DARRIAN jimenez !
sugarhill, the block
featuring; @sugarhillddot .

KEEM'S VOICE BOOMED as he greeted ddot, who was sitting on the block with a blunt in his hand. he asked, "yo, worda ma dead's, what's good? i haven't seen you outside in dumb long." ddot sucked his teeth, took a hit of the blunt, and blew it out.

it wasn't a new thing—everybody knew that ddot wasn't out as much anymore because of the passing of his grandma. he was taken a big break from all of that shit—his grandma's words about his lifestyle weighed heavily on him and he needed some time to process everything.

ddot had been very close to his grandma, and her passing had hit him hard. he didn't find himself going outside at all anymore, including going out with his friends.

despite everything, ddot's mental health had gotten better over the days even though he knew sooner or later he would go batshit crazy and loose it all. he was never one to handle his handle correctly—he says things without thinking when he's hurt.

"yo ma heart—pass me that," dd put his hands in a grabby motion which caused ddot to roll his eyes but pass it to him anyways.

"where ya ass been?" keem asked making eye contact with the younger boy. he knew something was up.

ddot shrugged his shoulders and replied to keem, "i been chilling. ain't nothin out here no more." he spoke with a blank expression on his face, being completely honest.

ddot never found himself going out as much anyways—he found it boring now, he had been spending most of his time listening music to drown his own thoughts our he was with zoey.

despite everything, ddot was still passionate about his rapping carrer. he enjoyed the beats and rhymes of his favorite rappers and found solace in the lyrics. it was one of the few things that could take his mind off his problems, even if it was just for a little while.

keem chuckled. "oh word? you don't be outside like that?" ddot nodded in agreement and took another hit of his blunt that dd had passed back. he was content with spending time alone and didn't feel the need to go out as much as he used to.

"nah he really just be with zoey. all you here from this nigga is zoey, zoey zoeyyyyy." notti laughed which caused ddot to mug him. "get off my dick, dick sucker."

ddot didn't even entertain them because he knew in some sense that they weren't wrong. everywhere zoey was he was; it was like they were attached to the him.

zoey was the light in his life, the one person who truly understood him.

whenever ddot was feeling overwhelmed, zoey was there to listen. she never judged him or made him feel bad about his struggles. instead, she either always listened or talked about random things to get his mind off it.

ddot had made a deep relationship for zoey.

she was the type of person to listen to him when nobody else would, not to mention that he he loves the sound of her voice—it's crazy. she's the reason that he's able to fall asleep without smoking weed—them being on call asleep together was better than weed.

it was obvious that ddot had never really liked being with zoey when they first met. he found her to be too talkative and overly friendly, and he didn't really know how to respond to her energy. the way she would always be smiley and happy all the time scared him.

zoey had a way of making ddot feel comfortable and safe. a feeling that ddot barely felt unless  he was with his grandma. he felt like he could be himself around her, and he didn't have to put on a front or pretend to be someone he wasn't.

when ddot got to know zoey better—more like he was forced to, he started to like her more and more. he realized zoey really had a heart of gold, and  heir wasn't on thing he couldn't tell  her.

he trusted her with a lot, more than he would like to admit.

the boys around them laugh lowly while ddot didn't care, in fact he pulled out his phone to text zoey because.. why not?

Z 🫀

DOT  🫶🏾
zoey

Z 🫀
darrian 💗💗

wassup. lemme come over so yhu
can tutor me, i got a test on monday

ofc 🫶🏾🫶🏾🫶🏾 . but my cousins are
over you okay with that?

yeah idc 😂😂 .
z 🫀. loved this message.

ddot smiled a bit before getting up from where he was sitting, dusting off his grey sweats. "oh you leavin now? gimme the blunt nigga." dd greedily snatched the blunt from ddot's hand .

ddot didn't even care, he said his goodbyes before he made his way to zoey's house which he had memorized the way of. true thing is that he was passing basically all his classes, the test he had on monday was in math class which he hasn't slacked a single assignment in.

he didn't have any other way around of hanging with zoey besides making up the whole 'tutoring' thing. the thing with ddot was that it took long for him to trust somebody—he needed to know everything about you before he made the decision that he was close enough to you to trust you.

ddot walked slowly to zoey's block, he could already—for some weird reason jewr the commotion that was coming inside the house, or outside.

"no—no junie come here. we can't play for long i have someone coming over." zoey picks up her cousin from the grass in the backyard, it was like she was stuck in the position she was in. a pout rested in her small lips as she crosses her arms.

she wasn't so happy that they would have to stop their playtime together.

ddot walked over to where he heard zoey's voice coming from, only to find her trying to help a little kid up from the ground. "julie, if you don't—get up. " zoey said, cutting her words off in an irritated tone.

