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dearest chanyeol,

     right now, i bet you're panicking. you don't know where i am. you're probably looking for me. don't worry, chanyeol. i already got my diploma, just privately. i'm sorry i didn't tell you that i left so early. i was about to thank you when i came back here yesterday, but you weren't home.

     i'm sorry if the ink was smeared, a tear fell on the paper.

     i'm moving to america, to pursue my dream of becoming a photographer.

    i will change for you, park chanyeol.

    when you come and visit me here, you'll see a beautiful girl with long hair, a curvy body, rosy cheeks and kissable lips. i promise you that.

    i'm going to be the girl that you will like. i'm going to be like eunji.

   i want to thank you, chanyeol. for being the most beautiful person i have ever met, inside and out. you're kind enough to let me stay in your house for almost a year without complaining. i'm sorry if i was such a bothersome girl, always dragging you into my daily photoshoot in the forest.

   i'm really thankful that you showed me that forest. we made so many memories there. the most important ones.

    but i really thought that forest was only ours, i was so surprised when you told eunji about that forest, and disappointed.

    i'm so selfish, chanyeol. you know that.

    so selfish that i want that big, big forest for our eyes only.

    do you really want to know the reason why i left my house?

    i ran away from home because i want to stay with you.

    i want to know how it feels like to live under one roof with park chanyeol.

   it was an amazing time.

   i loved it.

   i will cherish it forever.

   i'm running out of time (and paper) for this long, long letter. i'll send you more letters when i have the time.

   and one more thing,
    was there a little love in that kiss?

forever yours,
kim areum

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