the look on her face after he'd finally told her his diagnosis was the look he'd never thought about seeing,

but now that he had, he wished it'd be banned.

it was never his intention to make the girl he loves so dearly that scared- but how else was she supposed to react?

her best friend had been diagnosed with cancer- a life threatening cancer he'd only a five percent chance of overcoming, how could she not be that scared?

intak yet again laid in his bed, mind foggy yet the loudest it's ever been as his teary eyes remained traced on the grainy cieling.

how would she look if her fake boyfriend suddenly died?

the same question of whether the joke should continue ran through his mind for the nth time that hour, yet he kept trying to fight it away.

but, should it?

how much different would the pain of losing your best friend versus losing your fake boyfriend be?

although he wish he could take all possible pain makers for ella away,

he couldn't.

even if it was him that was gonna make her hurt in one way or another,

what could he do?

sooa laughed, trying to convince herself what the boy was saying was nothing but a completely messed-up, gut-wrenching joke he'd randomly come up with.

but, when she really thought of it, she realized who she was thinking these things of.

intak would never be that clever to come up with something this believable- his acting is too good. he sucks at acting.

"you have cancer?"

intak's gaze remained on his lap, billions of thoughts running through his mind. ella was nervous - no, she was beyond nervous. she started scratching between her fingers, a sign which spoke every word she couldn't.

intak's hands gravitated towards the anxious tick, enveloping it in warmth. his eyes slowly met hers, tears pooled on his bottom waterline. "i'm so sorry."

it was sooa's turn to break down, which came quicker than normal - the emotions hitting her like a truck full of bricks.

"what?"

( 结束 )