hannah's pov

"jj the reason i moved here was because i got arrested back home," i blurted, "i can't go out there."

i literally felt like i was going to vomit as the pit in my stomach began to feel like a bowling ball. my head felt like it was spinning, making me not only want to throw up but also pass out.

i searched jj's face for any kind of reaction to what i had just told him but he was just staring into my eyes with some sort of blankness that just absolutely destroyed me inside.

"i- you-" he began to stutter. suddenly the sound of boots hitting the flooring outside of the office were getting louder.

"jj," i cried out in a whisper, pleading for him to do something. he stared at me for a moment more before shaking out of whatever kind of trance he seemed to be in. his eyes quickly darted to every corner of the room before his eyes focused in one something in the corner of the room.

the door jiggled as jj wordlessly pulled my arm towards the vent he had found, pushing the cabinet that was covering half of the opening ever so slightly. he pried off the covering before crouching in and dragging me in after him.

i could hear the man outside of the door flip through keys as the jingling sound of the metal filled the air.

jj had pulled the cabinet over again in front of the wall and was trying to put the covering back onto the vent we were in, which was a lot harder to do from the inside.

tears pricked my eyes as i watched him struggle, knowing this was all my fault and we wouldn't be in this situation right now if i hadn't fucked up so bad.

suddenly the opening clicked into place just as the door handle was being twisted and then opened. jj looked at me before adjusting ever so slightly in the uncomfortable cramped position we were stuck in. i watched him put his head in between his knees as we listened to the sheriff roaming around the room.

"what the hell," the man in the room muttered under his breath as he paced around.

tears continued to gloss over my eyes as i listened to his boots hit the concrete of the floor. the vent was large but dark, a very minimal amount of light peaking through. i was squished up against the blonde's side and i could barely make out his shape.

the officer mumbled some more incoherent words as well as a few cusses before i heard him walk back out, the door clicking shut behind him.

"jj i-" i began but his hand immediately went over my mouth before i could say anything else. i could faintly see his figure as he shook his head side to side, indicating that it wasn't safe for us to make any noise yet.

he removed his hand before returning back to his fetal position and i just stared at the black wall ahead of me, trying to think of anything else other than my confession and how bad i have fucked things up.

time moved excruciatingly slow as i was left with only the sound of jj's shallow breath and the constant nagging of my thoughts.

i don't know how long it was before jj took his head from between his knees and rested it back against the side of the vent. and it was a while after that before he finally made his first movements to take off the covering.

he slowly pried it off again, making sure to not make any noise. once he slid it over he use his arm to push over the cabinet once more. he put a foot outside of the vent, pausing for a moment and then pushed himself up.

he turned towards me as i wiggled my way out as well and i stood by his side as he put everything back into place. we carefully crept over to the window, he pulled it open before turning to me and lifting me through the small space.

once he successfully maneuvered his way through he shut it and began to walk fast towards where pope and kiara would have been but weren't. they explained to me that if things got bad we would separate and meet at pope's house.

"jj can-" i started.

"not right now," he said sternly, holding a hand up.

we made it back to the chateau by foot, i followed jj wordlessly the entire time as he made twists and turns through neighborhoods and forests. once we finally arrived, jj practically busted the door open as i slowly stepped in behind him, shutting it softly.

i bit my lip as a watched him pace around the room, pulling at his hair.

"jj please let me-"

"no," he growled. continuing to pace.

"i just need to-"

"no!" he yelled this time.

i bit the inside of my cheeks as my stomach lurched at his aggressive tone. i needed to explain myself, why i lied, why i didn't tell him sooner, why i got arrested...

"why the fuck did you- i mean what did you-," jj began before stumbling over his words, "how could you- GOD!"

"i-"

"im not done," he grunted. "why did you lie to me? why did you decide that that was the right time to tell me? why did you- why the hell were you arrested? and- and"

"please let me talk," i quickly blurted and he stopped pacing to look directly into my tear filled eyes.

"sure hannah, go ahead, tell me why ," he said mockingly, "go right ahead."

"jj i didn't want to lie to you" i choked, before swallowing down the knot in my throat.

"then why did you?" he argued, his voice still raised.

"i just i-" i stammered, not being able to think of the right words i needed to say in this moment.

"what i don't understand," he began again, interrupting me, "is why you let me ramble on the other day about how connected i felt to you because of a lie."

"what i told you was true," i whimpered out, "its just... its not the reason i moved here."

"you moved here because you got arrested," jj spat.

"i- well yes.." i mumbled.

"so go ahead, tell me," he commanded.

i took a deep breath and i watched the blonde's eyes completely focus towards me.

"it was a dare," i began, "to sneak into a tarmac while i was drunk, and then i broke into the building on the property."

"oh great you got arrested because of a dare," he scoffed.

"jj i'm not-"

"i feel like i don't even know you!" he fumed, his arms waving in the air.

"please," i cried out, "please let me finish."

he returned my plea with silence and i gathered myself for a few moments before continuing.

"when i got into the building i saw something i wasn't supposed to see. there were a lot of authorities guarding the building that night and i ended up being arrested and-"

"what did you see?" jj pressed.

"jj-"

"tell me," he demanded.

"it was- it was gold, like, like a shit load of it and i.. i just," i faltered, "i couldn't tell you about it, i just couldn't, you need to understand that."

i looked up at jj, his eyes were wide and it looked like there were wheels turning in his head at a mile a minute.

"jj please i-"

"so what you ran away from your problems by coming here?" he accused.

"no no," i defended painfully, "i sorted it all out before i came here. my dad sent me here so he could work on some legalities himself."

my confession was only met with more silence. tears spilled down my cheeks as i watched jj try to process everything, looking like he was going to explode any minute.

"it was a mistake," my voice croaked.

"hannah i don't care that you got arrested, i care that you kept it from me. that you lied to me," he emphasized.

i stood there in the living room feeling like i could just crumble at his feet.

"i trusted you," he choked out after some minutes.

"jj i-"

"you're the only person i've ever trusted like that," he said and i think i literally felt my heart break at his words.

"i'm sorry," i sniffled, "i'm so sorry."

"i think you should go," he said, no emotion to his voice at all.

"please don't-"

"hannah," he warned.

"i never wanted to lie to you i-"

"i don't care!" he yelled back at me, "i said get out."

unwanted tears continued to roll down my face as i watched the blonde boy carry on walking around the room, not once glancing over at me. i walked awkwardly out of his house with a pain in my chest that i had never felt before. i climbed into my car and just sat there for a long time, until i could at least control my tears enough to see through the windshield in front of me.

and so i drove home, completely and utterly heart broken.