whatever and we looked at each other and laughed.

 and then we walked out together. 

and then at track after he finished I told him good job and then walked away 

and then this one time he came over to me, stood there and so I'm like "hey" and then he walked away. 

and that was the last interaction until Wednesday because hes going to vegas for a soccer tournament

feb 17:

FUCK TODAY BRO

IM GONNA CRY JUST THINKING ABOUT IT

ANYWHO

so backstory: last night i told joey i would tell jackson tmr that i like him bc im not gonna see him anyways so whats the point. and so i did.

so this morning i was like "also i like u lmao"

and then i chickened out and was like "WAIT THAT WAS A DARE HAILEY DARED ME TOO I PROMISE" 

and he just sends a gif of ppl dancing. 

and so im thinking abt it until 3rd period and thats when i LITERALLY WROTE ON A PIECE OF PAPER WHAT I WAS GOING TO SEND TO HIM

and so after school I text him saying

 "ok so yk the thingy this morning abt the dare thingy. so it was a dare but it wasnt a lie. I do like u and ik u could prolly alr tell but yeah. it's not a bit thing, I js wanted u to know bc I need to get it off my chest so I can get over it. but i dont want this ti change anything between us or make it weird bc i like how our friendship is rn" 

AND THIS KID

HE DOESNT REPLY WITH A GIF WOAH SURPRISE

BUT HE REPLIES WITH

Ok thank you

LIKE WHAT

LIKE OKAY THAT WAS THE MOST MATURE REPLY I COULDVE GOTTEN, LVOE YOU FOR THAT ONE, BUT STILL

but like ik this isnt even gonna happen

but

im hoping its like what happened with paul last year where he js doesnt wanna say it over text and so at school he'll tell me he likes me back??

IDK

BUT THATS WHAT I'M CONVINCING MYSELF IS GONNA HAPPEN SO I DONT CRY AGAIN-

BUT YEAH

thats kinda the end of kierson ig...?

unless smth else happens which i doubt but yeah yolo

I JS HOPE IT DOESNT CHANGE ANYTHING BETWEEN US BC IF IT DOES I WILL SHOOT MYSELF

AND 

IN LUNCH

okay so at lunch we dont have assigned seats, but everyone has their own seat type thing and jackson's is right next to mine

WHAT AM I GONNA DO BRO

wait imma js have to see how the morning classes go ig and then determine if i should sit in my normal seat or not

BUT STILL

THIS IS GONNA MESS EVERYTHING UP BRO

but yeah, that's kierson.

what fun it was to obsess over a short little freckled kid, may the memories last forever <333