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dearest chanyeol,

did you like the exhibit? i know, i know. i'm such a creep! i apologize if you're quite disturbed by all of my foolish acts.

     ah, i'll just quit this blabbering of mine and be straightforward already.

    i miss you so much, i just want you to know that i love you will all my heart and soul.

i love you more than anything, park chanyeol.

i was such a coward for not telling you everything. my love for you, my sickness, my life.

before i left, i felt like giving you all my love that i have none left for anyone else. the kiss meant a lot to me.

     i'm scared that you might forget me, so i'll start once again.

i'm kim areum, the girl who took pictures of you when you're asleep, the girl who asked you everyday if you can come with her to the forest, the girl who felt as if her body was electrified when you kissed her, the girl who was madly in love with you from the very start

do you still remember me? did i leave your mind? because i'm sure that you haven't left mine.

about that promise that promise i made. i think i wasn't able to be perfect. the picture was taken a few months before i started deteriorating.

     beauty isn't permanent after all.

i never maintained my long, dark hair. instead, i was losing all of them until there was none left. i never had a curvy body, i grew thinner as each day passed until what was left of me were my skin and bones. i lost the reddish hue of my cheeks, as they grew pale every single day.

     but do you still love me? the girl who i really am? because, i loved you with all of my heart.

     was there a little love in that kiss? because, i exerted all of the love in my heart for that special moment.

     whatever your answer is, i will forever love you, park chanyeol.

lots of love,
kim areum

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