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hajime:
tooru

have u really thought them through?

your feelings?

it could just be moderate attraction

tooru:
why would i tell you how i feel

if i wasn't sure??????

iwaizumi hajime goddamnit

i like you

i like you as more than a friend

hajime:
tooru...

i just

i don't know what to say to that

tooru:
how do you feel

tell me

i've seen the way you look at me

i've felt your warmth and kindness

you've taken me to places you like

you showed me who you are

and are you going to tell me that all of that was friendly? that there were no feelings involved?

hajime:
i mean

i cant say that there were no feelings involved

but i really don't think i am the right guy for you

im just looking out for you tooru

tooru:
looking out for me?

i can decide what is good for myself

iwa please

just be honest and tell me straight on

hello?

i can see you're reading the messages

iwa

i know it's hard

and we both have been hurt

but we're good for each other

??

iwaaa

hajime:
im scared

tooru:
of what

hajime:
everything

tooru:
what do you mean

hajime:
feelings are...

hard?

they're tough

and they're scary

and it makes me feel vulnerable

and then all the thoughts come in

all the what ifs

all the possible situations

and i always think about the worst

and i cannot bear the thought of me hurting you in anyway because im finally at the point in my life where i feel security

i have a good job, a nice place, i finally have friends that understand me and appreciate it

and if one wrong move takes that all away

...

i dont want to think about it

it hurts

tooru:
you're overthinking

so hard

and i get it

i would lie if i said that i didnt have any fears about my feelings

especially knowing how "compatible" we are

but we both respect each other

hajime:
that's true

tooru:
i know you wouldn't do anything bad to me

and i am certain i wouldn't do anything bad to you

and i know you're scared

but why don't we try

why don't we be vulnerable together?

hajime:
and you're willing to take the risk?

even after what happened to you last time?

tooru:
yeah

because you're different

and my feelings for you are genuine

i like you

and i would like

to love you

but for that i need you to tell me how you feel

and we can take small steps from there

hajime:
...

ever since you appeared in my life

i've felt like life is truly worth an effort

and

gosh

i feel like a little school boy confessing

fine

you win

i like you

tooru:
there, you said it

im proud of you

hajime:
so....

what now

tooru:
i want to see you

but i think you need to process all this first

hajime:
thats true...

let me have a moment

to collect my thoughts

i will get back to you about meeting later

tooru:
thank you for being brave

hajime:
you really dont need to thank me

im cowardly

tooru:
i don't think so

hajime:
i might cancel on meeting the guys today

tooru:
but they're been dying to see you

hajime:
i can meet them later

but i think

i need to see you more than i do them

tooru:
oh...

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