🍶 i never want to remember who i was before you....
           𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 thirty eight, new room ?

jamison sat in her room as her knees were hugged to her chest as the room around her was dark. the only thing lightning it up was the television which showed a movie on it. a classic most say.

she's most.

stand by me played as the kids went to go see a dead body. again it's a classic and iconic movie. you can't go wrong with it.

she had no clue what was happening outside of that room as her eyes were glued to the screen. and neither did she care ether.

her sister could have dyed her hair bright pink and she wouldn't care.

she felt her body slowly crumbing as she heard noises from outside of her room. she still tried to pay no mind even as she saw the light peek into her room.

it was subtle but still notice able.

her room was dark. only her television providing light.

the intruder must have thought she was count dracula by the looks of her room. one splash of light and she would melt and disappear. turning into dust was to messy. she didn't want her mother to clean it up.

she knew it would be a hassle so instead she stayed put. until she heard his voice.

" your room, it's different" she heard. her body stiffened slightly. she forgot the sound of his voice existed anywhere near her without being on set or stuck in a big house where she could try to avoid eye contact with him and not remember her past.

but they were supposed to be friends now so it's fine.

right ?

yeah she had her doubts still. i mean she didn't. but she did? life was complicated. very complicated. her mind froze still as she realized he will still there.

still speaking.

" sorry i didn't mean to interrupt whatever this is" he motioned to the darkness. she could still see his outline. he knew she was looking at him. but still no words left her mouth. almost like her lips where glued shut.

" leena wanted to come over. she dragged me over. sorry" he told her. she nodded her head. she wanted to open her mouth so bad. yet she couldn't.

" i'm gonna go" he pointed to the door. he sensed the awkwardness of the situation. this is when she finally opened her mouth when she saw him turn around.

" you can stay" she told him. both him and the girl didn't expect those words out of her mouth. she didn't think it through but there was no going back.

" you sure" he asked her. she nodded. he could still see her nod in the dark.

the boy shut the door behind him as he sat down to the girl on her bed.

his eyes focused on the screen in front of him now. not on the girl. he let his thoughts be consumed in the movie. yet all jamison can think about was him and how close he was to her.

she's experienced it before but it's been awhile. she forgot what it was like to have him in her room while watching movies, or have him speak to her like there wasn't hurt behind his voice much longer.

in some ways it felt nice.

in other ways it felt like she knew she missed out on something. she knew that she was in the wrong. she felt the guilt eating her up again.

she wondered if he still liked the movie they both currently watched. he used to like it two years ago. but times change. maybe he doesn't like it anymore.

she wondered if his favorite color was still blue like royal blue. not like the sky. he always made that very clear to her. she wondered if he knew anything about her still.

she wondered a lot of things.

she wanted to put her head on his shoulder. she wanted to talk to him like old times but things have changed. she's changed. he's changed. and they both are no longer in each others orbit.

so instead she sat there still starring at the screen as the boy sat next to her. she was going to hopefully speak up soon. but maybe today wasn't the day.

she was always doubting herself. she needed to stop doing that. she instead she spoke up.

just as the turning point got to the movie.

" so walker" she let out. the boy turned his head quickly. her voice catching his attention. " yeah" he answered.

" how have you been" she asked him. a conversation starter at best. " i've been good, and you?" he asked her after applying back to her question.

" i've been good. i've been good" she repeated back twice. he nodded his head at her.

she grew slightly frustrated of having to only make out his shape in the dark that she paused the movie turning on her lamp next to her. the lamps light was bright.

it could fill up half of the room.

" we were just getting to the good part" walker wined about the movie. jamison gave him a look. " there are no good parts walker" she told him.

he rolled his eyes to what the girl could see.

" why did you pause the movie" he asked her. his tone being confused as the girl looked at him. his voice got even deeper from two years ago. and she just realized now. gosh.

" tell me about yourself" she asked him. but it came out as more of a demand. she apologized in her head for that part.

" why" he asked her. he was confused. the walker she knew two years ago would never question it. but again he changed.

" then i'll start" she told him not answering his question.

" well i finally got into acting as you saw, megan is my manger which sounds crazy and it is crazy, um." she paused for a moment think before then continuing.

" my favorite color is now orange. i know weird. but it is. i really don't like spring anymore and i'm more into autumn. me and margo are still close no denying that. um me and my sister are close again. yeah after everything happened we talked. i told her how i felt. same with my mom." she got a little quiet when mentioning the last part. still kinda a sore topic to her. the boy nodded regardless.

" let me guess, it's my turn" he asked her. she nodded. she now had a burning question inside of her.

" percy jackson is still happening, favorite color is still blue. but not like the sky more like royal blue" he told her. she nodded.

he still liked royal blue.

" that's pretty much it nothing exciting in my life" he told her. that's really all he could think about.

" why did you show up" she asked him. it was a odd question and he was confused. he looked confused. so she rephrased her question.

" why did you show up to the movie premiere, i saw you" she asked him. she wanted to avoid asking that question to him yet it was enriched in her brain. she needed to ask him that question.

" don't answer that question" she then randomly said. she shouldn't have asked.

" i went because i wanted to see your first ever movie" he told her. she let out a small " oh" as she thought out his answer.

" why did you change your room" he asked her. change of topic. he knew she wanted to change the topic.

" needed some change, didn't like the pale walls anymore or anything in here for that fact" she told him. " when did you change it" he asked her. he knew the answer. " like two days after you left, i needed to distract my mind" she told him getting up to walk over to the light switch to now turn it on.

light filled the room fully now.

he could see it all more clearly now.

he even saw the picture of him and jamison framed on her night stand. he didn't see that before.

he kept his smile to himself. didn't want to show her that he had caught the attention of the photo.

" you like it" she asked him. he nodded. he did like it.

" i like it, but personally me i would have put a big picture of my face on the wall" he told her sounding like he knew what he was talking about ( he didn't ).

she laughed at his words. he hasn't heard the sound of her laugher in a while. all because he complimented her new room.

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