ZOEY AKILA bennet !
sugarhill, kennedy heights hs
featuring; @itszoeyb .

[ warning: speaking of eating disorders ]

"NO THE CAMERAS aren't on durin when y'all go downstairs.. are y'all well?" the coach looks at the group of teens with a bored but concerned expression because why would she have the cameras on while the kids went downstairs to change.

zoey had let out the most relieved sigh in the inside, she forgot about that part.

the teens understandingly left her office whilst zoey was happy from the news she saw ddot who was trailing behind the group—a defeated expression on his face. zoey felt bad but the only reason she didn't give him the chin right then and three was that she would get her ass best to the core and she hasn't even been in the school for 2 weeks.

zoey let out a small breath. "i'm sorry we couldn't find your chain—maybe we can find it later? you probably missed placed it or something because i always do that. like i have so much things i always forget where i put it you know?"

ddot mugged the girl who finally stopped talking. "i was waiting to you to shut the fuck up."

zoey hit her lip feeling she deserved that in a way so she jus stopped talking all together. "be nice nigga." jahzara nudged ddot in the shoulder when she heard the way ddot was talking to her bestfriend.

ddot rolled his eyes—turning around to look to zoey who still had a small smile on her face. he kisses his teeth lowly, "yo is you gon tutor me lata?"

zoey smiled as she clapped her hands enthusiastically—completely forgetting about what had happened a couple minutes ago. "yes omg! i have a whole binder for the things we can do to help you—math right?"

ddot mugged her at how enthusiastic she sounded about learning after school. "nigga you jus odd, what the fuck."

zoey shrugged, unbothered as she walked back into the cafeteria and made her way to her lunch table, sitting next to marie as always. "yo what the fuck is that man." dd acknowledged the food they were giving out today—the food notti was eating.

"this shi is good ion care." he mumbled as he dipped the chicken nuggets in the ketchup.

jahzara and dd held the same disgusted expression on their faces cause who eats school lunch. "nasty." they both said at the same time.

zoey hates the thought of food in the first place. she hates eating at school, and she barely even eats. she could go weeks without food it was concerning to the point her parents were noticing. it wasn't long til they took her to the doctor and figured out she had a eating disorder—anorexia to be precise. zoey faints when she doesn't eat for long but always denies the offer of being hungry, she was just scared.

there are little things she could eat—a bag of chips. she could eat that and not eat for the rest of the day, and no one would notice.

zoey was often very talkative about things but the topic of food just made her want to barf. she didn't like it at all it made her nauseous and uncomfortable to eat.

"zo i have chips you want?" marie pulls out a bag of hot cheetos that she knew where zoey's favorite but she shook her head. zoey was hungry but she don't wanna eat in front of people and marie knew that so jus by the look of her face she just nodded and stuff the chips back in her purse.

ddot was a perspective person and unlike zoey he didn't talk a lot but he noticed they way zoey looked like she was gonna throw up from the looks of food.

he wondered if it was just because of how horrible it food was at the school or if it was something else for the reason—anyways he didn't care.

"what?" zoey tilted her head cause ddot was full on staring at her. "do i have something on my face?"

ddot's go to face was mugging so that's what he did. "no? mind ya business." he huffed cause he just got caught staring at the girl he disliked a lot. for the rest of the lunch period he didn't bat her a eyelash, he felt like she didn't deserve the thought of breathing next to her.

but zoey on the other hand was happy for some reason, a small giddy feeling in her stomach. she didn't know why she started smiling so hard she had to put a hand over her mouth to cover it.

zoey put her hands in her pocket but immediately pulled it out when she felt the wallet in there. she didn't like the fact that she had it—she was the one that had made the decision of stealing it and she was gonna have to stick with it.

zoey knew that it was wrong of her to steal something so valuable of somebody she hadn't even know for long but she felt like if he had lost something that was meaningful to him she would be there as a shoulder to cry on.

the thing with zoey was that she didn't think before she acted—she liked to act on the fact before she regretted it.

but scratch that she been regretting this shit. zoey felt like sooner or later somebody will catch on the fact she had it. she wasn't a good liar at all so within this whole situation she had been telling herself to just shut up.

cause obviously if anyone somebody that's gon be her ass.

