02:33 AM
Kenma's phone

Kenma

Kuroo where are you???

It's been two days

I really need to talk to you, you're the only one I have

03:19 AM

Kenma

Kuroo please

Don't joke around, turn on your phone

I'm having a difficult time right now

I need you to be here

I need you to listen to me

I need you to help me get rid of these thoughts

Kuroo they're eating me alive

04:25 AM

Kenma

I'm begging you

You're the only person I can talk to, you're the only one who understands

My wrists are itching, I want to stop it

05:48 AM

Kenma

He's coming again today

He's coming to "teach" me again today

Kuroo you know what he does to me

Why are you not replying

Why are you ignoring me

I hate you

I hate you

I hate you

07:39 AM

Kenma

He's here

I can hear him downstairs

Kuroo please answer so I'm not as disgusted with myself

Why are you doing this to me

Why did I ever trust you

Why did I reply to your message

Kuroo he's coming please come back I need you

11:36 AM

Kenma

I feel dirty

I feel used

I feel disgusting

I feel worthless

I'm just a doll

I'm just a thing that's used for the same purpose over and over again

I stand in the shower for hours, but the dirt doesn't wash away

Only you help me feel better

But when I need you the most you're gone

Why

Aren't you supposed to tell me nice words?

Aren't you supposed to come to my aid

Aren't you supposed to joke around and make me smile when I'm feeling like a piece of trash left on the floor, clothes barely hanging while he laughs downstairs

Kuroo I hate you

I hate you

I hate you

I hate you

02:58 PM

Kenma

I'm worried

You haven't replied in so long

What if you're in pain

It makes me want to feel your pain

Kuroo please come here and stop me

Please tell me I'm worth it

Please tell me I'm going to be okay

Please tell me I can make it through

Because right now I feel like giving up

Where are you

Are you okay

Are you bleeding

Are you cold

Are you hungry

Please tell me to get my mind off of these bad thoughts

04:42 PM

Kenma

I did it

I'm sorry

I couldn't help it

I'm all alone in the bathroom

I have been crying for hours

I couldn't help it

I needed to feel something

I feel numb

I did it while thinking of you

So it's just a couple of them

Not a lot

You wouldn't want me to hurt myself

You would tell me that I have to care about myself

You would tell me you'll come by and take me to a cafe

Where are you

Why aren't you telling me that

Why are you making me suffer

I hate you more

I hate you

I hate you so much

06:23 PM

Kenma

She's gonna yell at me

She's gonna do bad things to me

I didn't do what she told me to do

I resisted when I thought of you

She's gonna hurt me Kuroo

She's gonna use a belt I know

I have too many scars and bruises already, now there's gonna be more

Kuroo I need you to be here

I need you to tell me to stay strong

Kuroo please

I need you

08:26 PM

Kenma

I can't do it Kuroo

I feel weak

I hate you

I hate you

I hate you

10:56 PM

Kenma

I hate you

I hate you

I hate you so much

11:11 PM

Kenma

Make a wish Kuroo

I made mine, I'm giving up

I love you

I love you so much

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Uhm. Ha ha :)

- hatari