It was terrible at first. I kept slamming in to things when I walked ,  making them smash to pieces. I tripped and fell numerous times and groaned frustratingly. When I wanted to make my own toast without Jungkook's help, I cut my finger.

But this time, I didn't give up, I didn't give up because of him. He was the most precious person in my life. If I give up on myself it'll mean that I'm giving upon him. Day by Day, the bond between us was getting stronger.

Hoseok was right, from the story he said to me, the lesson he taught me from it is true. Love is something complicated, it can make you totally blind or a fool, and also it can make you risk your life for another one.

It is complicated indeed. Even my life was like a living hell that which was filled with darkness, he kept showing me the beauty in there. We both struggled to survive the day, and we did it together.

Sometimes my vision got blur, giving me a spark of hope and excitement. I thought I was getting my vision back. But whenever it looked like the blindness is going to fade away, again it was only darkness. It was too much to ask from the god, I am blind, to never see the world again.

I wanted to stop taking medicine and face the truth, but Jungkook kept telling me that I'm going to see the world again. The treatments didn't stop because of his courage. Every time I was losing hope, I erected again, shedding my tears away because of the man who holds me tight without letting me go away. He helped me to spread my wings.

We both liked the beach, a lot. We spent every evening sitting on the log in the beach. The calming music of the ocean was pure merry that cured our scars of past. Nature itself was making its own lullaby, a song of hope and strength.

Jungkook knows how to make me feel better. Like everything else, he was so good at comforting me. His golden attitudes were mesmerising. He never failed to fill my world with colours like he always did. His artistic eyes saw the world beautifully and differently than others. Believe it or not, this man who spent the whole best time of his life in the mafia was a true artist. The way he explains everything was unique and alluring. He was able to grasp all the emotions in his words that made them more than just words, they were were words of a cascade of his spirited youth. He was such a beautiful person from the inside as well.

Jungkook was talking less mysteriously with me now. He was no longer pushing me away or cutting me off, he was sharing his feelings with me, openly. But I noticed that he was hesitating to tell me about his past. The words never came out from him when he tries to tell me it. I didn't push him to tell me his story. I know he'll tell me when it's time.

It had been about three weeks since we lost the other boys. I still can't believe that they are gone, How is it real? Every time I thought about the other six boys who left is, my heart twisted with agony, making me feel so terrible and miserable. No matter how much I tried, I couldn't escape from the guilty feeling that I was the cause of their death. They died because they were trying to save me,

He sometimes talked about the Bangtan boys, his brothers. His voice was so quiet, even I couldn't see his face, I could imagine his gloomy face when he talked about them. According to him, they were the people who brought him back to life again after what happened to him in his past. And that was the relatable with me too. They all, including Jungkook, the seven boys opened the door to a whole new life to me.

I couldn't bare it when I heard his broken voice as he talks about them. Hurting him is the worst thing for me. And looking at him talking like that, was unbearable.

"About what happened to them, it's all my fault Jungkook, you can blame me, It's ok," I talked with a heavy heart. I felt like something was stuck in my throat as I spoke. I heaved a sigh.

The silence of the environment was only bothered by the sound of the ocean waves and the salty breeze that passed by us. Looks like even they are willing to give us a piece of sad background music to make it more emotional.

"They are not gone y/n. Tae hyung promised me...He promised me to come back. "

His voice was so broken as he talked about Taehyung. He tried to control his shaky voice,

"They can't die like that. Tae hyung never breaks his promise. He will never do that"

I managed to not let out a loud sob with a great difficulty cause it would only make the situation worse. How am I supposed to reply him? How can I say that they are gone for real? The bitter truth is that we both didn't wanted to believe, was true. How much I wished they were alive, but I was just running behind a mirage.

" And Namjoon will never fail to save his brothers. He's stronger than anyone."

Jungkook continued talking while I remained silent. Sometimes, it's better to talk to someone than to keep all the pain to yourself. Sharing feelings will ease our pains, at least for a little. Isn't that true?  I ushered him,

" Namjoon is the leader, he leads you guys so well," he heaved a sigh,

"He had to go through so much than any of us. Being a leader is hard in itself, and being a leader of a mafia gang was tougher" he voice was a somber, "Even he looks like he talks only about work, he had so many things that he kept to himself. That's only because he wants to be a strong leader for us," as he let out a sigh, I intertwined my hand with his to comfort him,

"I know that Jungkook"

"His father was part of KI SUNG CEO company"

I was astonished by what I heard. Namjoon's father works with him?

" What? he is working under him? Is he working for the mafia too?"

"Yes, he is, Kim Namjoon was his only son, he trained him to take his place in his position. Namjoon hyung tried to run away from them but both Ki Sung and Mr. Kim didn't want to lose a brain like him" he inhaled deeply before talking further, "Namjoon was the top in his classes, his talents were amazing. They turned Namjoon hyung into a mechanical robot that was able to do everything they say, they made him join the mafia,"

His own father pushed him to this shit? What kind of father is he? Jungkook felt my thoughts as I was silent, 

"I know what you are thinking right now. You may think his father is a creep to do that to his own son, but it's not like that Y/n," I widened my orbs with surprise as he talked,

"What do you mean 'it's not like that'?"

"He did that to protect him. What do you think will happen if Mr. Kim disagreed with Ki Sung? You know the results don't you"

This is unbelievable. How could he use his powers like this for his own selfish reasons? That freaking man destroyed their lives, by threatening their lives and families, he kept haunting them. So far from what I heard,Jimin, Taehyung, Hoseok , Yoongi and Namjoon, all of them were dragged to this because they didn't had a chance to escape. Oh Ki Sung, he is a monster, acursed devil. Everything in this city was touched by that cursed devil.

My hate and antipathy towards him grew stronger. At that moment, for the first time in my life, I thought about revenge. Some kind of unfamiliar person inside was awakened with the impulse of vengeance.

"Is his father still here? Namjoon's father?" I quired him,

" He got transferred to USA to manage  the branches of the KI enterprises in there,"

After a silence, he spoke again,

" Ki sung dragged him into this. And after Namjoon met me and Seokjin hyung, We all were part of the dark mafia. Every moment we were searching for a way to escape our fate, we struggled every day to get our normal lives back,"

A sigh escaped from him. The boys were searching for freedom. With all their blood sweat and tears, every minute passed by, they tried to escape it. They didn't want a lot, they didn't ask for much, only for freedom, the freedom to live like a birds that could spread their wings and fly. But they were trapped in a cage,

"You and Jin were the first to join the gang?"

" Yes, I met Jin hyung first, after..."

He gulped, his voice fainted. It happened again. The words didn't support him to talk. He was once again mute.

" It's ok Jungkook, you don't have to talk about it, I'll wait till you are ready to tell me," I softly spoke to him as he sighed heavily. 

We quietly listened to the singing ocean. But I wasn't calm from inside. I was thinking about something, something unfamiliar that wasn't supposed to be me. It was a real strong feeling. 

Something inside my DNA was talking to me.

I am the one who's going to destroy you. Because I'm the niece of Oh Ki Sung,

Pretty pretty savage.😅 Waiting for more? Is things getting interesting?

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