ZOEY WOKE UP from the nap she had taken when she had gotten home back from school. it was something she did often—she liked to sleep to forget about the school work she still had due of just sleep cause she loves sleeping so bad.

the girl looked to her side—her clock seeing that it was already 6:30, so she would have to be at ddot's at 7. zoey wasn't upset that she had woken up she was excited to be with ddot one on one.

she made suede to look good but not the point where she was putting on a whole outfit to see somebody at 7 in the evening especially when she would only be there for a couple hours.

zoey decided she would take a shower even though she would probably end up being late she hated leaving her house after a long period of time and not showering—it was just an ick to her.

after she was done she pulled her hair into a low bun and slicking back her baby hairs. zoey changed into a brown sweatsuit she had laying around since she hadn't worn it once. she could already tell it was from one of her mall finds she just never wore. zoey put on her yeezy addidas foam brown-pinkish slides on along with a pink purse. she decided to wear her glasses that weren't even prescribed but she wore it just to wear it.

the girl grabbed her binder that she had continued organizing before she had fallen asleep when she got home, according to the assistant principal she wanted zoey to help ddot with math but he was also unable to pass any of his other classes.

the assistant principal had insisted zoey on just doing math but with the way zoey was she wanted to help ddot til the end of the world so she was gonna help him with every subject.

"babygirl what's the netflix password!" zoey's dad asked when she saw the girl come into view from downstairs. "it's mom's birthday." she told him as she searched the cabinet for her keys which had a keychain with rhinestones on it with pink charms on it.

zoey smiled when she found her keys in the cabinet. "where you goin babygirl?" he questioned his daughter again.

zoey instantly grinned from the question that reminded her on where she was going at the moment. "i'm gonna go tutor my friend cause the assistant principal assigned me to. i'm so excited pa i planned a whole thing for us to do." she clapped her hands.

zoey's dad could only let out a smile at her enthusiasm. "but where's mommy? i thought she had off today?" her dad shook his head. "nah they called ha in and that reminds me. you gon have to walk for a couple of days cause she gon have early shifts."

zoey nodded because even though it was a tradition for her mom to drop them off to school each year of the first week of school she understood that this time she couldn't. "okay we'll love you, imma be back in a bit."

"aight love you!"

"love you too!" zoey yelled as she closed the door from the behind, she patted around her pockets and pulled out her phone to message ddot since she had gotten his phone number today after numerous times of asking him.

DOT DOT 🫶🏾

i'm walking over to you houseeeee 💁🏾‍♀️, your home right?

who tf is this

you don't got my number saved dot? i thought we was friends fr fr 💔💔.
but it's zoey 😛💗💗

stop wit the corny emojis df
nd i am home, you gon be late 😂

oh i'm sorry i was changing and showered before cause
i hate not showering especially after school cause
the school air really could get you fucked up
so i like to be refreshed and all AND i'm going to
somebody else's house so that would be like disrespectful in a way

i ain't readin allat but pop ya shi ig.

okay well imma see you there byeee 💗💗
"dot dot🫶🏾 loved this message."

zoey smiled widely at the thread of her and ddot. she jus kept scrolling back up and down to see if it was real and it really was. there was no reason onto why zoey wanted to be friends with the boy so bad but she jus did.

it was something about the fact that he was the first person she had met that didn't like her bubbly personality. and that was the thing that drawn her to him.

in someway and somehow he didn't seem to give her the attention like she always gotten. even if it was unwanted attention she always got it but he just didn't like her. and zoey always wanted to please people cause she was a people pleaser.

you could ask her the littlest question as small as a pencil and she would go through every pocket of her bag to find that pencil fo you.

if you were to give her the slightest bad vibe of you didn't like she was gonna do anything in her ability to make you like her—that's what ended up with the stealing chain. it was jus a thing she acted way too fast on.

zoey finally made her way to ddot's front door and that!s when she started panicking a little. she didn't know who would be there to open the door—if it was either darrian or someone else. brushing off the nervousness that bubbled in her stomach she knocked on the door with a smile on her face.

zoey waited sometime before she heard footsteps from the inside before the door was opened. thankfully it was ddot right in front of her.

zoey just stands there, with a warm smile on her face. "ya ass late as fuck." he kissed his teeth as he opened the door for her wider.

he noticed that she looked a bit flustered but she still had a large smile on her face as always. "i'm sorry it's just—" "aight i ain't ask you allat so shut up." zoey closed her mouth with a small smile on her face as she follows the boy up to his room.