"i don't want to." the smaller girl whines.

ddot looked around awkwardly before he turned his heel to go to the front door until he heard zoey's voice, "dot, oh my godddd."

ddot turned around to see zoey's eyes widen in recognition. "oh wassup zo," he said, trying to act nonchalant. "i'm sorry julie don't wanna get up. you can go in, i don't think my moms inside." she smiles at him while ddot nods, going to do just that.

as ddot entered the front door, which was surprisingly unlocked, he made eye contact with an older woman that looked like zoey's twin. the woman had the same eyes and curly hair as zoey, and even had ddot's favorite smile—which was zoey's.

ddot was taken aback by the resemblance and wondered if she was zoey's mother or her older sister. the woman smiled warmly at ddot and immediately dropped what she was doing to gesture him to sit on the couch.

"are you the boy zoey stays talking about? that girl is crazy about being your friend—you know that?" zoey's mom smiles at him while ddot has to suppress his own smile.

he shrugged, "i don't know, she just tutors me."

zoey's mom nodded—moving on to another topic. "do you want some water? i think there's ice cold drinks in the fridge for you—actually let me go check." ddot didn't even get to utter a word and her mom left to go into the chicken.

zoey's mom comes back with a glass water bottle in her hand with a big smile on her face as she sits across from the boy. "oh sh—this glass??" ddot asked the obvious while the older woman just smiled and nods.

"a hundred percent glass—now let's cut the shit, wassup with you and my baby? there's not one day she doesn't come back from school with a smile on her face, talkin about 'i love my friends,' she didn't live here friends this much last year." her mom says bluntly.

zoey's mom was not one to beat around the bush. ddot was taken aback by her forwardness. he knew that zoey's talkative personality came from her mother's blunt honesty, but he wasn't expecting such a direct question.

zoey's mom didn't give him much time to think. "if you don't answer my damn question, boy." she demanded an answer, and ddot had to think fast.

ddot took a deep breath and tried to find the right words to describe his feelings for zoey. he didn't want to ramble or say the wrong thing, but he also wanted to be truthful. He opened the glass water bottle and took a sip of water, trying to calm his nerves.

"nah, zoey my heart forreal. like she my person." he nods while the older woman clutches her chest so her heart doesn't start pounding out of it. "y'all are so—that's your person? like that's my kid too you know i gave birth and allat dumb shit."

ddot gapes at her sentence, beginning to stumble over his words until something comes out of it while the older woman starts laughing and waves him off.

ddot's eyes widened in shock as zoey's mom delivered her warning. he stuttered and stumbled over his words, unsure of how to respond. but before he could say anything, zoey's mom burst out laughing and waved him off.

"nah i was just playing with you. but that's cute, anyways don't hurt my baby or imma hurt you." zoey's mom stands up from her seat and waves bye at ddot like she didn't just threaten him.

ddot watched her go, still a little stunned from the encounter. but he brushed it off like it was nothing—deciding to act like the conversation never happened.

the boy shrugged, pulling out phone to pass time until zoey comes back. what he didn't notice was to see one of zoey's cousin come down from upstairs—he didn't pay her no mind cause, he doesn't care.

ddot didn't even notice the girl until he heard something drop causing him to lift his head up abruptly. that's when he saw a girl that looked a bit similar to zoey drop her phone.

they had similar features besides the fact that she had her hair straightened unlike zoey who always had her curls. she didn't have the same cheesy smile that zoey always flashed ddot with.

as ddot looked up from his phone, he saw the girl waving at him in a strange way. he felt a bit weirded out by it and just gave her a nod in response. he then noticed her staring at him, which made him feel even more uneasy.

when zoey said that her cousins would be over he didn't think she would have some any of the same age.

eventually zoey ends up coming back when ddot hears the front door open which makes him let out the most relived sigh. ddot slips his phone back into his sweatpants pocket and as soon as he was gonna get up to go walk up to her—the cousin beat him to it.

ddot scrunches his face up when he sees zoey's cousin—or whatever that is, go up to zoey with a big smile on her face.

zoey held julie in her hand who had just fell asleep, the soft snores escaping her mouth as she was buried into zoey's arms. zoey had a big smile when she saw her cousin with a smile on her face—zoey loved seeing people happy.

just a little thing duh. as seeing other people smile or people she loves smile—it makes her smile 10 times harder.

"zoey—who is that boy right there?" zoey's cousin smiles and points at ddot's figure who was sitting in the couch, trying to like he didn't hear nothing but he did.

zoey's smile dropped quickly when essence asked that because why did she wanna know? zoey tried to ignore the uneasy feeling that crawled on her but it just irked her. the way essence was eying ddot down made her wanna scream for some reason.

