burned.

letter six; the light of my life

Dear Sienna,

I have been unable to write these letters for a few weeks now; my health is getting worse. I had no improvement in my sickness until now, but I am finally able to at least get up from bed.

My brother tells me that you've been visiting every day, and that makes me feel ecstatic, my love! I only wish that I hadn't been asleep when you had, but I loved the fruits and books you brought! They were beautiful.

I miss seeing you every day, Sienna. My heart throbs for yours for every second you are away from me and hurts more when you're closer. It pains me that I can't see your soft eyes and lovely smile, love, even when we are nothing but mere inches apart. I want to get better as soon as possible so I can see you again.

My brother looks happy these days. It might be because our father is in France with Caspian for business relations, and to inform that I am sick to him.

I hope that my illness makes Caspian not want to marry me.

My brother has been smiling a lot more these days. Has father being away and giving him the reins for managing the estate made him that delighted?

I asked him if there was any way I could see you again. He said that he would try to let us talk together through the window. The simple idea of seeing you again gives me butterflies. But not just in my stomach, but I feel as floaty and delicate as the winged creatures at the thought of you. No, I feel even more enchanting than a butterfly and I'm soaring, soaring high from land to the charcoal sky, settling among the stars of your eyes. 

I am staring out of my windows as I'm writing this and gazing into the night. There is no moon today, but the shining stars seem to make up for their missing companion, sparkling dazedly. That's what you do, Sienna. You bring light and happiness into everyone's lives and make them better people.

I am selfish; I want to keep you to myself forever, as the sun in only my life. But the sun can't be clutched to oneself greedily, for it needs to give brightness to others' lives too. The world without your light would be a world of despair and insanity, and I don't want you to suffer and live in a world like that.

I look forward with joy in my heart to see you tomorrow, Sienna. Keep shining brighter than the whole of the stars, moon, and the sun itself.

I love you,
Emilia