"aight what the fuck we gon do na?" ddot grumbled as he opened the door to his room and it was way more organized than zoey had expected. the room looked like it had gotten through hell and back but it wasn't that bad honestly in her opinion.

zoey could already tell he had smoked more than 2 blunts before she came over because it wrinkled of smoke in here.

ddot plops down on his bed—stretching his body out as he takes on his hoodie since it was honestly hot in his room. the low drill songs played on his apple tv while he started to spark up.

zoey didn't smoke like that honestly but she would take a blunt when it was offered to her. fried lungs at the age of 15..

zoey let out a breath as she opened up the pink binder. "okay so the assistant principal had told me to only help you with math but she said you were failing all of your classes so i didn't know what to do so i just decided to tutor you on all of the subjects since why not?"

darrian scrunched his face up at her talking. "do you hear the shi that comes out ya mouth zoey?" the girl couldn't help the smile that made its way onto her face when he said her name.

"yeahhh but wouldn't it be fun? i also made a whole playlist for helping while i tutor look." she smiles cheekily—opening up her phone to pull up the spotify playlist she made for the two.

zoey handed darrian the phone when she found the playlist she made a couple hours ago. "look and i added drill cause i know y'all like drill and stuff—but it has good songs other than that too!"

zoey scrolled down on the songs while ddot just watched with a unbothered look on his face. "sooo can i put it on?" she asked.

ddot just rolled his eyes cause she was doing way too much at the moment. "do ya shit bro."

zoey clapped her hands softly as she began playing the playlist at the highest volume possible while ddot turns off his apple tv .

"hollon lemme use the bathroom i'm already sick of hearin ya voice." he lied through his teeth cause he actually loves hearing her voice it was calming to him but he just didn't like the way she talks every single second.

zoey wasn't even bothered and let him go to the bathroom. the song 'rolling stone by brent  faiyaz,' played as zoey began looking around the room since she didn't have much time to when he was here,

if was like when ddot was here her mouth jus didn't stop going off. even if they had nothing to talk about she was never gonna stop talking. zoey's eyes landed on a framed photo that included a photograph of a woman who looked exactly like ddot. zoey felt her heart break a little from the photo because jus by the look of the woman she could tell that that is not his mother.

it was a small photo of them standing right next to each other, ddot's hair in two small braids with ice cream in his hand—he was smiling something zoey had never seen in her life.

zoey could immediately tell that the woman on the left of ddot was someone who he loved cause never in her life had she seen him smile like that. that was his grandma.

there was nobody else zoey could think of but his grandma and she knew she wasn't wrong. that was totally his grandma.

zoey looked away immediately when she heard the sound of the bathroom door open.

"yo you want me to order us shi? i already got the munchies." he asked the girl—looking her in the eyes and the smile had fallen from her face just a little from the thought of food but she kept it in her face.

"you don't gotta order me anything. i'm already full." zoey lord through her teeth while ddot mugged the girl as he made his way next to her on the bed, "what you eat today zoey??"

"food? i don't know." she mumbled—opening up the binder and completely ignoring ddot's hard stare at her. it didn't take much to ddot to tell she was lying. just from her tone and they way she wasn't going in a full rant on something she would do. 

"you like wendys?" he questioned her as he placed the order anyway. zoey only shrugged in response.

zoey cleared her throat. "okay so we can start with biology. so this is the lesson they were teaching in class today but we can start from a couple days ago when they started."

ddot just nodded while she continued on talking but he honestly was listening til he noticed how far away the girl was from him. "why you sittin so far away? c'mere," he gestured her with his hand.

zoey rolled her lips into her mouth so she doesn't look like a manic when she starts smiling. zoey now sat next to ddot on the side of the bed, "okay so this is the syllabus and this was the assignment she gave us yesterday i think." zoey bit her lip as she flashes through the papers.

"okay yeah so this is it. ion know why she gave us two but.. the book says that you have to provide evidence so i wrote the part we were reading in class cause i can't take the book home."

ddot blinks about 5 times at her sentence. this was the first time somebody had gone out there way to do something so big for darrian. his eyes widen at the whole ass essay zoey had wrote down in the most neat handwriting he's seen.

"nah ain't no way you had to write allat fa me zoey. ya hands don't hurt the fuck?" he looks through the pages of writtin she has done, the articles that were read to them today but ddot had of coursed fallen asleep and that's the main reason onto why she wrote it in the first place.

zoey shrugged. "yeah but it's missing part 2 which i'll just copy later when i get home."

ddot let's out a small laugh. "nah when you go home you gon go to sleep you deadass don't have to write this shit. why couldn't you jus take a pic wit ya phone."

