𝐼 𝐷𝑂𝑁𝑇 𝑊𝐴𝑁𝑇 𝑌𝑂𝑈 𝐴𝑁𝑌𝑀𝑂𝑅𝐸/ 𝐧𝐨𝐛𝐨𝐝𝐲 𝐠𝐞𝐭𝐬 𝐦𝐞
𝐚 𝐰𝐚𝐥𝐤𝐞𝐫 𝐬𝐜𝐨𝐛𝐞𝐥𝐥 𝐟𝐚𝐧𝐟𝐢𝐜 ! chapter thirty two

𝐟𝐥𝐨𝐰𝐞𝐫𝐬. that was his first thought to bring to his bestfriend. so here walker sat in his moms car with a bouquet full of her favorite flowers. she's been ignoring his texts for a few days now. everything was going so fast. way to fast for his liking.

he had to tell her how he felt.

he saw her house come into view as mrs scobell pulled into the driveway of the marie family home before looking at her son.

" are you sure you don't want me to wait here or anything" she asked him. the blonde shook his head. he wasn't positive this would go well. but he had fate.

" i'll be fine. it's james anyways it's not like we're strangers " walker pointed out towards his mother before he took his seatbelt off and got out of the car. closing the door behind him before he walked to the door.

heavy exhale of breath left the boys mouth as he felt his hands shake before he knocked on the door. he knew she was home. he just knew.

he waited there for a few minutes trying to decide if this was all to stupid. but his thoughts got erased as he saw the door open.

he pressed a smile on his face as he saw her.

jamison marie.

his girl open the door. but she looked different. she acted different he could just tell already. he saw the girl roll her eyes before turning around and walking back the way she just came. the blonde quickly walked inside before he closed and locked the door behind him as he followed behind her.

" i got you these flowers " the blonde mustered out as he walked behind her causing the brunette to stop in her footsteps and turn around and walk to the boy before grabbing the flowers out of his hand and setting them harshly on the desk top next to them before she turned around on her heels and walked back in the direction she was first walking.

walker stood there for a second before picking up the flowers on the counter and walking behind his bestfriend.

he walked behind her as she walked to her bedroom but he was to close to her for her to shut him out like she did to others. a heavy sigh leaving her mouth as she walked and sat on the edge of the bed. the blonde standing a few feet in front of her.

her room was different. it wasn't as enchanting as before. it didn't seem like her. it was slightly messy but you could still walk through it but it was also just not his jamison.

" what do you want walker " he heard her say to him pulling the blonde out of his thoughts. " um these are for you " he offered her the flowers once again before handing it to her. she took them and put them besides her.

she barley looked at them.

" are you still mad at me becuase-" the blonde was saying before he got cut off by the girl. the tension was thick in the room. a butcher knife could cut it right open.

" no walker i was never mad at you " she told him before he saw her eyes wander all over her room. she couldn't look at him. she wouldn't.

" then um " walker started trying to find a good way to ask what he wanted to ask without upsetting the already broken doll girl.

" ask it walker. " she told her bestfriend before standing up and walking to him.

this wasn't how it was supposed to go. something's wrong.

𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐲 arcade by duncan laurence for the full effect now !
( just do it you wont regret it i promise )

" what's wrong with you then " he asked her. the girl let out a smile as she looked at him. " you know i'm so glad you asked " she told him. she's been waiting for this moment.

" i'm honestly loosing my fucking mind walker. i've completely lost my shit. i made my sister cry over the truth, so now neither her or my mother even dare look or speak to me. you should see the other day i was in the kitchen and they were in there and they treated me like i was a bomb threatening to explode any minute now " he head the girl say as she let out a laugh walking around her room.

" and i might as well be because no one's speaking to me anymore. everyone is afraid i'll blow up again and when asked why i would i honestly couldn't answer that question because i don't know what's wrong with me because all of a sudden everything clicked. every single feeling that i've ever had bottled up just exploded " she told him before continuing once again. " and to top it all off my best friend lied to me about everything. you know i bet your ashamed of me. that has to be isn't that it walker " she asked him getting close to his face now. "no that's not -" cut him off once again.

this isn't right i don't know what's happening.

" it is walker and the worst part is that i don't care anymore. i understand why megan wanted me to get out of here now. i really do. she couldn't say it straight up but she knew she fucking knew and i doubted her because i was so obsessed over what you and everyone else would think " jamison spoke referencing the conversation she had weeks ago with the older women.

" but truth is it dosent matter anymore. your here out of pitty. isn't that right walker am i just a pitty game to you. because truth is im surprised you still hang out with me because everything makes sense now. everything is clicking. because you walker scobell only care about yourself no one else " he let out keep talking knowing it was all false.

he was hopelessly in love with her.

" your just like all of them. because once the perfect role. the perfect one comes you'll leave. they always fucking do walker. they always do and i'm sick and tired of being the one who gets left because no one gets it walker no one does. because nobody gets me. not you. not my family. not even my own friends. no one gets what i'm going through " jamison spoke tears spilling from her eyes.

she was so fed up.

" so tell me walker why your really here. the truth this time " she asked him. her voice growing quiet as she stood in front of the boy once again. he looked down into his eyes as he saw more tears threaten to spill out. but he remained quiet. " okay you can leave walker " she told him before turning around. but she was stopped as she felt the boy grab her arm before turning her around and kissing her. his hands cupping her cheeks as he did so.

her lips tasted salty and bitter from her tears.

but jamison was shooked. she didn't kiss him back.

she couldn't she wouldn't.

she pulled away pushing him off her by placing her hands on his chest before looking at him. she shook her head slightly as she starred at him.

" walker " she breathed out. not after her speech this couldn't be happening.

" i'm in love with you jamison " he blurted out at her. she stood there shocked her hands still pressed to his chest " i'm sorry it took me a while to figure it out but i'm in love with you jamison marie. i always have been and i wish i would have realized sooner " he told her with a smile. but jamison's face just stayed neutral.

" leave " she told him in a whisper dropping her hands from his chest. his smile dropped slightly. " what " he let out in a whisper you could barley him but she did.

" i don't feel the same way walker so please leave " she told him as she saw his eyes weld up in tears before he shook her head. she didn't want to make him cry. but they weren't meant for each other.

their love for each other was always a losing game. and for jamison she already lost to much.

she didn't want to lose him but she did.

because didn't you hear? jamison marie was a losing game even before she knew walker.

there was no saving that.

𝐜 𝐢𝐬 𝐚𝐥𝐦𝐨𝐬𝐭 𝐝𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐮𝐬𝐢𝐜 !
two chapters left. and ones the epilogue
which closes out the whole story.

this book will be done ether today or tomorrow.
we're almost done.