"what?" zoey asked in a confused manner while her cousin just pushed her in a way that screams, 'i like him,"

zoey doesn't know if she either wants for dig up a whole and die, or just smile like her she didn't wanna slap the fuck out of essence. ever since little kids essence had always been the one to get boys apporochsed to her—now zoey didn't pay attention to this but it's like every single time zoey would get a guys that approaches her essence would automatically think they were their for her and her only.

that's what crushed zoey's self love in a early age. but that didn't mean zoey didn't love herself, she really does. in this moment, zoey feels like the same young girl who was left waiting in the corner while essence ran off with her crush.

essence tapped her in her shoulder, "i'm gonna get something from the deli—try to get his phone number for me, love you zozo!"

zoey turned around to watch essence run off to the deli while zoey just frowned. at this point she couldn't even try to mask up a smile to look at ddot she just lets it go.

that was the only sign that essence could do to tell zoey that—that was her man. and one thing zoey hated to doing was home wreck—not like she had done it before .

but it wasn't that—she was jealous. and she knew it.

zoey forgets that the whole reason she had ended up in this situation was cause of ddot who was calling her name for atleast 5 minutes. "zo? wassup you hear me?" ddot stood in front of zoey who nodded, making her way through the door with julie in her arms, walking up the stairs.

ddot watches her figure with a confused expression planted on her face. just from the way zoey wasn't talking he knew something was up—he just would wait until she starts talking.

ddot followed zoey up the stairs and watched her exit a spacious room. zoey had already dropped off her cousin before opening the door for ddot.

ddot walked in, still paying close attention to her body language, as he knew at this point she wasn't going to say anything to him. he sat down on her bed and watched her every move, zoey picking up the binder from her shelf and sat back down in her original position.

zoey started talking, but her voice was quieter this time, as it usually was when she was upset. ddor hated seeing zoey upset, as it was a rare occurrence that really affected him.

zoey had always been there for ddot, and he knew that she would do the same for him. they had been through so much together, zoey had a way of making him feel better, even when things seemed hopeless.

as they sat there in silence, ddot couldn't help but think about how much he cared for the girl sitting across him. more then he liked to admit.

not even a month ago she was just an annoying girl who wouldn't leave him alone—now she was one of the most important people in his life, and he couldn't imagine what he would do without her.

at this point zoey wasn't even trying to hide the fact that she was upset.

"why you ain't talking, you okay?" ddot asked, his voice laced with concern. he noticed zoey's silence and decided to speak up, picking her chin up so they could have eye-to-eye contact.

zoey's heart skipped a beat as she looked into his eyes. she felt flustered and her cheeks began to flush, making her feel embarrassed.

zoey cleared her throat and nodded, trying to hide her nervousness. her heart was racing, and she didn't know what to say. she didn't want to burden ddot with her problems, but she also didn't want to lie to him. she took a deep breath and looked away, trying to compose herself.

dot shook his head, "no, you ain't. zo, you ain't gotta front with me, you know that right? of something's up, let me know, ma." zoey felt like she could melt right there. she felt like ddot knows the kinda of things he's doing—and zoey is just noticing that.

at the same time, zoey couldn't help but feel a twinge of jealousy. zoey had been trying to suppress her own feelings, but being so close to him was making it difficult.

and the thing is she couldn't see if those feelings were truly just friendship or something else, that's what made her feel worse.

zoey looked back at ddot, her heart racing. she wanted to tell him, but she couldn't find the words. she felt like she was going to burst with all the emotions she was feeling.

zoey opened her mouth, but she felt like if she said it—it would come off selfish and obnoxious. but when she looked back at ddot he had a soft expression on his face, the face she always had on when she was ready to listen to him.

"i know like..." zoey started, but her voice trailed off.

ddot leaned in closer, "you know what? talk to me, ma."

zoey took a deep breath and tried to find the words to express herself. "i just... i don't know what i'm feeling. i'm confused." she pouted looking at him because as much as she wanted to tell him what's wrong she didn't know how to.

ddot pulled her hands softly, pulling her onto his lap causing zoey to smile softly. he then took zoey's arms and helped her wrap them around his neck, while he kept his arms firmly around her waist.

for a minute, they just sat there, while ddot just stared at her with the softest expression ever. ddot started playing with her curls slowly which made zoey let out a breath—a breath she didn't know she needed to let out so bad.

zoey pulled back and looked ddot in the eyes. "my cousin essence wants your number. and i was like i didn't know if you wanted me to tell you or for you to talk to her to get her number. and i didn't want to make it weird between us if you wanted to talk to her instead of me—i mean essence is really pretty, so like i wouldn't see the problem or whatever."

ddot furrowed his eyebrows, "i—i don't wanna talk to that girl zo. i wanna talk to you. you know that shit."

zoey felt a lump form in her throat as she looked into ddot's eyes as she struggled to form a response so she nodded.

ddot hummed, "you know that mug you wanted to other day?" zoey nods slowly, "i ordered it for you. it's comin later today."

aoey smiled cheekily as she hugged ddot, "you loveeeee me."

and the crazy thing is, ddot didn't even notice the fact he didn't rebuke her sentence.

F SPEAKS 🙆🏾‍♀️

NOTE— like whaaaaaaaaaaaa. omfg i wanna release another ddot book but ik y'all sick of me 😭😭. anyways what book y'all want updated?? let a nigga know frl . fia loves u 💗💗.