"ohhhhhh. i forgot." she laughs softly. "is it good tho? i didn't want the handwriting to look off cause i wrote the end in a rush." she asked, anxious.

something about zoey was that she was anxious about everything she makes. she always needed reassurance more than once, she didn't even need you to say you liked it she just wanted feedback.

"nah it's good, it's cute you wrote allat fo me. i ain't you liked me that much." she likes you so much that she stole your chain. zoey smiled brightly at the boy before looking back down at the binder notes.

while zoey was talking about lord knows ddot wasn't even paying attention, he was deadass just staring at her the whole time. he found the girl beautiful. the way that every single time she would smile her braces would show—he honestly found it cute.

but that pretty smile and braces combo was honestly doing something to him and he didn't like that.

she always had radiant smile that lit up her face, making her even more attractive to ddot. he was the first girl that was so happy—he didn't like all her talking but he appreciated the fact she always wanted to talk to him.

ddot had paused his staring when he heard the sound of his phone notifying him of something, "oh hollon the foods here imma be back." he told zoey before leaving.

zoey decided to take off her hoodie since it was so furry inside along with the fact it was hot as fuck in his room she felt like she was gonna past out. when she took the hoodie off it revealed a white tank top that barely went past her belly button she didn't even notice that.

she frowned at the thought of ddot seeing her body—especially when she hadn't ate in so long she was scared of the way he would react to her body.

zoey quickly put the hoodie over her stomach because she didn't wanna put it on again with the heat in the room. she also pulled her hair out of the low bun it was in since it was straining her head, it was tight as fuck too.

she ended up changing her position, sitting with her legs crossed under her. "they deadass forgot ma drink bro," zoey heard ddot say when closed the door of his room. zoey smiled softly as he made his way to sit across from her now.

"here." he passed her the bag that held food. zoey had a uncomfortable feeling that was stuck in her throat—she didn't wanna eat but she also didn't want to make ddot feel like he waisted his money on her,

so with all the might in her she pulled out the food that lays in the bottom of the bag. she ends up taking the small apple juice that was in her bag—juice was always a good start.

"how you get a drink but i don't?" ddot grumbled under his breath as he continued look for the drinks he had ordered that were nowhere to be seen. zoey smiles. "you can have mine if you want i don't even like apple juice."

ddot shook his head tho. but if it was any other person he would've snatched that shit before they even said anything.

"nah that hit even ya drink fr yours right here but mine ain't nd i ordered sprite.." he gave her the carton box that only held one drink the the spots of it. it looked like a pink drink and zoey already felt like she was eating too much so she shakes her head.

"no you can have it it's fine." she hands the carton box over to him.

ddot felt the ends of his lips twitchin up but he nodded and began to sip on the drink while zoey jus got back to tutoring him.

he noticed on how zoey didn't once put her hand back in the crumpled back which made him furrow his eyes brows, why wasn't she eating?

"oh and right hereeee is where the claim is." zoey leaned over to point to the papers that were laying next to ddot so zoey's who breast area were basically in his face. "wait is it?" zoey asked herself when she noticed there not the notes.

ddot's eyes dropped to her chest, seeing her boobs that were in the white top. due to how short the top was they were right there, he didn't mean to look but shi... he ain't regret it either.

"okay no so those are for the next chapter never mind. but that was the claim for the biology argument that was also needed in this one." zoey leaned back to when she was sitting but ddot was not paying attention to any of that shit.

"ddot—are you listening??" zoey's voice cut ddot's thoughts while he jus licks his lips before meeting her eyes. "it's hard to pay attention i ain't even gon lie."

zoey giggled softly because she was oblivious to the whole thing. "okay well pay attention or you might fail,"

ddot nods once again but he wasn't planning on payin attention for the rest of the time the two had left with each other. his eyes fell down to her lips that were filled with lip gloss, he never noticed how kissable they looked.

"ddottttt pay attention." she whined when she noticed he still wasn't paying attention.

he looked at her with a deadpanned expression. "do you even know what you doing rn?" zoey shook her head while he chuckled lowly. "you see the way you look? a nigga distracted."

zoey smiled slowly while she jus covered her mouth. "jus pay attention dot,"

"gimme a kiss first."

F SPEAKS 🧏🏾‍♀️

NOTE— DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN DMANNNNN. lord i love that man while my soulll 😛😛. anyways y'all one this notti book in ma drafts ?? been waitin here looking depressed in my drafts n shit. ANYWAYSSSS FIA LOVES UUU 💗💗.